Leilani.
Everyone went crazy, especially the paparazzi who began taking pictures like maniacs, and by the ti I slowly pulled away from Jarek, he picked up my stuff, grabbed my arm and fled the hall so fast you would think the devil was hot on his tails.
My heart raced as we rushed out, and while we did, I never bothered once to look back at the triplets, I didn’t care to see the effects of my actions on them. I only knew that I felt about four pairs of eyes drilling holes into my back like lasers.
The drive to my house was extrely quiet, interrupted only by the occasional vibrating of my phone between my laps as ssages poured into the device— which happened a lot by the way.
Jay’s eyes would occasionally dart to the phone then to my face before he’d finally turn to look at the road every now and then.
And then suddenly he drawled; "Why?"
His straightforward question was more than enough for to imdiately know what he was asking. I dropped my head in sha. "Why did you kiss back there?"
Still silence. I couldn’t speak. I didn’t want to.
"Were you making a point to your mates?" He asked, making my heart race. "You know, you felt bad when I kissed you earlier tonight. You asked not to use you in that manner... but you did the sa; worse even because you were the one who actually used ."
The corners of my eyes felt like it was on fire. My eyes stung so bad and my tongue felt like it had been glued to the roof of my mouth. I wanted to open my mouth and explain everything to him... wanted to pull him close and apologize for what I did earlier; But sothing about the coldness in his voice held back. It made ball my hands together and gnash my teeth, my head lowered as I tried to force my tears back down.
I failed.
He continued anyway. "So now, are you going to ignore , Leilani? Are you not going to say a word to or try to explain to what’s going on? See Sweetcakes, I’m not even mad at you... I just want to understand what happens in your head sotis. I want to know what that was for."
"They cornered in the bathroom stall." I blurted out suddenly, hating myself for how shaky my voice sounded. And feeling self conscious due to the way he suddenly stopped to stare at , almost veering off the road and crashing into a nearby shop in the process.
"They WHAT?!" He shrieked, and then pausing to let out a long string of the dirtiest profanities I’ve heard in my entire life, he snapped; "Who cornered you in the restroom?"
"My mates. Kael, Caelum and Zevran. They threatened to hurt because apparently Chalice told them I had bullied her earlier tonight... And when I ntioned that they should reject , they refused..." Now, my voice broke. The tears I’d been trying to hold back slipped free from my eyes, dropping on my laps.
My hands shook violently. And at the sight, Jay imdiately swerved his car out of the road and parked by the side.
My eyes widened when he imdiately got out, rounded the vehicle and then ca to pry open the door at my side. He then leaned over.
And Goddess, his eyes looked murderous.
His wild rich scent filled my senses.
His voice felt like it was being scraped through a thin sheet of ice.
He growled; "Tell everything."
And like a completely obedient lamb, I did. I told him everything, not missing even the tiniest details.
My voice trembled when I added; "I always thought they were clueless about it. That they never knew about what it does to . But their words today confird otherwise. It made realize that they know. That they’ve always known. And they’ve been doing it all this while with the intention of punishing . Isn’t that cruel?"
Sothing dark and dangerous crossed Jarek’s eyes before he quickly clamped it down. He brushed his lips against my forehead affectionately, shook off his suit and then draped it over my shoulder. He voiced; "I’m so sorry."
"It’s not your fault." I countered.
"I know," he muttered quietly, "...but I feel like I’m powerless to help you right now. I want to but I don’t know what to do for you... and it makes feel weak. Like a coward. And I am sorry."
Maybe it was grief, or maybe it was the overwhelming urge to repay the triplets in their own coin but I found myself leaning forward, my eyes sparkling with an emotion even I do not recognize as I looked up at Jay and purred;
"You can help ."
He froze. His eyes thinned and upon gauging my face, he stiffly shook his head.
"I don’t know what you an."
"I am their mate, as they are mine" I whispered softly, hating myself for having to spell it out like this.
Jarek’s hand around the back of my seat turned chalk white due to how hard he was gripping at it. He said; "Yes, you are."
