How to beco a true Hidden Moth, Huang Xiaopang didn’t say much about it, because he couldn’t explain it himself.
According to Huang Xiaopang, it seems like there’s nothing particular to pay attention to; it’s just a natural process. Once you know the portal of the Hidden Moth Space and possess a Hidden Moth Object of your choosing, it’s like planting a seed.
It’s impossible not to keep it in mind. As long as your heart is set on it, it feels as if you can always sense a portal sowhere, and through the Hidden Moth Object you carry with you, a mysterious connection and a certain kind of call are produced.
Xiaopang also has a personal experience: walking back and forth where the portal is, he always feels as if one day he might accidentally enter another space...
And then one day, you suddenly "see" it!
Not with ordinary eyes, but you can truly sense its existence, just as you would the existence of other things in the world—
It’s right there, really right there! No longer just a concept of existence, but an actual existence.
Huang Xiaopang thought he couldn’t explain it, needing He Kao to experience it himself slowly. Little did he know, once he said it, He Kao had a realization, even feeling a sense of déjà vu.
This is the state after he cultivates the Observation thod to Entering; only in the Fixed Realm, the surrounding objects present themselves, rather than such a non-existent portal.
So, He Kao wanted to try his way, which is to cultivate the Observation thod and see if the portal would naturally present itself? But tonight, his state was disturbed, and this disturbance ca from Gao Xue’e.
Gao Xue’e dared not return to her own ho, as if borrowing a night’s rest at He Kao’s ho, sleeping on the bed where she was rescued last night, she only felt safe subconsciously, yet she still couldn’t sleep after lying down.
During the day, she seed to recover normally, but needed to keep doing various things to avoid recalling last night, to maintain peace of mind, collecting and organizing two hundred "relevant departnt" addresses.
When night returned, she couldn’t fall asleep no matter what, as soon as she closed her eyes, a strange tinnitus occurred, as if the shattering sound of gunshots ca from near and far.
That feeling of having her hair pulled, body wet, hands and feet bound inexplicably returned, leaving her cold and shivering... she dared not close her eyes, nor turn off the light.
He Kao was in another bedroom, doing Sitting ditation, cultivating the Hidden Moth Temple.
He had already realized the wonder of this Observation thod, surrounding objects inexplicably appeared, as if existing, yet not knowing "who" perceives.
When he could enter this state during Sitting ditation, and subsequently "awaken" this state during ordinary tis, it seed as if he possessed a kind of extraordinary Perception Ability.
If not for this, he couldn’t have cooperated with Xiaopang to counter the kidnappers last night. Without He Kao’s unexpected counterattack, Xiaopang would be in danger, and He Kao and Gao Xue’e couldn’t have escaped.
After experiencing all this, he sohow gained a kind of supre confidence, akin to a great enlightennt after joy and sorrow, like a sparrow that endured the storm baptism of Yunng Marsh.
In such circumstances, He Kao could still remain calm, "awakening" the extraordinary Perception Ability; upon returning to normal, dealing with many things beca more composed and steady, just small situations.
So after resting today, he began cultivating the Observation thod in the bedroom. The process of Entering started smoothly, body turned to void, mind untraceable, all objects presented... At this stage, however, the Fixed Realm could not be maintained.
Because Gao Xue’e also erged in his perception, her state was clearly off... Once He Kao started thinking, his consciousness returned, and he couldn’t achieve a state of mind untraceable, retreating from the cultivation state to a perception state.
His perception was locked on Gao Xue’e.
Different people experience the sa thing, resulting in different consequences; He Kao turned into a sparrow on Yunng Marsh, whereas Gao Xue’e beca a frightened bird... Clearly, she had post-traumatic stress disorder.
Towards Gao Xue’e, He Kao harbored a deep sense of guilt. She was indeed an innocent party caught up in this, enduring much fright and nearly losing her life.
Even though in another bedroom, separated by the central room, He Kao could still "see" her very clearly, and even feel her curled up, legs clamped tight, trembling.
Such a state would make anyone want to embrace her for comfort. He Kao harbored no ill intentions to take advantage of her vulnerability, it was just a thought... He thought for a mont and simply got out of bed and went to the kitchen.
Gao Xue’e heard the noise, got out of bed and walked out as well. Upon seeing He Kao, she seed to breathe a sigh of relief, instantly feeling much more at ease; she stood at the kitchen door and asked, "What’s wrong, you can’t sleep either?"
He Kao smiled and said, "I felt like you couldn’t sleep, so I made a cup of tea for you, the Chonghe Drink that Elder Lin gave today; it should help you a bit... Here, drink it."
Gao Xue’e took the cup: "Why is there only one cup, what about you?"
He Kao: "One cup each, morning and night. I already had mine in the evening, this cup is made for you."
Chonghe Drink isn’t tea. Initially, it tastes slightly spicy, but then a warm current spreads through the body. Continuing to sip slowly, it gradually feels a bit sweet, and finally, a faint fragrance lingers between the teeth and lips.
When He Kao drank it at Lin Qingshuang’s, he was thinking about other things, quickly finishing it in two gulps with no impression, basically like a cow chewing peony.
At this mont, Gao Xue’e drank very slowly, taking small, careful sips, indeed feeling more at ease. But even the slowest drink cos to an end, and He Kao took the cup back, while she still stood at the door without leaving.
