Seoha’s POV
I press my legs together.
No...no...please, not in the bed of the man that promised death if I fail to do my part.
Tears of sha flood my eyes, my lower belly is starting to cramp and my body starts to burn from inside, I can sll myself in the air, sickly sweet vanilla.
In pain, I look to the side and expect to see the tattooed man looking down at with disgust but he’s not here.
I roll out of the bed with my breath held, and I drag myself into my room, grateful that the room is right next door.
"Please..." I plead to no one in particular, needing help in anyway, I have a debt to pay, a child to protect...I can’t...
A gasp makes look up and I find the maid from the kitchen, Jisu, standing there with a basket at her waist.
"What are you doing?" she asks with a small voice, eyes wide with concern as she looks at , "I didn’t know...it ca early" I manage to whimper.
"Oh my god, co!" she says and helps into my room.
Once in the room, I fold myself into a ball on the floor, pressing my hands into my cramping stomach as the pain intensifies, it is just the pre-heat preparation for full heat but why today? Why?
"Look, boss took Sooin to school and will be back soon, this house...one of Choyeon’s rule is that heats are not welcod" she says and I bite down on my lip to keep back from letting out another whimper.
"But I can help you, I an...you have at least one hour before full heat, and I can sneak you so suppressant but you-"
"Give it to " I force the words and the face she makes looks like she’s pained to have to agree.
"You know the side effects" she says softly.
"Jisu please" I plead, holding on my stomach tighter as I cry out the word, I need to be able to stand if I will live to pay my black card debt.
"Fine, just...I’ll be back soon" she says kindly and leaves on the floor, my oga fights against the idea of swallowing pills to put biology on hold, but I have no choice.
My heats used to involve Daeshin’s clothes, Daeshin’s scent and Daeshin’s bed.
’Alpha...’ my oga calls and I grit my teeth to keep back the tears that should flow, no, I won’t miss him...I won’t miss a man that used .
I force myself to stay in this position, ignoring the slick staining my pants and the scent growing heavier till the girl returns with a bottle of pills, she hands two to and I swallow them down quickly.
"Sorry" she winces for as she keeps looking at pitifully.
"I ruined Taesan’s bed" I say and she mutters "oh no".
"I’ll lie about sothing...just stay here till the pills kick in" she says and leaves quickly, leaving with tears on my face.
Maybe this is why male ogas are hated...I should be a man and be strong, but I’m not.
A knock on my door startles and I lift myself, the pain is starting to dull with the pills working, but each step I take to the door is punishnt.
Taesan is the last person I want to see like this.
I open it slightly and find Junho with his hands in his pocket, "hello" he greets and bows to , I bow my head in respect.
"I’m to take you to work today" he says and I nod, unable to say any words to him right now.
"Seoha-ssi, are you okay? You’re sweating a lot" he says with concern and I give a nod instead of an answer...what answer can I possibly give? No?
"I’ll be out in a minute" I say and return the room.
I rush into the bathroom and clean myself as fast as I can, changing into new clothes, and slapping on a scent patch to hide my scent, by the ti I’m done I feel better.
The beta doesn’t say a word to as I walk behind him with jelly-like legs, not when we get to the car, not even when we get stuck in traffic and the pain in my stomach starts to throb dully...reminding that heats cannot be forced away.
"Boss is interviewing new designers" Junho murmurs as he drives as into the parking lot of Mountain Atelier, "on days like these he feels even more strict" he says and lets out a breath.
The alpha brings the car to a stop before he looks back at with a look I can’t decode in his eye.
"Seoha, do you have family?" he asks and I swallow before answering, "no"
"That’s sad, still, be careful" he says and gets out of the car to open my side of the car, the man holds out his hand to help out and with my breath held, I keep staring at his rough hand.
"Sorry, habit" he says and puts the hand behind him, stepping out the way for .
"Thank you" I whisper and get out of the car, the man nods politely and leads the way into building with behind, fight down what the pill can’t kill.
We walk past Yuki and she gives a tired smile, her eyes are red and swollen as she walks through a door without looking up.
"Is she okay?" I ask Junho.
"I would worry more about myself if I was you" he says softly, he tucks one hand into his pocket and beckon with the other to a man who cos to whisper in his ear.
"Fine then" he says before turning to , "you should get ready, boss is going to need you at a eting in a few minutes ti" he says and I nod once, feeling my stomachache increasing slowly.
The beta leaves in the middle of the store and I look around in awe and fear, feeling out of place as many dignified n and won move around.
So of them are with fabrics, so with piles of papers, no one would ever guess that they were working for the...captain.
A more painful cramp in my lower stomach reminds of my situation and that I need to take the pills again before I enter full heat...I place my hand on my stomach and head for the bathroom.
Like the last ti, "Seoha!" Daeshin calls and my head snaps up; I see the alpha coming towards with his face twisted in worry.
Why? Why this again? Isn’t fate tired of playing this sick ga with ?
The sound of his voice draws a moan out of my mouth, years of conditioning into wanting him, years of consoling my oga with the promise of him claiming us still has effect on like this.
I feel slick slide out of , and I turn to run away from him again, and the bottle of pills in my hand falls out of my hand to the floor.
"No..." I whisper in panic, I bend down to pick them up with shaky hands and Daeshin is suddenly by my side, bringing his scent with him and I force myself to keep picking the pills.
"Baby..." he calls.
"Let go..." I say in a broken voice and force his hand off as I push myself up, "you’re in heat, unmarked and in public, Seoha!" he yells, always as he grabs my upper arm, trying to control .
I used to crave it...but not anymore, not since decided I’m worth nothing but a tool to use.
"LET GO!" I scream and push him off , just in ti, the elevator in front opens and I push myself in.
I slam into the person in it and wrap my arm around them.
"Please...save " I whisper, pressing my face into their chest with heat licking at my bones from inside, it can’t be helped.
The deviously dangerous sll of thick storm, smoke and wood that has been teasing last night tells who I’m holding on to...the alpha I didn’t want to see like this is the one holding .
"Who is he?" the alpha growls and I lift my doe-like eyes to et his dark cold ones.
"My ex" I say and his brows pinch together, I realize, he’s not listening to ...I slap my hand over my scent patch as I catch my own scent leaking through.
"Fuck" Taesan curses and pushes to the wall of the elevator, I don’t fight against him, I know I should...instead I let out an helpless whimper as my back ets the cold wall.
"That damn sll" the alpha groans and with his hand behind my head, he crushes our lips together in a bruising kiss.
The elevator door is still open...I can still sll Daeshin.
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