Nana was watering the potted plant by the building entrance when he ca through the gate.
She looked up. Took in the expression — the slight looseness around the eyes of soone who had been through a full day and was still deciding how he felt about it.
"Long first day?"
"Eventful," he said.
"Mm." She set down the watering can. "Yoru-chan ca back before you. She seed wound up."
"Sothing happened. I’m not sure what."
"What did you do?"
He looked at her. "Why do you assu I did sothing?"
"Kaito-kun," she said warmly, "I have known you for eight months. When a girl cos ho wound up after a day with you, you did sothing. You never an to. But you did." She looked at him with the patience of soone who had already arrived at the answer. "What happened?"
He told her. The principal. The classroom. The girl at the desk and the mory flash he couldn’t explain. The hallway swarm, the courtyard, Yoru grabbing his wrist and then being angry at sothing he hadn’t decoded.
Nana listened the way she listened to things that mattered. When he finished she was quiet for a mont.
Then she smiled — slow, warm, the private edge of soone who understood several things at once and was choosing which ones to share.
"Ara." She looked at him with genuine, helpless fondness. "A playboy without even trying. It’s almost impressive."
His expression did sothing complicated. "I’m not—"
"Go see her," Nana said, and picked up her watering can. "She’ll be in the blanket."
"The blanket."
"You’ll know it." She was already turned back to the plant. "Kaito-kun."
"Mm."
She paused. Didn’t turn around. "You’re a good person," she said, quietly. Not for the street. "You just — sotis you say things without knowing what they land on."
He stood there for a mont.
"Okay," he said.
He went upstairs.
The apartnt had the quality of sowhere recently and specifically occupied.
Her shoes at the entrance — slightly crooked, fast removal. Her bag on the hallway floor instead of its hook.
He put his bag on its hook. Put her bag on its hook.
"I’m ho," he said.
From down the hall: nothing.
He walked to her door. Knocked twice. "Yoru."
A pause.
"...What."
He opened the door.
Full cocoon. Only face visible — violet eyes directed at the wall, his hoodie at the collar because of course it was. Knees pulled up, blanket tucked with the architectural precision of soone who knew exactly which configuration held best.
"Sorry," he said.
She turned to look at him. Her expression shifted — the pout reconfiguring into sothing more complicated and more honest. "Why are you the one saying sorry. You didn’t do anything wrong."
"Then why the blanket."
"Because—" Pink arriving. "Because you ca ho and said sorry and you didn’t even — it’s — you’re doing it again."
"Doing what."
"That," she said, gesturing at his entire existence with one full-arm sweep. "That thing. Where you’re just — kind. Without thinking about it. Like it costs nothing." She pressed her lips together. "Forget it. Get out."
"Yoru—"
"I said get out." Not loudly. Not cruelly. Firmly, from a person who needed a minute. "Please."
He looked at her.
Went out.
Closed the door softly.
From inside, muffled by wood and wool:
"—not good for my heart — all your fault — you can’t just — idiot — complete and total—"
A pillow, eting a face, with feeling.
He stood in the hallway for a mont.
Went to make dinner.
She erged at six forty-seven.
Faster footsteps than usual — the rhythm of soone who had done a ti calculation and disliked the result. She appeared in the kitchen doorway: hair slightly dishevelled, his hoodie still on, cheeks soft from sleep.
She looked at the clock. At the stove. At him.
"Why didn’t you wake ."
"First day of college. You seed exhausted."
"Your shift—"
"Called ahead."
She looked at the table. Set for two, food plated, kept warm, chopsticks placed with the easy familiarity of a week of dinners. The kind of table that looked like sothing soone had decided about.
Sothing moved through her expression and was quickly managed.
"Sit," he said. "It’s getting cold."
She sat.
He brought the remaining dishes. Sat across from her. The autumn evening light ca through the kitchen window at the low angle it ca through at this hour and did what it always did to ordinary rooms — made them look chosen.
They ate.
She was doing the thing she did when she thought he wasn’t watching — sideways glances, brief and quickly redirected, inventory taken and filed. He had the face he always had. Calm. Slightly elsewhere.
The permanently unbothered quality, she had catalogued privately, that is the primary source of my specific ongoing problem.
"How was your day," he said.
She looked at her bowl. "Good. Exhausting." A pause. "There was a misunderstanding. The embarrassing kind."
"What kind?"
"The kind I’m not telling you."
"Fair."
They ate. The kitchen was quiet and warm.
"Did you make any friends?" she asked. Carefully casual. The tone of soone asking a question they’re invested in and trying not to show it.