"And if I sleep with soone else but them, they’ll also feel it like I do."
He ground his teeth together. His gaze lowered. "Yes."
"So sleep with , Jay." I spat, causing his eyes to widen in shock. "I promise not to get too attached to you. I promise not to make a fuss over it or make things weird between us. I just want them to have a taste of their dicine. To feel it as hard as I’ve always felt it over the years... and I want them to reject ."
The silence that settled between us was deafening. His eyes darted between my eyes and lips, and after a mont’s hesitation, he pulled away, shook his head and whispered; "No, Leilani."
"Please Jay."
He frowned, shut the door on and then rounded the car again to return to his earlier position, and then he began to drive without saying anything.
And Goddess, I felt like I was about to disintegrate into the air. My trembling worsened. The tears in my eyes wouldn’t stop falling now, and the air... the fucking air in the car felt so charged.
Jarek wouldn’t talk to but I could feel his aura. And it was pretty intense. He growled suddenly; "I don’t think I can help you with that."
"Do I have to beg you?"
"No."
"Then what the fuck do you want to do for you to help ?"
Now, it had begun to rain and as Jay’s car’s wiper ca into play, I couldn’t help but watch it, using it to distract myself from the searing pain in my chest... and the embarrassnt clawing its way up my face and soul.
"I just can’t. Especially for the reason that you want to do it."
I closed my eyes and sighed, hoping that this way, the bile in my chest would dissolve. It didn’t. If anything, it grew in size. I muttered; "I’m not using you."
"And I don’t want to do it!" He snapped back.
"Why?"
"That’s none of your business!"
"I know it isn’t. But I want to know. So why?"
"Sweetcakes..."
"Do not call that!" I snapped, interrupting him. "Just tell why!"
"Because I have a mate, okay! And I cannot put her through agony simply because you want to get back at your mates!" He scread.
And as soon as the words left his mouth, I froze. My vision blurred. My heart shattered into a million tiny pieces.
"You have a mate?" I managed to whisper, and he turned to cast a look before his focus returned to the road.
"I do."
"Oh."
"Leilani, stop looking at like that. It’s not the way you think it..."
"Stop the car!" I bellowed, feeling a mix of anger and hurt and confusion coil tight at the bottom of my belly.
"Stop. What the hel—"
"Stop the goddamn car!" I yelled again, my voice coming out a little deep and electric. Jay’s eyes widened as he stopped to park at a corner of the road, but he refused to press the car’s kids-lock button, thereby refusing to let out.
I spun around to face him and growled. "I want you to open the door. Let out of here!"
"Stop being irrational, Leilani! It’s pouring outside and I’m only a few minutes away from your house. So sit the hell down and let us—"
Goddess, I wanted to listen. I wanted to be levelheaded, but the feeling of betrayal couldn’t simply be shaken off. I tried and failed to tell myself that I was simply overreacting... that it was my fault and not Jarek’s
But whenever I rember how he kissed . How he’s been here for ... the subtle hints he gave... and even the tis he beca jealous whenever I did as much as talked to other n, my rage would boil over.
It was his fault!
He made feel desired. He pretended to want . To be attracted to . When all he ever wanted was a person to pass ti with... a person whose feelings he could toy with while his mate remained protected by the side.
I seethed; "I can’t bear to be in the sa space with a disgusting man like you!" And that made Jay’s eyes widen in hurt. He tried to touch but I scooted away, shaking in rage and despair.
I scread in his face; "OPEN THE MOTHERFUCKING DOOR!"
But he wouldn’t listen. He didn’t even budge.
And that did it for . I turned to the door, intending to simply begin to rattle it until its handle broke or sothing like that. But as soon as my fingers touched it, the door burst open with a loud bang, ripping entirely off the rest of the car.
I however didn’t have the ti to react. I didn’t even care to wonder how that’s even possible as I stord out of the car and began to march the rest of the way to my house under the pouring rain.
Jay didn’t follow . He didn’t even call out to , and I wondered why.
User Comments
0 comments from readers