Collide Gamer Lorelei Side Story 1 – Past Duty

Lorelei Side Story 1 – Past Duty

The Order of the Golden Rose was an old organization. It wasn’t as ancient as so other guilds in the Abyss, but it had amassed enough history and traditions to be respected. As an order in the service of the one and only Lady, their hierarchy had been strict from the start and only consolidated further as ti continued. Every man and woman had to understand their station and that station’s significance in the grand structure of the Order of the Golden Rose to ensure its success in protecting the innocent from the uncontrolled mages that would do them harm.

Like all organizations, the Order of the Golden Rose separated its mbers into various ranks. Inquisitors, stewards, soldiers, knights, commanders, priests, seers, to na only the most basic. Those ranks were filled by those fit for the demands of the job. At the core of many of those ranks sat powerful families.

Wardens of the Shield were mbers of the Brighton family. Consequently, the Brightons were the leaders of the Shield Branch of the Order of the Golden Rose. The sturdy nucleus of this carefully constructed organization, directing all efforts with the backing of their blessing – a power practically unique in the Abyss. Inheritance of Innate Abilities was known to happen, but a power that only existed in one woman in an entire bloodline at a ti was highly unusual. Particularly one that appeared less to make the individual themselves powerful and more to put them in connection with a higher power. The highest of powers, in the case of this blessing.

Around that divine authority sat several other families, distinguished through generations of service and represented by heads that bore the experience of hundreds of operations. All of them took pride in their occupation and trained their children to one day continue the work in their respective area of expertise.

One such family was that of the Varniks. The seers of the Golden Rose were forced into their occupation. Where other families continued their legacy out of pride, the Varniks had an Innate Ability that was similar to that of the Brightons in one way: it put them in contact with Gaia.

Prophecy was a fickle craft. Everyone who practiced it knew that much, including other minor seers that sotis managed to step into the Varniks’ domain in the Order. The mont one spoke a prophecy, they were possessed by a level of understanding that could not be compared to thinking. Like a sportsman did not calculate the accurate path of the ball in his head before catching it, so did the seer simply let their instincts take over to create a conclusion they were consciously hardly, if at all, able to comprehend. Also like a sportsman, a prophecy could not be made relying on information one did not have. For the regular seer, collecting a wealth of information to draw conclusions from was deeply necessary to speak a prophecy that could co true.

Varniks were different. Beyond trying to tell the future by themselves, they could attempt to draw from Gaia’s wisdom. The supre deity of reality knew all there was to know of what was inside it. Having all information that existed available allowed one to perceive the future with the highest possible accuracy. A Varnik was blessed with an aptitude for this craft like no other.

And they were cursed for it in their own way.

Being in connection to the entire knowledge of divinity was difficult on the human mind and body. Varniks gradually turned blind after their childhood, their previously normal eyes becoming more and more pale. By the end of the process, the pupils vanished entirely and the iris was left as a silvery white. Any Varnik with the Innate Ability turned blind. This was what forced them into the path of the seer.

Lorelei had cursed her fate when it had first reached out to her. She had been around twelve years old when it began to be visible. She had visited a mundane school at the ti and did what normal young girls did. They went to their classes, tried to make friends, and fell in love with boys that hadn’t hit the part of their life yet where they even understood what that really was.

His na had been Lawrence. That she still recalled it and his face had only to do with the way the events had disturbed her young mind. With waning sight, she had bumbled around school. The boy she liked had laughed at her like all the others. Threw an words at her like all the others. When she had returned ho, she had poured her heart out to her mother.

“Lawrence called a freak!” she had sobbed, a kid that had not yet learned about composure. “He made fun of in front of the whole class…” She had burrowed her face in her mother’s chest. “…I hate it, I hate it so much. Why can’t he…” Finally, she had broken into tears, unable to finish her sentence. Her mother had reached down and patted her head in an attempt to comfort her.

“You knew it would co,” the older woman had said quietly. “As you grow up you will change in more ways than the regular person. Life won’t always be easy. Soon, you won’t be able to continue going to school with the mundane children.”

“But, mom… I… I love him!” she had declared with the conviction of the innocent. “Why… how could he be so cruel to ? I rember his face perfectly from before… he made fun of my eyes…” The mory had reinforced her sadness, the stream of tears and lantations only interrupted by additional sobs. “No one cares, no one will ever love .”

“I love you,” her mom had assured in a calm voice, “and the Lady loves you. Soon you will control your gift. Their ridicule will pass you by, beco unimportant as you unravel the secrets of the universe. Space and ti will fold for you, you will see more than any eyes can see, and you will help protect humanity.”

Looking back at it, Lorelei realized that her mother had tried to give her hope. For the young, deeply shook girl, those had sounded empty. Platitudes that had nothing to do with her greater problem of her entire social life collapsing around her, just like the world had beco darker with each passing day.

“I don’t want a gift,” Lorelei had replied bitterly. “A blessing, a fate, a duty, I don’t want any of that. I want a life! I want friends and love! What good are these powers if they take that from ?”

