Glory Of The Football Manager System Chapter 498: The Press Conference I

The whistle blew. West Brom 1-4 Crystal Palace. Six consecutive Premier League wins.

The players celebrated. The away end sang. And I walked across the pitch towards the away section, past the TV caras, past the match officials, past the West Brom stewards who watched with the wary resignation of n who had learned that Danny Walsh and touchlines were an unpredictable combination.

I reached the advertising boards in front of the Palace fans. Two thousand faces looking down at , scarves raised, voices hoarse. Nighy, clapping with his scarf around his neck. Spall, his arm around Rafe. Strangers in Palace shirts, n and won and children who had given up their Saturday to be here.

And in the third row, my mum.

She was crying.

She wasn’t trying to hide it. The tears were running down her face, and Frankie had his arm around her shoulder, and Emma was on her other side, her green coat buttoned to the chin, a Palace bobble hat that was clearly my mum’s sitting slightly too large on her red hair, her arm linked through my mother’s the way it had probably been linked since they left the Mondeo in the car park. My girlfriend and my mother, side by side, two won who had chosen before anyone else did.

My mum was looking at with the expression that only a mother can produce, the expression that contains every mory of every day since birth, every scraped knee, every bedti story, every cold morning on a football pitch, every fear and every hope compressed into a single, devastating, bottomless look of love.

I climbed onto the advertising board. A steward started towards and then thought better of it. I reached up, and she reached down, and our hands t across the barrier, and then I pulled myself up and I hugged her.

I hugged my mum in front of two thousand Crystal Palace fans at the Hawthorns on December 30th, 2017. She was small in my arms, smaller than I rembered, her coat rough against my face, her hair slling of the sa shampoo she had used since I was a boy. She was shaking. Not from the cold. From everything.

"I’m so proud of you," she said into my ear, her voice broken, her Moss Side accent thick with tears. "Your dad would have been so proud."

The away end fell silent. Not the hostile silence of an opposing crowd. The reverent silence of two thousand people watching a son hug his mother and understanding, without being told, that this mont was not for them but that they were privileged to witness it.

Then, softly, from sowhere in the middle of the section, soone started clapping. Slowly, rhythmically, the sound building. More hands joined.

More voices. Within seconds, the entire away end was applauding, a wall of sound that was not a celebration of a victory or a goal but a celebration of sothing simpler and more important. A boy and his mum. A story that started in Moss Side and led here, to this cold ground in the West Midlands, to this mont.

Frankie was standing below us, his flat cap in his hands, his old face crumpled into sothing I had never seen from him in twenty years. He was crying too.

Frankie Morrison, who had never shown emotion at a football ground, who had managed the Railway Arms for most of his life without ever once admitting that the ga ant anything more to him than a way to pass a Sunday, was standing in the away end with tears on his weathered cheeks and his flat cap pressed against his chest.

I let go of my mum. I reached for Emma. She leaned down, her hand finding my face, her green eyes bright and wet, and she kissed on the cheek. "You idiot," she whispered, laughing and crying at the sa ti. "You absolute idiot. Now go be professional."

I climbed back down. The fans were still applauding. I looked up at them, these two thousand people who had driven to West Bromwich on a Saturday in December because they believed in what we were building, and I mouthed two words: "Thank you."

They sang all the way back to the car park. "Danny Walsh’s red and blue army." Over and over. The sound followed through the concrete corridors of the Hawthorns and into the away dressing room, where my players were scattered across benches, exhausted and joyful, and where Sakho looked at and said, simply: "Your mother?"

"My mother."

He nodded. "Good. A man should always have his mother at the important matches."

I smiled at him. At Sakho. At Dann, who was unlacing his boots with the quiet satisfaction of a man who had done his job.

At Neves, who caught my eye and nodded, the full nod, the nod that said everything about Leicester and the canteen and Lurdes and forgiveness.

At Abraham, clutching the match ball, grinning, nineteen years old, and incandescent. At every single one of them. I smiled at my players because they had earned it, because they had carried when I couldn’t carry myself, because they were the reason any of this was real.

Then I walked to the press room. And the smile disappeared.

The Hawthorns press room. Fluorescent lights. Plastic chairs. Instant coffee. Twenty-five journalists. Laptops open. Recorders on the table. The usual faces from the BBC, Sky, The Guardian, The Athletic, the agencies.

They had been watching in press conferences all season. They knew the routine. The composed answers. The controlled deflections. The mask of professional calm that the caras required.

I sat down. The mask was in place.

"Danny, six consecutive wins. Second in the table on December thirtieth. How do you summarise the year?"

I looked at the journalist. The BBC man. I gave him the answer he expected, because the press conference was not the place for the truth. The truth was in the away end, in the hug, in the shampoo that slled like ho.

The truth was in Frankie’s flat cap pressed against his chest and Emma’s hand on my face and my mother’s voice breaking on the word "proud." Those things belonged to . The press conference belonged to the performance.

"It’s been a remarkable year for this football club," I said, my voice even, my face composed. "The players have been exceptional. The staff has been outstanding. The supporters have been the best in the country. We’re second in the Premier League at the end of December, and we intend to stay there."

"The free kick from Rodríguez. Was there ever any doubt?"

"Jas Rodríguez has scored free kicks at the Bernabéu, at the Maracanã, at the World Cup. I don’t think the Hawthorns was going to be the place where his technique failed him."

Light laughter started in the room but I didn’t smile.