There was only darkness in front of , an eternal nothingness, an abyss like no other, I tried to move my body but I wasn't sure if it actually moved, I wasn't even sure if my eyes were even open. In this dark place, I could not sll anything, I could not feel anything and I could not hear anything, right now I felt like I'm talking but I was unsure if my mouth is moving or if this is just the voice in my head.
I tried to use my spiritual senses but even that didn't work. In such a place, the only reason I know I still exist is because of my own consciousness, talking to myself like this helps . I wasn't even sure if ti was passing by in this weird place, was I here for a few minutes, or has it been more than an hour now? Ti did it even exist in such a place?
In this place there was nothing but uncertainty, I wasn't even sure if this is truly part of the so-called test... Wait a minute, test? What test?... Now that I think about it, why am I even here?... What is this, I can't rember anything concrete, no matter how hard I try it's like a fog is blocking my thoughts.
It feels like when I got here I still had that mory but as ti passes by my mories seem to be like clouds in the sky. They're there but for so reason, he could not grasp them, it felt like knowing sothing but not fully knowing it.
I can't even rember my own na, but I'm sure I had a body once or is that just a fantasy of mine? No that can't be it... I'm sure that I had a body before, and that I was sobody, but then who am I and why am I here? All I can get from my vague mories is this is a test of so sort.
Once again I tried to see aside from my consciousness what else was there. If I'm truly alive shouldn't there be a heartbeat or any other sign? No, in this place except for my own consciousness, there is no sound so how can I know if my heart is still beating? Maybe instead of trying to figure out things about , I better figure out what kind of place this is.
Even now as I'm talking I'm not even sure if my words are just in my head or did I speak from my mouth. Alright, it's no use thinking so frantically, first I need to calm my mind and spirit.
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I guess in this situation all I can do is wait, if this is a test then there must be a proctor. Surely at so point, the person who created this test will appear.
I then started to wait in this endless darkness with nothing but my own thoughts. The flow of ti in this place was unknown but to , it felt like weeks, then months, then years went by, yet no matter how long I waited no one ca. It wouldn't be so bad if I was just experiencing this continuous nothingness, but the more I stay in this place the more my mories seem to fade.
If before my mories were simply vague but still there, now one by one my mories seem to be disappearing. Even though I'm supposed to not feel anything in this place, for so reason it seems like this darkness suddenly beca cold. What is happening to , what is this feeling I'm having?
Death is cruel but this is worst than death, for so reason that thought suddenly ca to my mind. I shook it off and continued to observe this weird feeling I'm having.
At first, I was simply curious about this growing feeling that I could not comprehend but the more it stayed the more things I felt. Even without my mories, even without knowing if I still have a body or not, sothing started to bubble up deep within . What is this, not only is the darkness invading from the outside it is even invading my own consciousness... Is this feeling perhaps, fear? Am I actually afraid?
I might not rember my own na, nor can I rember my own experiences, I'm not even sure if my thoughts are my own, but I'm sure I have never experienced such fear before. It's not like I have never experienced fear, even without my mory I'm sure I had experienced a few instances of fear, any living being would have such emotion, but this kind of fear that threatens my consciousness to such a degree should be a first for .
Still, it's not only fear I feel at this mont, it seems like there is another emotion that ca at the sa ti as fear.
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Unlike the fear that was spreading inside of him which was like the darkness surrounding him, sothing burning like a bright sun was also spreading within him. Different from the unknown feeling of fear this new feeling was sothing his very soul could never forget. From within his fear, excitent, and joy sprouted.
As the fear grew for so reason so did his excitent, the two grew proportionally, in fact, the more they grew within him the feeling of excitent slowly grew faster than the fear.
He no longer cared how long he was in the darkness, he no longer cared to know who he was or whatever mory he had, all he cared about at this mont was if the fear would be able to overwhelm him or if he could overco the great fear that was threatening his very existence.
When that very thought was born into his mind the fear within him no longer stood a chance of growing beyond his excitent. The cloudy vague mories in his mind started to clear up, it was then he could not help but smile.
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I rember now!!! I am an incarnation of the Strongest Mortal Soul, the forr Demon Lord Kretos, I am Ren!!!
Once he recalled this mory the fiery passion to surpass the darkness surrounding him burst outwards. The darkness was blown away by a light like a burning sun.
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