Lucy was able to talk so enthusiastically about sothing that hasn’t even begun... But since she had decided to truly start exploring a field she had never touched before, Su Jiang wouldn’t act without preparation. It seed she now had an extra task to handle.
Ti passed quickly, and Su Jiang dove into sorting out her second life, listing the various things she knew or had only heard about into a tiline chart. Since she was telling her own story, it was enough to "truthfully" narrate them to a certain extent, so there was no need to prepare detailed outlines or drafts.
Because it’s her "own" story, Su Jiang decided to use the first-person perspective. Although she hadn’t read many novels, she knew that first-person novels were unpopular because they often end up being self-indulgent fantasies ╮(╯▽╰)╭.
Take a first-person palace intrigue drama, for instance: the female protagonist, in order to express how beautiful she is to captivate all n, will inevitably focus on descriptions of appearance, gaze, actions, psychological changes, and attire. But if it’s written too beautifully, it always feels sowhat disgustingly narcissistic.
Besides, first-person narration also has a rather fatal flaw, which is the inability to accurately describe other people’s psychological states.
However, psychological activity is a very important aspect in novel writing. As the protagonist with a first-person perspective, how can one have the ability to "peek into others’ psychological activities" and write about what others are thinking at any given mont? It’s super easy to split personalities...
Even though first-person has various shortcomings, Su Jiang decided to write a novel purely to vent and share her emotions and past. She wasn’t yet aware enough to worry about what readers might think. Moreover, since it’s her own story, Su Jiang couldn’t shake off the feeling that using third-person narration to describe others’ psychological activities was slightly schizophrenic and looked super awkward...
The novel naturally began from when "I" first traversed through worlds, starting with the initial terror, the later fear, gradually transitioning to acceptance of reality, and confusion and panic about the future...
The first Chapter mainly focused on writing about "my" psychological changes, from initially resisting the strange environnt and characters to gradually accepting them. Then, towards the end of the Chapter, through a conversation between "parents," the shadow of the Insect Race and the larger background of the era was introduced...
"Tsk tsk tsk, Xiao ng types pretty fast, huh..." Lucy teased her with interest. Su Jiang could only roll her eyes—what other expression could she show? If her hand speed weren’t fast, how could she pilot a cha? That comnt was sowhat unnecessary, Lucy girl. "But, Xiao ng, have you really decided to write in the first person? Speaking as a reader, the likelihood of abandoning the story might be high..."
"This is just fine..." Su Jiang replied calmly, slightly organizing the first Chapter and then saving it, "If I chose third-person, I always feel sothing would be off... I just need to follow my own wishes."
"That does make sense!" Lucy clapped her right fist against her left palm and then said, "But doesn’t Xiao ng think the first Chapter is a bit too slow-paced?"
"It’s alright..." Su Jiang thought carefully; the scene of her first-ti crossing worlds was still vivid in her mory, and her feelings at that ti were just like that. Her parents thought their newborn daughter had health issues, so they took her to the hospital for a long ti, taking turns watching over her...
Actually, at that ti, Su Jiang felt guilty. She was unsure whether she had reincarnated and forgotten to drink ng Po Soup to erase mories, or if she had invaded this body, killing the parents’ biological child... Because of this thought, she was always hesitant.
She dared not imagine what this pair of parents, who loved their child to the core, would do if her secret was exposed... In reality, the possibility of them becoming angry and even berating her as a monster was quite high, wasn’t it? After all, their real child shouldn’t have so many mories...
Living hesitantly while yearning for her parents’ care and love—this was sothing the first-life Su Jiang never experienced... This situation continued until her father’s death in battle. When he was gone, it was too late for her regrets.
Adults thought a three-year-old child wouldn’t have too many mories and complex feelings, but Su Jiang was no ordinary child. She rembered vividly how her father died. She lost her father at three, her mother at six, and by nine, her last remaining grandparents had also passed away...
Her father’s death taught Su Jiang to truly understand this cruel and dangerous world. Her mother’s death motivated her to strive for peace with her own hands, protect everything she desired to protect. To pin her happiness and loved ones on others, waiting passively like a fool for the Alliance Warrior’s rescue—that would be shaful, foolish, and pathetically naive.
The passing of her grandparents possibly impacted her the most, completely stripping away the influence of the first-life Su Jiang, deeply reminding her she was rely Su Jiang, a descendant of four fallen Alliance Warrior heroes!
She grew along a path marked with blood, filled with that of the Insect Race, enemies, friends, family, comrades... Others are reborn from the flas; she and the survivors of that era walked through blood, the cost of growing too great for anyone to bear—no matter the collapse, one could only grit their teeth and persist...
"This is the story I want to write; it’s enough to write what’s in my heart..." Therefore, there’s no need to change the original intention to cater to others’ tastes—just follow one’s true self. Regarding Su Jiang’s persistence, Lucy inexplicably found no words to oppose.
"Uh... So, what is the main the of Xiao ng’s novel? What’s it about?"
"The story of a miserable heroine going through a series of unpleasant events, surrounded by people all dying, after which she self-destructs..."
Lucy: "..." (To be continued. If you like this work, please visit qidian to vote for recomndations or monthly tickets. Your support is my greatest motivation. Mobile users, please read at m.qidian.)
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