[BL] Bound to My Enemy: The Billionaire Who Took My Girl Chapter 208: The ugly past

NOAH

"You have no idea how I see you."

The words didn’t just hang in the air; they landed sowhere deep inside , in a place I usually kept boarded up and dark. I heard them twice, once as a vibration in the cool park air, and once as an echo in the hollow of my chest. The second ti was louder. It was a physical weight, a pressure that made it hard to rember how to keep my expression neutral.

A flutter started in my stomach, unbidden and entirely without my permission. It was the specific, terrifying warmth of being looked at by Cassian Wolfe as if I actually mattered. Cassian didn’t do anything by accident. He didn’t look at things without intent. He was a man of cold logic and surgical precision, which made the way he was staring at right now feel like a slow-motion car crash.

It’s Cassian, my brain whispered, a frantic correction filed away for exactly this kind of ergency. Cassian, who collected you like a debt. Cassian, who has never once spoken about feelings. Cassian, who is the last person on earth you should be constructing a hope around.

But then I looked at him. Truly looked at him. I rembered the way his hand had felt moving through my hair in the dark corner of the tropolitan Club. I rembered the apology, the sincere, unvarnished I’m sorry that had stripped my defenses bare. The park had been his idea. This table, the street food, the way he had spent the last hour ticulously dismantling my sadness, he had done it all because he saw .

I was falling. I could feel the rate of it increasing, the terrifying acceleration of caring about soone when you weren’t sure they could ever care back. It was a different category of hurt, one I didn’t have a na for yet, and I realized with a jolt of fear that if I was wrong about this, about him, the disappointnt would probably finish what my family had started.

I took a shaky breath, looking down at the lting remains of my milkshake. I couldn’t look at his eyes anymore; they were too much.

"Okay," I said, my voice barely a thread. "I’ll talk about it."

I started with the mory that had the most mileage. It was the one I had returned to so many tis that the edges were worn smooth, like a stone in a river.

"Nick was seven when I realized the math was never going to work in my favor," I began, my voice soft. "He was already better. At everything. He read faster, he ran faster, he could answer questions in class before I’d even finished hearing them. I watched the way adults arranged themselves around him. Teachers, family friends... my father."

I could still see it. My father standing in the hallway of our old house, looking at Nick’s report card with a quiet, satisfied nod, and then looking at mine with the kind of polite disappointnt you’d show a waiter who’d brought the wrong order.

When most kids were already figuring out what it ant to make your parents proud, I was already drowning in the disappointnt my father felt towards .

"My father had this philosophy," I continued, tracing a pattern in the condensation on the table. "He called it a principle. He’d say, ’Excellence is not given, Noah; it is demonstrated. A man earns his place at the table or he doesn’t have one.’ He said it to both of us, but he only applied it to . Nick never needed to be told to earn anything. Nick just was excellence."

I rembered the years I spent trying to close that gap. The late nights studying until the text blurred into illegible sars on the page. The sports I wasn’t built for, the bruised shins and the breathless lungs, pushing myself until I was physically sick just to see if I could catch a glimr of that sa look in my father’s eyes. It never worked. The accounting always ca out the sa.

"At so point, the trying cost sothing," I said, my throat tightening. "I ended up in the hospital. I was fourteen. I thought... I thought maybe that would be the mont he’d see . But when he ca to the room, he didn’t ask if I was okay. He looked at like I was a budget deficit. He called it ’attention-seeking.’ He’d decided what the truth was, and the truth was that I was an inconvenience."

And Nick. Nick had learned early on that our father’s approval was a finite resource. If I had a piece of it, Nick had less. So the sabotage started. It began small, a hidden notebook, a whispered rumor, and then it beca specific.

Precise. Nick knew exactly where my pressure points were because we grew up in the sa war zone. He used the sa wounds. He pressed on them Because he could, because it worked, and because no one ever told him to stop.

I felt the air in the park grow heavy as I approached the thing I never talked about.

"The last year of high school," I whispered, the words coming slower now. "There was an incident. I... I got held back a year."

The mory arrived without an invitation. It wasn’t a thought; it was a sensory imrsion. Suddenly, the park was gone, and I was back in the principal’s office. I could sll the institutional floor wax and the stale, recycled air. I could feel the weight of the heavy wooden chair beneath , making feel even smaller than I was.

Everyone was looking at . The principal, a teacher I didn’t recognize, so administrator with a clipboard. And my father.

His voice hadn’t been raised. He never needed volu to draw blood. He spoke to in that room with a tone that said I was a problem to be managed, not a son to be comforted. He looked at like a stranger who had inconvenienced his schedule.