[BL] Bound to My Enemy: The Billionaire Who Took My Girl Chapter 317: a sad name

NOAH

Three weeks.

The hospital room slled like bleach and plastic, a sharp scent that had crawled into the fabric of my clothes days ago and refused to leave.

I had been sitting in the sa vinyl armchair for nearly a monthly now. At first, the nurses used to ask if I needed a blanket, or a cup of water from the cooler down the hall, or if I wanted to use the family waiting area on the fourth floor.

Now they didn’t ask anything. I had been here so long that I felt like a piece of the furniture, just another fixture they had to walk around when they ca in to check the bags of clear fluid hanging from the tal poles.

My laptop was balanced on my knees, the heat from the battery warming through my trousers. I was working because work was the only thing that had a beginning and an end anymore.

I answered the emails from the main office, filed the weekly expense reports, and took care of the executive liaison duties that kept the whole machine running.

The company didn’t stop moving just because the man who built it was lying under a thin white sheet, unable to breathe on his own.

I kept typing, my fingers hitting the keys in a steady rhythm, pretending that this was just a normal afternoon. I pretended that Cassian was just taking a long nap, that he was tired from a heavy week of etings and would open his eyes the mont the sun went down.

A clear plastic oxygen mask covered his nose and mouth, fogging up slightly with every shallow breath he took.

He lay there, completely still, beneath a rhythmic clicking sound.

The dark purple bruises on his neck had turned a faint, yellow-green color before disappearing entirely, and the thick surgical gauze around his shoulder was changed every morning by people with cold, professional hands.

I always watched them do it. I didn’t know how to change a dressing, but I felt like soone had to look, soone had to stay awake to make sure they were being gentle with him.

I learned how to live next to a quiet body after three weeks. I learned how to fill the empty space with your own breathing, sitting there hour after hour, knowing that being in the room took everything I had left to give, even though it didn’t change a single thing.

Then, his lips moved beneath the clear plastic.

I didn’t look up right away. My fingers stayed on the laptop keyboard, my eyes still fixed on a spreadsheet full of logistics data, but my brain caught the tiny flutter of movent in the corner of my eye.

A half-second later, the silence of the room felt different. I set the computer on the small table by the chair and stood up.

His mouth opened just a fraction behind the mask, the dry skin of his lips splitting slightly against the plastic rim. The sound that ca out wasn’t a word yet. It was lower than a whisper, muffled and distant, just a rough scrape of air against his teeth, almost nothing at all.

I leaned forward, my hands resting on the cold tal safety rail of the bed. "Cassian," I said, keeping my voice low so I wouldn’t scare him if he was coming up from the dark. "Hey. I’m right here."

He didn’t wake up. His eyelashes didn’t even twitch. But his throat moved, swallowing hard, and then he spoke, his breath fogging the plastic cone.

The word ca out clearly this ti, heavy and round despite the barrier over his face, the way people talk when they are deep inside a dream they can’t escape, speaking from a place that had nothing to do with this clean hospital room or the sun coming through the glass.

"Julian."

I froze. I was stuck half-way out of my chair, my right hand suspended in the air where I had been reaching out to touch his forehead. The na seed to hang in the space between us, cold and heavy.

"I’m sorry," Cassian murmured, the glass of the mask blurring with the warmth of his breath. He wasn’t talking to . He wasn’t talking to the nurse who had left her clipboard on the counter.

He was talking to soone who wasn’t here, soone who might be miles away or years away, his voice carrying a weight that made my own chest ache.

It sounded like sothing he had been holding onto for a very long ti, a phrase he was delivering either too late to save anyone, or not late enough to let it go.

Then, two tears leaked out from under his tightly closed eyelids. They ran down his temples, soaking into the dark hair near his ears, but his breathing didn’t change.

He didn’t know he was crying. He wasn’t here with in the room; he was sowhere far down in his own head, running through a story I didn’t know the words to.

I sat back down in the armchair, my movents slow and heavy. My hand reached out and gripped the hard edge of the mattress, the tal fra biting into my palm. It was the closest I ever let myself get to him most days.

Inside my chest, everything started to break apart at the sa ti. The first thing I felt was a sharp spike of relief.

He had spoken. He was moving his mouth, which ant his brain was still working, that he was still alive sowhere behind those pale eyelids. He hadn’t slipped away into the gray flatline the doctors were worried about.

But then ca the second thing. The na.

Julian.

Cassian had said it with an intimacy that made feel like an intruder in my own chair. It had co out of his mouth while he had no control, before he could put on the mask he wore every day during the winter.

