"YOU WERE STANDING in the sunroom," Grayson said, his voice taking on that distant quality of mory. "About three weeks after you arrived. You didn’t know I was watching."
Mailah’s heart skipped. "What was I doing?"
"Talking to the roses." A smile ghosted across his face. "Full conversations, like they were old friends. You asked them how their day was. Told them about a book you’d just finished."
"That sounds embarrassing."
"It was perfect." His thumb traced circles on her palm. "Because in that mont, you weren’t performing. You weren’t trying to be Lailah or anyone else. You were just... you. Unguarded and genuinely kind to flowers that couldn’t talk back."
"They might have been listening."
"That’s what made it perfect. You treated them like they mattered." He shifted closer, the careful distance shrinking. "That’s when I knew I was in trouble. When I realized I’d spend the rest of my existence wanting to see that version of you—the one who talks to roses and doesn’t care if soone’s watching."
Her throat tightened. "You’ve been watching for that long?"
"Longer. But that’s when I stopped pretending I wasn’t."
"Stalker," she accused, but there was no heat in it.
"Hopelessly devoted stalker," he corrected.
They fell into comfortable silence, fingers still entwined. Outside, night sounds drifted through the open window—crickets, distant owls, the rustle of wind through olive trees.
"My turn," Mailah said. "When did you know? That you were falling for ?"
Grayson’s expression turned thoughtful. "The night you confronted about feeding. You cornered in the study, demanded to know why I was avoiding you, and refused to accept any of my carefully crafted deflections."
"I rember. You tried to scare off by explaining exactly how dangerous you were."
"And you laughed." Wonder colored his voice. "You actually laughed and told you’d faced scarier things."
He turned to face her fully, his shadow form solidifying until he was almost completely corporeal. "You looked at , at what I am, at all the reasons you should run, and you chose to stay. Not out of obligation or fear or arrangent. You just... stayed."
"Where else would I go?" she asked simply. "You’re here."
His breath caught. "Mailah—"
"Besides," she continued, trying to lighten the intensity before it overwheld them both, "soone had to keep you from becoming a complete hermit. You were turning into a grumpy shut-in."
"I was not—"
"You were turning psychotic."
Despite himself, he laughed—a real one that made his eyes crinkle.
She dissolved into giggles, muffling them against his shoulder to avoid waking the house. He held her through it, his own laughter rumbling quietly beneath her ear.
When they finally settled, Mailah felt lighter than she had all day. Despite Varrow, despite the Council, despite everything hanging over them—this mont felt stolen and precious and completely theirs.
"Ask sothing else," Grayson said. "Sothing you’ve wanted to know but never asked."
She thought carefully. "The abstinence. All those centuries. Was it really worth it?"
He sighed, settling deeper into the pillows. "I thought it was worth it. I convinced myself that avoiding my nature made noble. Better. More human." He paused. "But truthfully? I think I was just afraid."
"Of what?"
"Of caring. Of connecting. Of letting soone close enough to hurt ." His voice dropped. "Every marriage I arranged was designed to maintain distance. I chose partners who wanted nothing from , who expected nothing. It was safe. Lonely, but safe."
"And now?"
"Now I’m terrified every second of every day that I’ll hurt you. That I’ll lose control at the worst possible mont. That Varrow’s right and I’ll drain you dry in front of everyone." His hand tightened on hers. "But I’d rather be terrified with you than safe and alone. That’s how completely you’ve undone ."
Mailah’s eyes burned with unshed tears. "You won’t hurt ."
"You can’t know that."
"I know you."
He looked at her like she’d perford a miracle. "How are you real?"
"Stubbornness and spite, mostly."
"That tracks."
She shifted closer, eliminating the last inch of careful distance between them. "Tell sothing nobody else knows. Your deepest secret."
He was quiet for a long mont. When he spoke, his voice was barely above a whisper. "I’m afraid the wedding will happen."
"What?"
"Everyone thinks I’m worried it’ll be cancelled. That the Council will shut it down or Varrow will succeed in sabotaging it. But that’s not what terrifies ." He t her gaze. "I’m terrified it’ll succeed. That we’ll complete the bond and you’ll feel everything—all my hunger, all my darkness, three centuries of buried instinct. And you’ll realize you made a mistake."
"Grayson—"
"I’m afraid," he continued, the words tumbling out now like a confession, "that the mont we’re truly connected, you’ll understand what I really am underneath all the control. And you’ll wish you’d run when you had the chance."
Mailah took his face in both hands, making him look at her. "Listen to very carefully. I already know what you are. I’ve felt your hunger—in the dream realm, during feeding, every ti you look at like you’re starving. And I’m still here. I’m still choosing you."
"But—"
"No buts. Grayson, do you know what I’m afraid of?"
"What?"
