The resin was cracked.
One of the two lotuses - the bigger one, the first one Enya had ever given him - sat in his palm with its protective shell fractured into a web of thin, jagged lines. The clear coating that had sealed it, preserved it, kept it looking exactly the sa as the day it was made, was now broken.
The flower beneath the resin looked intact. The black petals were still layered, still holding that impossible perfection that had made the vendor frown and say they showed no signs of withering. But the shell around them was ruined - pieces of it already flaking away at the edges, exposing the dark surface of the petals to the open air for the first ti since they’d been sealed.
Raizen cupped the cracked lotus in both hands, turning it gently, trying to see if the damage went deeper. His fingers pressed the broken resin back against the petals, desperate and clumsy, as if he could reassemble it through sheer intention. The pieces didn’t fit. They’d fractured too thoroughly, the edges no longer aligned, and each ti he pressed one fragnt into place another fell away.
The flower itself seed fine. Undamaged. Perfect, even - the sa impossible symtry, the sa dark beauty. But the shell that had protected it was gone, and whatever that protection had been doing was no longer being done.
"No, no, no..." he murmured, pressing another fragnt back. It fell off imdiately.
A drop of blood landed on the flower.
From his nose - still bleeding from Kenzo’s backhand, the thin red stream running down his upper lip and off his chin. He’d completely forgotten about it. One drop, small and bright red, falling through the gap between his cupped hands and landing directly on the exposed cracked lotus.
At the center, gold ignited.
Faint at first - barely visible, a suggestion of warmth in the flower’s dark core. Where the deepest petals converged into a tight spiral, began to glow. Pale gold, soft and diffuse, pulsing with a rhythm that wasn’t chanical, electrical or anything Raizen had a category for. It was organic. Slow. Almost like breathing.
The lotus was breathing.
"Ooh, nice flowers!" Kenzo’s voice ca from sowhere behind him, accompanied by the sound of the hamr being rested against a trunk. "Where did you get those from -?"
Raizen didn’t hear him. His eyes were fixed on the glow - on the way it moved through the flower’s centre, expanding and contracting in waves that matched no rhythm he could identify. His hands had gone still, the broken resin forgotten, his entire attention drawn into the small golden pulse sitting in his palm.
Then the mories ca.
He didn’t summon them. Didn’t reach for them. They rose on their own, surfacing from sowhere half-forgotten, pulled upward by sothing that felt like a gentle hand reaching into still water and lifting whatever treasure it found at the bottom.
Enya.
The first ti she’d made the lotuses for him. Her face scrunched with effort, cheeks flushed, sweat at her temples, Eon pouring from her hands into a shape. The concentration in her eyes - fierce and total, her entire being focused on the act of creating sothing that didn’t exist yet. And then the mont she finished, the exhaustion breaking into a grin as she held the two flowers out to him, arms extended, slightly out of breath.
The mory was vivid, warm and entirely uninvited. It sat in his mind with a clarity that surprised him - he could feel the temperature of the air that day, could hear the sound of her breathing, could see the specific way the light had caught the dark petals as she’d placed them in his hands.
The glow in the lotus flared slightly brighter.
And behind Enya’s face, beneath it, layered underneath like a painting hidden beneath another painting - sothing else. Traces. Faint and washed-out, like looking at a photograph that had been left in the sun too long. A face he’d never t but that felt familiar in a way he couldn’t explain. A woman in a garden, sunlight falling across her shoulders, the sky above her clear, blue and impossibly open - no clouds, no overcast, just blue, deep and stretching forever. Flowers surrounded her, colourful ones, varieties Raizen had never seen, growing in arrangents that looked both wild and intentional. And beyond the flowers, beyond the garden, sothing else - shapes, feelings, impressions that dissolved before he could na them, like words spoken in a language he almost understood.
The traces faded. Enya’s face returned - brighter, closer, more present.
His mind moved through the mories without his permission, jumping from one to the next with a logic that wasn’t chronological but emotional. The first ti they’d t, Enya hanging from the literal ceiling, her energy filling the space between them before her words did. When he and Hikari bumped into her, the ride through Ukai, wind in their hair, Enya shouting sothing over her shoulder that he couldn’t hear and laughing when he shouted back, half terrified.
The golden centre pulsed brighter.
Then the Nyx hunt. Enya in the air, moving through the chaos with a focus that sohow scared and ammused Raizen at the sa ti. Then the mont he’d realized the sleeping drugs had hit him - his own stupid mistake, the double dose - and the panic of feeling his body shut down while threats still moved in the dark. And then her hands on his face, the bitter fruit forced against his lips.
The glow flared again. Brighter this ti - a pulse that pushed light between the dark petals and made the flower’s edges shimr.
Then it settled.
The gold eased back from its flare, contracting inward, finding a steady state. The breathing rhythm slowed, stabilized, and held. The centre of the cracked lotus glowed with a pale golden light that was no longer wavering or pulsing but constant - present, warm, alive.
Raizen held both flowers in his hands. The uncracked one sat in his left palm, still sealed in its resin shell, still dark, still dormant - a black lotus preserved exactly as it had been made. The cracked one sat in his right palm, its protective shell broken and falling away, its centre radiating a steady golden glow that cast faint light across his fingers.
The sa flower. The sa species. The sa creator.
One dark. One glowing.
He stared at them, and sowhere beneath the confusion, the wonder and the fading pain of Kenzo’s beating, a question ford that he didn’t yet have the answer to.
What had he just woken up?
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