I had spent months learning the shape of that mask, learning how to read the small adjustnts in his jaw and the way he held his shoulders when he was angry or tired.

But this na belonged to a part of him that didn’t have any armor. It belonged to the boy he was before he beca the man lying in this bed.

I hit the small red call button on the wall, and a few minutes later, the floor nurse ca in with a fresh tray of small plastic cups. I stood back in the doorway, watching her check the charts hanging from the foot of the bed.

She tapped the glass on the monitors, her fingers moving quickly across the buttons to check the average pulse rate.

The doctor ca in shortly after. It wasn’t Nick. My brother had stopped showing up about ten days ago, replaced by a shorter man nad Dr. Vasquez who carried himself with a quiet, efficient speed.

He was kind enough, but it was the sort of kindness people use when they have forty other rooms to visit before their shift ends at five.

"It’s a good sign," Dr. Vasquez said, shining a tiny penlight into Cassian’s eyes for a second before clicking it off. "The brain activity on the monitor is jumping. He’s processing."

I felt a little relief.

"He could wake soon," the doctor added, turning back toward the door with his tablet under his arm.

He didn’t say the rest of the sentence. He didn’t say or he could stay like this for another three months, but I heard it anyway.

I stayed by the door for a while after they left, looking at the charts. The handwriting at the top of the white page had changed.

The short, sharp loops that Nick always used were gone, replaced by the wide, neat print of the new staff.

The familiar, hurried way Nick used to move around the bed... checking the lines himself, grunting when he didn’t like a number was entirely missing from the room now.

I had asked the head nurse about it on Tuesday morning while she was clearing away the empty water cups.

She had been very careful with her words, keeping her eyes down on her tray. "Dr. Bennett has other patients who require his direct attention right now," she’d said, her voice dropping into that smooth, practiced tone they use for relatives.

"He made sure Dr. Vasquez took over the primary oversight before he stepped away. Are you worried about the level of care Mr. Vance is receiving?"

"No," I had told her, keeping my face straight. "Thank you."

But I knew why. Of course Nick had found a way to stop coming to the room. He was smart enough to arrange the schedule so he wouldn’t have to look in the eye every morning and explain why he wasn’t here anymore.

He didn’t want to have the conversation. He probably saw sitting in that vinyl chair day after day, my laptop open, my coat thrown over the back, and decided it was too much.

It was a situation he didn’t want to manage, a reminder of things he’d rather leave outside the hospital gates.

I didn’t bla him for it. Not really.

When the nurses finally finished their rounds, the room settled back into its heavy, gray quiet.

I went back to my chair. Cassian’s face was dry now, the two tears having evaporated into the air-conditioned cold, leaving no mark behind on his skin.

. . .

The automatic glass doors of the lobby slid open with a soft hiss, letting out into the cool evening air.

The street was full of the regular, noisy life of the city, cabs honking at the intersection, people rushing toward the underground station with their collars pulled up against the breeze, the sll of roasted nuts from the cart on the corner.

The world hadn’t stopped just because I had spent the last nine hours in a room where nothing changed.

I stood on the edge of the pavent, the heavy leather strap of my briefcase digging into my shoulder.

My laptop was packed away, my work for the day was finished, and there was absolutely nothing else I could do to help the man on the fifth floor. My presence didn’t alter his blood pressure; it didn’t make his eyes open.

The people passing had places to go. They were walking with quick, purposeful steps, arguing on their phones, or laughing with friends on their way to the bars down the street.

There was a particular kind of cruelty in seeing how easily the city kept moving when your own life felt like it had been pinned down under a piece of heavy lead.

And that na was still there, sitting right at the front of my mind where I had been trying to scrub it away since three o’clock.

Julian.

I thought about the old leather wallet I had found in Cassian’s room week ago. There were three different identification cards tucked into the back slot, and one of them had that na printed across the plastic in faded black ink.

I hadn’t thought much of it at the ti.

But the photograph hidden behind the cards, too. I rembered Cassian’s face in that photograph. He was looking down at the other boy with an expression of pure, unguardable devotion, the kind of look he never gave anyone in the real world.

It was the exact look I had spent months wishing he would give when we were alone in his room, completely clear and visible on the old glossy paper.

The pieces ca together in my head without my permission.

The photograph in the wallet, the old identification card, the na Cassian had whispered into the dark room, and the tears that had ruined his face while he was dreaming, they all ford one single line that led to a place I couldn’t go.

Julian.

That must have been his na.