Mo Liuxi ate a little. The flavor was the same, but he still felt annoyed. At last, he dropped the spoon and said, “Yan Su, one day, if you found that you don’t like me anymore, or that you’ve fallen in love with another guy, you can just tell me. Don’t cheat on me, nor end our relationship in the worst way. I know the difference between pursuing someone you like and bothering someone and hoping that she’ll accept you.”
“To be honest, this is my first relationship. It’s not the same for you. I want my first love to be beautiful, and of course, I want the best result.. that we keep loving each other, and get married like my sister and her husband.”
Yesterday, he didn’t spend too much time in Luosang’s place. However, the way Luosang and Nian Junting lived their lives together made him think a lot.
“Like… being married to you for ten years, thirty years, but still feeling like it’s the first day of our marriage, every day.”
That was the life and love he wanted.
Yan Su’s hands shivered. She, of course, wanted the same thing.
“Liuxi, if you believe me, I can tell you that as long as you don’t cheat on me or hurt me, I won’t leave you.” Yan Su thought for a moment and said with a plicated feeling, “The day before yesterday, we were both not cool enough. I hope… that you won’t check me in that way again. You scared me and disrespected me. I’m a person. Of course, you may not think of me as a person at that moment. You probably thought of me as a sluttish woman, so you felt that checking me like that meant nothing to me. But for me… it was humiliating because I believe I’m innocent.”
“I’m sorry.”
Mo Liuxi’s heart burned instantly. He dropped his head and apologized.
He didn’t know why he did that. It was as if jealousy messed up his mind and disabled him from controlling himself.
He clearly remembered her saying that she hated him.
At that very moment, he hated her too.
“I let you do that because I felt sorry for lying to you and being unable to explain it.” Yan Su told the truth. “That doesn’t mean that I don’t mind taking off my clothes to let you check if I’m a used thing.”
“Stop.” Mo Liuxi couldn’t bear listening to that. His veins throbbed in his temples. “I never saw you as a thing.”
Yan Su dropped her eyes and continued with, “I was wrong too. I shouldn’t have lied to you. In the future, I don’t think I’ll ever see Shi Xiang in private. I may meet him at work, but I’ll tell you about it honestly.”
“Em.” Mo Liuxi responded with a low voice, “Just have the breakfast.”
The dining room fell into silence again. They had the breakfast, both feeling awkward.
At 8:40 a.m., Yan Su picked up her bag and left for school. Mo Liuxi followed behind her, keeping a distance of about ten meters.
…
After lunch, Mo Liuxi sat in a depressed mood by the rest area near the playground, watching some other boys playing basketball.
Zhang Hongchuan came to him with a bottle of water and said, “Haven’t you guys made up yet?”
Mo Liuxi stayed silent for a while, then glanced at him, saying with a low voice, “We have, but I feel weird as if there’s suddenly a gap between us. I don’t know how to get back to the way we used to be.”
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