What did I just do?! Instead of telling him that our status quo is fine and I can help him out with his mana outbursts through the orbs, I dug myself a trap! Did I just tell him to wait for my response till next year? Did I just praise myself for at least delaying being hit by a bullet instead of dodging it? What nonsense am I spouting!
Aaaarrrgghhh! Damn it! Damn all these beautiful n with expressive eyes that I can't say no to!
I adored Grandpa Mage from the first ti I t him, that's for a fact but that feeling doesn't extend to his brat of a grandson. That guy is a total red flag from the first ti we t and it did not improve even after eting him a few tis after that.
Lark was desperate but he tried to woo . I understand the resonance and the desperation but Keeran's way of doing things tend to scare people away instead of making them like him. I swear I feel creeped out and annoyed whenever I feel him near .
He then suddenly changed his tactic and started being calm but brutally honest about what he feels and thinks. Why does he have to be so sincere in telling about his feelings? The hardest thing to turn down is soone's sincerity to be with you!
I have realized that so far, my weakness are n's beautiful faces which is abundant in this world, their sincerity (I haven't t n who tried to scam so far), crying (connected to the first weakness) and my n being jealous since I find them cute (It makes want to tease them so more and then eat them good after). I know my weaknesses but I still fall for these things each and every ti. If I do not strengthen my heart and my resolve, I might as well forget the word "No". I will definitely end up with a harem of hundreds of SINCERE n for sure.
AAAHHH! Just let next year's think about the issue with Keeran. I just can't... Why did I even have to go to the magic tower? Why?!
As I arrive inside my suite in the Moonlight Inn, I fell face first on the bed then kicked and punch my pillows in frustration. I went at it for several minutes before I sat up and breathed out heavily. I used ti reversal magic to get the pillows back in their pristine states, returning all the scattered contents inside the pillow bags just like before I used them as punching bags.
I calmly went out of my room towards the restaurant. Everything will be alright with good food and so intimate ti with my husbands later. I have indeed promised those two that I will have spend so couple ti with each of them. I'll have Kayden spend the night with first, Lark the next day then I will drop by Dimitri before attending the birthday banquet. If I just focus on my adorable husbands, I won't feel so down anymore.
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Keeran's POV
I have already ran out of ideas on how to et the woman who I belatedly realized that I liked and was resonant with at the sa ti. YES. I am past the confusion and denial stages and have accepted that I have been trapped in her claws for life.
When I said I have done all the thinking I could, I an I've done every single tactic I could think of. First, I have tried camping out in the room of questions to see if she will co each day. Second, I have also done all my recent research and experints near the entrance of magic tower which I have never done before since I value my privacy. I just made the decision that it is more important to et her than my need for privacy. Lastly, I even placed a barrier on the main entrance of the tower just so that I can imdiately detect if she arrives. I never thought I have the makings of a stalker, honestly.
I have successfully detected her a couple of tis but I expected no less from soone who was able to get out of my sticky spell easily. She teleported away to escape each and every ti, leaving frustrated and heartbroken more and more.
After I accepted the fact that I resonated with her and that I liked her, I thought things will beco more chaotic but surprisingly, my mind beca calr. I can think more clearly and focus on my tasks afterwards. I now truly believe that delaying important life decisions really ss up with your senses, mind and heath.
I rember how I started from being in denial, then confused and then in pain. My mana outbursts started less than a month from the ti I first t her and it has happened every single month after that.
The first ti it happened, I was in extre pain like being burned from the inside while also being dipped in boiling water from the outside. There were many tis I wanted to die but I don't want to leave my grandfather behind. Though we fight a lot, we only have each other in this life.
I may be averse to marrying and giving him grandchildren before but now that I t the one I am willing to do all of that with, I don't want to die a virgin! I am too amazing to not pass my genes to the next generation. I have deluded myself with those crazy thoughts every ti I had mana outbursts to keep my mind sane. I get it that it sounds weird but that's how I am.
I thought the first outburst was the worst but then the second one ca exactly a month after. I was in so much pain that I could not even stay conscious for that long. My body just shuts down every few minutes, trying to pull through the ordeal. I thought, may be that was my limit and that was it for but then sudden relief ca.
At first it was like a cool breeze that touched my skin. Then it was like cool water bathing , cooling my insides as well. My mana cald almost imdiately. I actually felt scared first, instead of relief I thought maybe it was that brief relief that a person is rumored to experience before death.
All of that belief was crushed when I felt soone removing my clothes one by one. I started to pray that this was only a dream brought about my frustration of possibly dying as a virgin.
I cald down when I thought that it was my grandfather that ca to help out. He should have felt pity on becUse surely on any normal day he would have just dumped in a tub full of cold water with all my clothes on. There will be no rcy at all.
After all my clothes were removed, I was carried gently princess-style then I heard the sound of running water. I was laid inside a tub full of warm water gently and soone started soaping my body up. That devious hand touched every part of my body. I swear it lingered a bit on my butthole and groin area like a pervert! I sucked it all up and repeated in my head that it was just a dream over and over until the bath ended.
I then heard an unfamiliar female's voice calling "Grandpa" then the familiar voice of my grandfather ca from farther away from where I am. He said sothing like a murmur that my fuzzy brain could not understand. I then heard the unfamiliar voice again, "Okay. Fine."
After those two words, I felt my body lifted out of the water. I was dried with a towel and I was clothed. I was brought back to the bed afterwards. The next thing I felt was a little bit of prickling pain and a mont of high heat as a hand touched my womb area.
I knew from experience that it was a seal. Why is this person sealing ? What was it for? Why is it in that area? WAIT. That's not the point. Did a woman just bathe ?!
I have a lot of questions that I wanted to ask that woman who perversely touched my body and took advantage of my body being unconscious in the guise of bathing . The woman knew my mind was working! She whispered sothing to my ear before she unclothed but my brain couldn't process it that well.
As I rember all these things, I involuntary told Luna that I indeed went crazy for a while trying to look for her. Before I knew it, I have said even weirder things to her that may make her veer away from even more. Ugh. My grandpa is right, I'm hopeless in these things.
When I ended my weird confession, I laughed awkwardly about my situation and I could only hide my eyes. For the first ti, I cried not only of embarassnt but due to all the things I've gone through only for to ss up and end with a confession like this. It was not a love confession but of insanity! Which woman would want to be near a crazy man?
Just when I thought that our conversation won't get any weirder than it is now, she suddenly introduced herself formally and admitted that she was the one who bathed ! She even started asking weird questions. I totally expected to be fully rejected but she told to wait till next year. I don't know how to feel about it but it is better than not seeing her ever again.
Everything that happened after that was a blur. The last thing I rembered was a handshake, being pulled closer then... Did she just kiss my lips? What?! Before I was able to react, she has teleported away. I think my brain has stopped working.
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