"Two boys who seem normal. And soone who’s going to be a problem — the loud kind that announces himself." He paused. "Anything else?"
She looked at her food. "Your day. Is that everything."
A pause.
"There was a girl," he said.
She choked.
Small and sharp — chopsticks going sideways, one hand coming up fast. She coughed once. He reached for the water.
"Are you—"
"Fine," she said, in the voice of soone managing. "Keep going."
He looked at her for a second. Looked back at his food. "She sits beside . Minami Tsukasa." He paused on the na — she saw it, the slight internal distance of soone turning sothing over. "When the teacher called her na, sothing surfaced. Like a mory, but not quite mine. Warm. Like sothing from before, with her in it."
The kitchen was quiet.
Yoru had put her chopsticks down.
Both hands in her lap. Eyes on the table. Sothing was happening to her face — she could feel it happening and she was managing it, pressing down on it with everything she had. The practiced discipline of a person who had learned to keep things contained.
"Old mory," she said. Almost level.
"Sothing like that. I can’t place it." He looked slightly puzzled by his own account. "Just strange. When I said good morning to her she bit her tongue, which was—"
He looked up.
Yoru’s eyes were bright.
Not the brightness of happiness. The brightness of sothing held at the border of a surface, pressing up.
She was looking at the table. Jaw tight. Hands in her lap had found each other — fingers locked, white at the knuckles. The small, furious stillness of a person losing a fight with their own feelings and hating themselves for it.
"Yoru," he said.
"Don’t," she said. Quiet. Controlled.
"Are you—"
"I said don’t." Her voice cracked on the second word. Just slightly. Just enough for both of them to hear it.
She pressed her lips together.
One tear.
She felt it and hated it — the heat of it, the fact of it, the complete humiliating evidence of it on her face. Her jaw tightened. Her hands pressed together harder. She was furious — at the tear, at the feeling that had produced it, at herself for having it in front of him where he could see.
"Yoru—"
"Don’t look at ." Sharper. The anger arriving like armour, because anger was easier. "Stop looking at like that."
"Like what, I’m just—"
"Like you don’t know," she said, and her voice had broken fully, rough and bright and furious, words arriving faster than she could manage them. "You just say things like that and you don’t even — a mory, warm, with her in it — over dinner — like it’s nothing — like I’m just—"
She stood up.
"I want to eat ice cream," she said.
It ca out slightly wrecked. Not the crisp exit line she’d intended. More the sound of a person grabbing the first available sentence because the alternative was staying at this table with wet eyes and no explanation she was ready to give.
"Yoru, it’s seven o’clock—"
"I want," she said, with the furious precision of soone enunciating through a closing throat, "to eat ice cream."
She grabbed her jacket from the back of the chair. Picked up his spare key from the counter — the one he’d had cut for her, the one she’d started carrying without ceremony, the one that now felt heavier than it had this morning.
"Don’t follow ," she said, to the wall. "Don’t co to find ."
"Yoru—"
"The food was good." Her voice was barely holding. "Thank you for dinner."
She left.
She made it to the stairwell.
The door closed and she stood on the landing in the dark of the between-floors space and the thing she had been holding since the table arrived all at once.
She pressed her back against the wall.
Both hands over her mouth.
Warm, she thought. He said warm. He said her na like he already knew it.
The sound she made into her hands had no word.
She slid down the wall until she was sitting on the cold floor in her jacket and his hoodie underneath it and she cried — properly, finally, the angry helpless kind. Silent, because she did everything silently, but full. Shoulders shaking. Hands pressed hard over her mouth. Eyes screwed shut against tears that ca anyway.
I have no right, she thought furiously. One week. I have known him for one week. He didn’t do anything wrong. He never does anything wrong and that’s the—
That was the problem.
That had always been the problem.
Nana’s door opened before she reached the bottom.
Nana stood in her doorway in her evening cardigan, mug in both hands, with the expression of a woman who had been listening to the ceiling for twenty minutes and had decided to be available.
She looked at Yoru.
At the jacket. The red eyes. The hands still pressed to her face. The specific quality of soone who had been crying alone in a stairwell and had arrived at the bottom because they had run out of floor.
"Yoru-chan," she said. Gently. "Co in."
"I’m going to get ice cream," Yoru said. Her voice was wrecked.
"I have ice cream."
"I—" The tears she thought she’d finished were apparently not finished. She pressed her hands to her eyes. "Sorry. I’m — sorry—"
"Co in," Nana said. Softer. The voice for daughters after bad days. "Right now."