To stay as long as possible, Gao Xue’e didn’t want to sleep anyway, at least she didn’t want to go back and sleep alone.
"Feeling better? Then let’s go back to sleep!" He Kao walked to the door, reaching out to turn off the light, but was suddenly embraced by Gao Xue’e, who then snuggled into his arms.
He Kao, caught off guard, took half a step back, causing the door to bump against the wall behind him, pressing him against the kitchen door.
His mind went blank for a mont. Her arms hugged tightly, but her body was warm and soft, with a pleasant scent, and almost instinctively, he also embraced her, patting her back and saying, "What’s wrong? It’s okay, don’t be afraid!"
Gao Xue’e’s nose was buried in his neck, her soft voice said, "Be with ."
It felt a bit like sitting at an exam without properly revising, He Kao was sowhat flustered and said, "President E..." He only managed half a sentence, then didn’t know what to say.
Maybe Gao Xue’e didn’t do it on purpose. Just now, it seed her brain short-circuited too, and she reacted instinctively, as if so emotion was repressed to the limit, leading to a brief loss of control.
She truly wanted to, wanted to be with him... Even more stimulating, perhaps crazier things, as if only this way could free her from another kind of tornt.
Seeing He Kao’s silence, Gao Xue’e weakly said, "I don’t an anything else, just want to be with you... Are you afraid of , or do you not like ?"
How is one supposed to answer that?
Saying anything that suggests disinterest would seem at least unkind, and for He Kao, it would add a lack of honesty.
If she’s willing, does he not want it? Rember several tis after watching island action films, in half-dream, half-awake states, he’d place himself as the male lead and the female lead seed like Gao Xue’e...
After all, he was a vigorous young lad, it was understandable.
In reality, he was afraid of entering President E’s office for a ti because Gao Xue’e had an unpredictable temper, and yet in the eyes of his colleagues, she favored him greatly and entrusted him with various tasks, nurturing him generously.
However, that fear vanished after last night.
As if soaking in a hot spring and suddenly touching sothing, He Kao finally lowered his head and said, "I forgot to tell you earlier, on the day you take Chonghe Drink and the following day, abstinence is required."
"Also, I took an Essence Nourishing Pill the day before yesterday... it’s a specially crafted Spirit dicine by the Magic Sect... requiring abstinence for seven days."
He said stamringly, and Gao Xue’e didn’t fully understand, but she grasped the general idea, vaguely asked, "The day before yesterday?"
A breathless He Kao finally caught his breath, "Yes, the day before yesterday."
Gao Xue’e gradually regained her clarity, she hadn’t expected she would suddenly lose control, now she was embarrassed to lift her head. She didn’t think He Kao was making excuses to refuse, because being so close, she could feel he was also reacting.
Gao Xue’e whispered, "But I still can’t sleep... afraid to close my eyes to sleep."
He Kao: "Then how did you sleep yesterday?"
Gao Xue’e: "Yesterday? Yesterday was different."
He Kao: "Then why not do it like yesterday?"
Gao Xue’e finally let go, but her face turned red as she didn’t dare lift her head: "Mm, thank you! Am I being too..."
He Kao: "No, don’t think too much."
In the small bedroom, He Kao sat at the bedside, watching Gao Xue’e finally fall asleep, as if last night was repeating, but her complexion was much better than yesterday... He gently moved her hand that was clutching him back under the blanket, got up, and walked out.
As Gao Xue’e’s breathing gradually steadied and she finally slept, He Kao’s mind also returned to calmness, yet his body’s natural reaction grew stronger.
Only now did he truly experience the effects of the Essence Nourishing Pill.
Actually, he didn’t fully understand yet, regardless of the technique studied, one must experience a process, which is the awakening of life’s instincts, feeling what makes life life, and the abilities from the source.
During this process, sensory stimulation is magnified, leading to a constant rise and fall of various desires. Under normal circumstances, one must control desires, which results in emotions being heightened.
So, maintaining composure in daily life and staying undisturbed during cultivation is crucial; one needs to stabilize the mind and clearly experience desires, enter a natural state.
This phase is also called the trial of desires by so, where desires are not only sexual but include the innate yearning for all things in the world, often most prominently related to sex.
This isn’t necessarily a bad thing, just a test, a precondition for the entry level of technique.
The trial of desires is an internal test, yet often triggered by external experiences, becoming events faced in reality. It’s best to pass naturally without forcing, achieving optimal cultivation results.
Hence, Lin Qingshuang, though providing so guidance, did not fully elaborate, only asked soone to deliver the Essence Nourishing Pill to He Kao and inford him of the precautions for consumption.
Actually, He Kao’s trial of desires, the most significant experience was not tonight, but last night. Last night he ignited an unprecedented survival instinct, but maintained calm and steadiness, which for an average worker, was near perfect.
Many often say, "I am a practitioner, with no desires or requests." Such words reveal flaws imdiately, without desires, what would one practice? Isn’t the desire to practice itself a desire? Even the desire to restrain desire is a form of desire.
The difference lies in how one utilizes it, and how one manages the state of body and mind.
Returning to his bedroom, He Kao sat in ditation with determination, in Hidden Moth Temple, letting go of distractions was quite apt under such conditions. In visualization, the body gradually turned ethereal, the self seed to disappear yet beca omnipresent, as if becoming the world itself.
Everything naturally erged around him, and that door appeared.
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