Even in the darkness, Tangze Asuka could sense a bit of that silent deanor. The corners of her mouth twitched slightly from having cried earlier. She continued to explain,
"Anyway, it’s just a kind of faith in our world. I’m actually not a Buddhist, it’s just that my dad hosts a temple in the Capital City, which is why I know so much about it..."
"He really likes making read Buddhist scriptures, those religious texts and things, which gives a headache. He talks about things like ’reciting the na of Buddha, his fundantal vow,’ hoping for Buddha to bless ... I never actually looked at them, just pretended to be diligent by word, which is why I have this verbal tic. Uh, if Buddha knew, he’d definitely be angry..."
In Fisher’s mind, what Tangze Asuka said had already automatically transford into the Mother Goddess Church, and largely, the wisdom her father followed was similar to the beliefs here...
"I see, but I wonder if reciting a na here will grant you protection from a God over there."
Tangze Asuka smiled slightly, then hugged her knees a bit tighter, muttering,
"It’s okay, compared to Fisher’s world, what we believe in probably doesn’t exist? Even if it does, soone as insincere as wouldn’t be saved just by chanting Buddha’s na verbally, right? Maybe, precisely because of my insincerity, Buddha has punished by bringing to this world?"
Sensing her low mood, Fisher subtly changed the subject,
"So before coming here, you were in school, right?"
"Yeah."
"How was school life?"
"...Terrible. Because I just transferred here for school, I hoschooled myself for three years of middle school. I struggled to step out and go to school, only to be ostracized by the girls in the class because I was an outsider."
"You an, bullying?"
"Not really, they knew my dad was a temple host, probably afraid of Buddha’s punishnt, so they dared not bully , they just bullied others... I was just ignored, occasionally mocked behind my back, of course, I didn’t have any friends. Sorry... talking about this to an adult like Mr. Fisher must sound very childish."
"It’s fine. If we’re really talking about childish, that Helair is the most childish and boring one... I an, Angel."
Tangze Asuka chuckled, covering her mouth as she laughed,
"Be careful, Helair Angel might silently appear behind you, Mr. Fisher."
"...Though I didn’t understand what you ant by middle and high school, what you ant is you’ve been away from school for quite a long ti, right? Why?"
"Ah, well..."
Tangze Asuka’s eyes seed a bit forlorn as she rembered sothing,
"Actually, when I was little, I was raised with my mom. She was a Tokyoite who t and married my dad, who went to Tokyo for college to study. But just like , my mom quickly grew to dislike my dad who went back to the Capital City to take over the temple, she yearned for city life and wanted to earn lots and lots of money..."
"At that ti in Japan, I heard a lot of people made tons of money, piles and piles of wealthy people living in lavish ways. My mom was the sa, I rember living in a tower near Tokyo Tower as a child, mom wouldn’t even walk to work, she’d spend several ten-thousand yen on a taxi fare. And as she lived better, she’d like to disparage my father in front of ..."
Though Fisher didn’t fully understand, he didn’t interrupt, because with his knowledge of the Lady, he keenly noticed that although Tangze Asuka’s tone was calm, her emotions were extrely intense,
"Mom seed to go crazy in such a life... no, the whole Tokyo seed crazy, so many people borrowed huge sums to invest in real estate and stocks, hoping to gain more and more money, and live even more lavishly, more extravagantly. But perhaps because I resembled my dad, I felt she wasn’t good to , often bringing other uncles ho..."
She laughed mockingly, and as her smile reached its peak, the shadows beneath that smile stretched out far and wide. She didn’t continue, but Fisher shot her a glance, paused slightly, and still asked,
"And then?"
"And then... and then... it was 1990, right? It was just one sudden day, one night... mom suddenly told there was no money at ho, the stocks had bottod out, there was no money to repay the loans... and then, she... jumped to her death. I also transferred from Tokyo to the Capital City, to my dad’s temple..."
In the darkness, Tangze Asuka seed to have a headache, especially when recalling these things. Fisher leaned against the wall, listening to the sound of sobbing again in the darkness, his fingers drumming against the wall,
"Sorry, Mr. Fisher... I just, I miss ho a little, I’ve been thinking every day... especially about my dad, thinking if I were gone, would he be sad... I’m so scared... everything here is so terrifying, I don’t know what to do... Sorry."
Fisher was silent for a mont, then imitated a hooked kiss and silently expressed his guilt to Renie in his heart. Then he suddenly turned to look at Tangze Asuka in the dark and abruptly spoke,
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