Her mother had taken a short breath. Still maintaining her calm deanour, she had replied only after her daughter had taken a number of breaths, “There is a ritual that is supposed to help you with this. It’s an old one, incapable to be enacted by anyone who does not have a blessing like ours. The ritual will help you find your first true love.” Lorelei had raised her head and tried to focus on her mother’s face. She rembered it, but past the tears was only a dull blur. “But you are not ready yet. Soon maybe…”

It had not been soon.

Lorelei’s blindness had reached completion shortly thereafter. She was taken out of the mundane school system and put under private tutelage of the Order’s most talented teachers. The person closest to her age was the Warden herself, a few years her junior. Moira Brighton, the woman who would wield the shield blessed by the Lady and lead the Order in its many missions. Their relationship was complicated. Moira was nothing but a friend to the young seer, yet their positions didn’t allow for that to manifest properly in public discourse. Lorelei’s position in the Order was subordinate to that of Moira and it always would be. Those overtones remained, no matter how much they deepened their friendship. They completely overpowered their age difference as well.

Years passed and Lorelei learned to live with her blindness. ntally first, magically later, as she learned to channel her blessing in ways that let her perceive the world in ways more detailed than ever before. She didn’t just perceive the world around her, she perceived the very essence of it. At first it was limited to large objects, then her accuracy grew. Smaller and smaller things, she saw them all around her, manifested in her senses by the Lady’s grace.

The world was splendour itself, only becoming more so as the details she could see improved further until she could behold the very soul of those around her. In various colours and forms, the emotions and characters of people laid open for her to read. She could see lies and noble ambitions, human flaws and great regrets. Seldom she could read the reasons for their emotions. Even her powers to see had their limits. Every work the Varnik’s had written over the course of their history made this clear.

Visions turned from sothing she had to force to conjure or pray to receive randomly, to a practically daily occurrence. She could conjure them by will, directing them by touching objects related to whatever she wished, or the Order wished, to know about. They would co to her as she prayed. Sotis they would occur to her as she dread.

Each vision strained her a little bit. It was perhaps the greatest curse of the Varniks’ outstanding perception that it was not a power that lasted for a lifeti, not in its entirety anyway. Being a vessel for the Lady’s divine knowledge had taken away her first sight, and in ti her second sight would dull, worn out from the sheer amount of information she digested in service to her Lady and the Order.

Through training and acceptance of reality, Lorelei accepted this eventual outco as well. Callous as the words of her mother had felt at the ti, she had been right. Service to the Lady was a great enough purpose to shoulder the burden of blindness. Many of her visions served to avert catastrophic outcos.

Simultaneously, the question of love never left Lorelei’s young mind. She yearned for it, to feel connected to a man on a spiritual and physical level. To have soone who she could rely on on nights that she felt lonely. To know that she would have sothing beyond her service in her life. To care for soone after her vision had grown dull, like her mother had cared for her.

Each week, she would study the texts left by past Varniks. Long ago, she had found the passage about the ritual her mother had described, but its contents remained a mystery to her. Her blind eyes could perceive the words on the page in a way others could not. What was re ink to others was magic confined into words to her. Words that refused to make sense at first. Bit by bit, as her visions grew in their intensity and frequency, she managed to decipher the to.

One fateful night, not too long before rumours of the Gar had first started circulating, she had attempted the ritual for the umpteenth ti. Each ti she understood a little more and she was driven to finally unlock the secret of the to and her own future love.

She was in her bedroom, sitting illuminated by moonlight. This place and this hour were the only chance to do sothing for herself during the day. Wearing a white nightgown, she kneeled in the sparsely decorated room. There were no bright colours, no mirrors and no source of artificial light. That was, on a normal day.

Embers of burning coal rose from a small bowl. It sat in the middle of a strangle circle drawn with powder on the smooth floor. Symbols made from salt and stained with red drops expanded the magical arrangent further. The to sat in her lap, the important page open. Lorelei’s finger glided over the page as she followed the words.

She chanted sothing, a lody that was less made up of words and more power compacted into sound. Her finger stopped when she reached the end of the page. For a mont, she felt relief, having finally managed to decipher it all. Then, disappointnt, as nothing ca to her. No understanding, no vision, and no revelation.

Frustrated like she hadn’t been in years, she slamd the book shut and tossed the venerated text of her ancestors to the side. “It doesn’t work!” she complained out loud. “The language is vague and ancient, but it should work. It should show the man who will love .” Lorelei grabbed so of the salt from the circle and sprinkled it on the burning embers. Each grain vaporized in a puff of a strange, green smoke. She did it two more tis, desperately trying for anything that could work. Energy impregnated the air. Then, after the third ti, she felt words rise in her throat.

“At the end of conflict, where you will make a new ho, drowned in many lights, embraced and left alone by your future sisters, ravished by the purple and golden man,” she pressed out the stream of words, leaving her heavily breathing and confused. She had expected a vision, like practically all her perceptions of the future tended to be. It was unusual for a Varnik to speak prophecies. “By the Lady, what was that?” she mumbled, while scribbling the words down on a piece of paper, using a cipher. “I didn’t see him or his na. It shouldn’t do that. What does all this even an?”

She supposed it would make sense one day.