"That you’ll feel my fears through the bond. My insecurities. All the ways I think I’m not enough—not smart enough, not brave enough, not worthy of soone who’s lived three centuries and seen empires rise and fall." Her voice shook. "I’m afraid you’ll realize you’re bonding yourself to an ordinary human who talks to roses and can’t even keep houseplants alive."
"You’re not ordinary."
"Neither are you. You’re just scared of being loved." She pressed her forehead to his. "But tough luck, demon boy. You’re stuck with ."
"Stubborn human."
"Dramatic incubus."
They stayed like that, breathing in sync, the world narrowed to just this—the warmth between them, the steady beat of his heart, the way his shadow form was almost completely solid now, anchored by her presence.
"Mailah?" His voice was different now—deeper, rougher.
"Yeah?"
"I need to leave. Right now."
She felt it then—the hunger. Not overwhelming, but present. A reminder of what he was, what he’d always be.
"Okay," she said, even though everything in her wanted him to stay.
He pulled back, his form already flickering at the edges. "I’m sorry."
"Don’t be. You’re practicing restraint. That’s good."
"It doesn’t feel good. It feels like torture."
"How very dramatic of you."
Despite the tension, he smiled. "You bring it out in ."
He stood, his form becoming more shadow than substance. But before he could disappear entirely, he leaned down and pressed a kiss to her forehead—solid enough to feel, gone too quickly.
"Sleep," he said. "Tomorrow is going to be hell."
"Define hell."
"The Council asking invasive questions for six hours while Varrow lurks sowhere plotting our demise."
He faded into shadow, then disappeared entirely, leaving only the faint scent of cedar and the mory of warmth.
Mailah lay back, staring at the ceiling, her heart still racing from his proximity. Shadow materialized at the foot of the bed, purring loudly.
"He’s got it bad, doesn’t he?" Mailah asked the cat.
Shadow’s purr intensified—clear agreent.
"Yeah. too."
She closed her eyes, exhaustion finally catching up. Tomorrow would bring the Council and their questions. The day after—if they were lucky—the wedding.
But tonight had given her sothing more valuable than sleep: certainty.
Even if it ant standing in front of hundreds of supernatural beings and admitting every truth, every fear, every reason their bond shouldn’t work.
Especially then.
Because love wasn’t about being perfect or safe or reasonable.
It was about choosing soone anyway. Again and again. Through councils and curses and catastrophically bad timing.
Mailah smiled into the darkness.
Two days.
Two days until she bound herself to a centuries-old incubus who organized books by color and visited her dreams and looked at her like she was both his salvation and his doom.
She couldn’t wait.
Even if—especially if—it ant facing down the entire supernatural world to do it.
"Bring it on," she whispered into the quiet.
Shadow owed in agreent.
And sowhere in the villa, Mailah would bet her life savings that Grayson was thinking the exact sa thing.
Tomorrow, the Council.
Morning ca too soon and too bright.
Mailah woke to Shadow sitting on her chest for the nth ti, staring with those unblinking eyes that suggested she’d been waiting for hours.
"You’re the worst alarm clock," Mailah groaned.
Shadow owed, unrepentant.
Downstairs, she found organized chaos. Oliver had apparently never slept, still hunched over his ward diagrams with the manic energy of soone running on caffeine and spite. Lucien was making breakfast with aggressive enthusiasm, banging pans loud enough to wake the dead.
"Is he okay?" Mailah asked Elin, who sat at the table nursing coffee that looked strong enough to strip paint.
"He’s stress-cooking," Elin said. "It’s a whole thing. Last ti he stress-cooked, we ended up with seventeen types of bread and a cake that looked like a cri scene."
"That’s... specific."
"You haven’t lived until you’ve seen Lucien aggressively fold croissant dough while muttering about celestial politics."
As if summoned, Lucien appeared with a plate of perfectly golden pastries. "Eat. The Council will be here in three hours and I refuse to face them on an empty stomach."
"These look amazing," Mailah said, taking one.
"They’re rage croissants. They taste like spite and butter."
"My favorite combination."
Grayson erged from his study looking like he’d slept about as well as Oliver—which was to say, not at all. But when he saw Mailah, sothing in his expression softened.
"Morning," he said, his voice rough with exhaustion.
"Morning." She stood, crossing to him, and pressed a quick kiss to his cheek. "Ready to face the Council?"
"Absolutely not."
"Perfect. neither."
"We’re a disaster."
"The best kind."
Lucien made a gagging sound from the kitchen. "If you two don’t stop being adorable, I’m going to throw a croissant at you."
"Your croissants are too good to waste on violence," Mailah said.
"Fair point. I’ll use the burnt ones from yesterday."
"You kept the burnt ones?"
"For ammunition purposes."
The next three hours passed in a blur of preparation. They reviewed their story, coordinated their responses, prepared for every possible question the Council might ask.
And when the black cars finally pulled through the gates, when three Council mbers in immaculate suits stepped out with expressions of cold assessnt, Mailah stood beside Grayson and thought:
Here we go.
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