Yoru ca in.
The apartnt was warm and slled like dinner and the soft particular comfort of a ho with children in it — drawings on the fridge, small shoes in a row, the girls asleep down the hall.
Nana sat her on the sofa. Disappeared. Returned with two bowls of ice cream and a box of tissues and sat across from her with the patient settled quiet of a woman who knew how to be present without requiring anything.
Yoru took a tissue. Pressed it to her eyes. Breathed.
"What happened," Nana said.
So she told her. The dinner. There was a girl. The na said with a pause. Warm. Like sothing from before.
By the ti she finished her voice had gone flat — the way it went when she’d run out of emotional fuel. The anger had burned through itself and left sothing quieter underneath.
"And I cried," she said. "In front of him. Like an idiot."
"You’re not an idiot."
"I cried over a mory he can’t even explain. Over a girl he sat next to for one day. I’ve known him for one week, Nana-san." She pressed her hands to her face. "What is wrong with ."
Nana was quiet.
She looked at her mug. At the table. At the middle distance. Then:
"Can I tell you sothing."
Yoru looked at her.
"I’ve been watching him for eight months," she said. "Close enough to hear his footsteps and know what kind of day he had from the sound of them." She turned the mug in her hands. "He fixed my tap. He sat on a concrete step for an hour so my daughter could sleep on his arm. He left an envelope with no note because a note would have made it feel like charity." She looked up. "Do you know how many n in this world do any of those things."
Yoru said nothing.
"None," Nana said simply. "Or close enough that it doesn’t change the number."
From down the hall, Hana shifted in her sleep.
"I want him too," Nana said.
She said it the way she said true things — directly, without embarrassnt. The settled honesty of a woman who had decided pretending was more expensive than acknowledging.
"I want him for myself. I want him to co ho to. I want my daughters to know the sound of him on the stairs." A pause. "So I understand, Yoru-chan. Exactly what you’re feeling. The specific kind of it."
Yoru stared at her.
"We are rivals," Nana said pleasantly. "Officially. I want you to know that."
"I—"
"But right now you need soone honest more than you need a rival. And I can be both." She looked at her with the warm, full attention of a woman who had built things from nothing twice and knew the early stages of sothing real. "You love him."
Yoru’s mouth opened.
"Don’t," Nana said. "Don’t argue it. I watched you cry in my doorway over a mory he can’t even na. That’s not one week." She shook her head slightly. "So things don’t need ti. They just need one person to be exactly right."
The quiet settled.
Yoru looked at the ice cream in her bowl — lting at the edges, strawberry pink. She picked up the spoon. Put it down. Picked it up again.
"What if she’s soone from before," she said. "Soone he actually knew. What if the mory is real and—"
"Then you find out," Nana said. Calm. Certain. "And you deal with it then. Not now."
"But—"
"Yoru-chan." Nana leaned forward slightly. "He made you breakfast before you woke up. He covered your shift without being asked. He waited up for you every night this week." A pause. "Does that sound like a man with his heart sowhere else?"
Yoru looked at the ice cream.
Took a bite.
Chewed.
"...It’s good," she said, very quietly.
"Strawberry," Nana said. "My girls’ favourite."
They sat in the warm apartnt with their ice cream and their complicated honest feelings and the sleeping children down the hall, and outside the city ran its arithtic and upstairs a boy was probably reading the sa page five tis.
"Nana-san," Yoru said.
"Mm."
"If we’re rivals."
"Yes."
Yoru looked at her. Red-eyed, hair slightly wrecked, still in his hoodie, holding a bowl of half-lted strawberry ice cream.
"May the best woman win," she said.
Nana looked at her for a mont.
Then she smiled — fully, genuinely, the unguarded kind she kept for things she hadn’t expected to be moved by.
"May the best woman win," she agreed.
She clinked her mug against the bowl.
Upstairs, Kaito had washed the dishes, wiped the counter, put away the food.
He was sitting on the sofa with a manga open on his lap.
He had read the sa page five tis.
He looked at the door.
He thought about violet eyes gone bright. About hands locked together in a lap. About a voice that had been completely steady and then wasn’t — and the specific quality of the crack in it. Not sadness, or not only that. Sothing with more heat. More frustration. The sound of a feeling that had been held carefully and had slipped.
I said sothing, he thought. About Tsukasa. She asked about my day and I told her and—
He looked at the door.
Oh, he thought.
Not the full understanding. Not yet. But the shape of sothing beginning to resolve — the edges of a picture becoming visible in the dark.
He put the manga down.
Waited.
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