After the last counseling session ended.
Xia Fanxing always felt a strange and uneasy feeling when he returned ho.
The howork that Mr. Ning assigned him brought back many childhood mories.
The faces and appearances of his parents, grandparents, and the elders around them were not blurry.
In order to complete the howork better.
He had to open the rooms, attic, and warehouse at ho that had been sealed since his grandparents and parents passed away.
Here, he found many yellowed photos and old items, which continuously deepened his mories of childhood.
As soon as he saw these things, he couldn’t stop feeling sad and miserable.
But what made him even sadder was that these feelings of sorrow and pain were born not because the family elders had passed away, but because he kept recalling the scenes of how they treated him, with control, dissatisfaction, disdain, questioning, and anger...
The more he recalled, the more he could sense the heavy, gray-like sadness.
Sotis being born into a good family is not necessarily happy for a person.
Because he might try very hard and never be able to reach the heights his grandparents and parents could reach.
Even sadder is that the parents and grandparents are also unwilling to accept having an ordinary child.
They always believe that since they are so excellent, they will definitely have an even more outstanding child, and also believe they have the ability to make their child more excellent, which leads to an extrely radical transformation and training.
But genes are so magical, sotis inexplicably unpredictable, rushing forward wildly and tossing cards randomly, leaving people helpless.
In his impression, when he was very young, his mother would warmly embrace him, kiss him, nurture him, encourage him, and praise him.
But under his father’s stern criticism, she quickly put away her nurturing side and followed his father’s strict parenting views.
She cared very much about his father’s evaluation and was always afraid of his dissatisfaction with her.
Since then, he never felt the embrace and warmth of his mother again.
...
Upon returning to the University of Science and Technology again.
Xia Fanxing felt a kind of complex emotion he had never felt before, constantly imrsed in a childhood without much joy.
Powerless, angry, and unresolved.
Because those who made him unhappy had all passed away.
"How have you been feeling these past two weeks?"
"Not bad."
Two weeks without seeing each other.
Xia Fanxing walked into Mr. Ning’s office and sat in this familiar chair.
Looking at Mr. Ning, who astonished him no matter how many tis he saw her, he struggled to suppress his negative emotions, trying to look as calm as possible.
But it was completely useless.
In Mr. Ning’s eyes, he was full of flaws.
So, after staring at each other silently for a long ti.
Xia Fanxing gave up and slumped on the chair with a face full of agitation, "Not well, I’m not doing well, I feel like I’m depressed again, I went through the family warehouse, looked at old family photos and items, and I found that I look weak and small in every family photo, everyone around looks more dazzling, which makes more painful, I can’t help but feel wronged and sad."
Xia Fanxing, who hadn’t shed a tear at ho, started sniffling and crying as soon as he sat in front of Mr. Ning.
Ning Youguang quietly handed him a box of tissues: "Do you feel better now?"
"A bit better than before."
"You see, sadness, pain, and unhappiness all have reasons, don’t they?"
"But I don’t like these feelings, and I don’t like being in such a state." Xia Fanxing covered his face with tissues and cried out loud.
"Don’t like what state, the crying state or the state of pain and suffering?" Mr. Ning asked calmly, unaffected by his emotions.
"The crying state." Xia Fanxing lowered the tissue from his face and frowned at Mr. Ning, who remained calm, "Don’t you think my state is pathetic?"
"I don’t think so. Is crying a pathetic thing?"
"Yes, I think it’s very pathetic, which is why I don’t like this state."
"You certainly don’t like being in this state, but to better understand yourself, you have to connect with your emotions, learn to understand it. It is a part of us, part of our whole life that we cannot separate. If you forcibly want to disregard so of your emotions, then you are ignoring a part of your body. To so extent, this makes a person incomplete."
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