He grasped Senior Master Muu’s hand, resting his face on his arm, wailing in sorrow: "Dad, please wake up! I beg you, wake up! I was wrong... I know I was wrong... I shouldn’t have gone abroad, I should have stayed with you and Mom, Dad, I beg you, don’t let anything happen to you, open your eyes and look at ... I won’t go anywhere in the future, I’ll stay with you, Dad..."
Today, he finally understood the pain of wanting to care for one’s parents but finding it too late.
It hurt, so much.
The pain was like a heart being stabbed repeatedly with countless sharp knives, a pain worse than death.
What repeatedly flashed in his mind were mories of his parents’ past care and kindness towards him.
A father’s love, a mother’s embrace, a father’s approving smile, a mother’s delicious dishes.
Muu Qingwan was right to scold him.
His parents raising him, might as well have raised a dog.
A dog, from the day it’s raised, will always stay by its master’s side.
But his parents raised him, he left ho at thirty, and returned at fifty, by then his parents were already elderly.
He barely fulfilled his filial duties for a few days under their knees, and then his mom was gone.
Now, his dad was about to leave too...
He couldn’t bear it.
He truly couldn’t bear it.
From childhood to adulthood, his parents poured endless effort into him.
Though he was diocre in talent, he never admitted to being incapable, and after finishing his studies, he joined a company, causing countless troubles. His parents never blad him, always cleaning up after his sses, always encouraging him.
Yet, he was arrogant and thought it was his dad’s oppression that prevented him from achieving success.
He listened to Yang Jiezhen and moved his entire family abroad to manage his father-in-law’s company.
Only after taking charge did he realize how difficult it was to shoulder the responsibilities of being the head of a household.
His dad didn’t retire or hand over the company because he cared for him.
His dad bore the pressure, while he was sheltered, free to be willful, make mistakes, act recklessly.
After taking over his father-in-law’s company, he led with caution.
To keep the company afloat, he lived cautiously, bowing and scraping to build relationships, secure business, smiling through it all, drinking until his stomach bled.
It was then that he realized how hard it was for his dad.
He finally understood that the ones who loved him the most were his parents.
But he loved saving face.
He feared returning ho a failure and being laughed at.
He wanted to achieve sothing, to make his parents proud.
So he spent year after year abroad.
Eventually, the company collapsed, couldn’t sustain anymore.
To pay debts, he sold his car and house.
Destitute, he returned to the country with his wife and children.
His parents said nothing, they unconditionally accepted him.
His mom wiped her tears, saying, it’s good you ca back, it’s good you’re ho.
Aside from the embarrassnt of returning empty-handed, thinking he was a loser, he used to believe that returning would be good.
Upon return, they could reunite with his little sister.
He could finally fulfill his filial duty, care for his aged parents in their final days.
Yet he never expected his return would be like a death warrant to his parents.
After Muu Rushuang was arrested, fearing trouble from Yang Jiezhen, he decided that night, to take Yang Jiezhen and Muu Qiuchen back to Beijing.
He went to Muu Qingwan to say goodbye, Muu Qingwan told him to keep an eye on Yang Jiezhen, not to let her stir trouble before his parents, and upset them.
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