Loving soone and being loved back, that kind of feeling, is a kind of euphoria that is hard to describe.
One mont of happiness that could light a thousand darkness in one heart. True, sincere, love
Not many people got that.
And Azief got that. The world had to end before he finally found soone that could love him.
That kind of feeling...It is not that easy to forget such feelings. It was not that Sofia was so special in the world that she eclipsed everyone else
She is special because he felt that she was special. And because of that, she is the most special person in the world
Because she is a person he used to love. And regardless of what happened between them, that love is still there
Just because he and her are no longer together did not an that feeling instantly gone away.
So people could do that when they are already tired and reached rock bottom. That just dealing with the other person is tired enough
But the way he and Sofia ended things, there is many feelings...still there. They never reached rock bottom.
And so, there is still that feeling Even if he reached the point where he hates her, Azief believe even in that hatred, there would still be love.
Because, only those who have fallen in love could understand it.
And everyone in love would testify to this.
When you are in love, the one you are in love with would be the most special thing in the world.
Because you would see things others could not and you begin asking why the world could not see the sa thing you see
Love is a drug.
Love is madness.
That what they said. But love.....love also made you see beauty that you have never noticed before.
Things other take for granted. When you are in love, everything that is good beco magnified.
It does not an that those who fall in love are good person, it is just the things you love the most about soone beco even more magnified under your eyes.
And if everyone could love and see each other the way they see the people they love one would wonder, whether all ugliness in the world would just disappear
Because when you are in love, all the good things are magnified. And you seek to understand. Understand the person you fall in love with.
Learn their stories, their happiness, their sadness and then their happiness, their sadness, their joy, their tragedy beco your happiness, beco your sadness, your joy, your tragedy.
And so, it is said the pain that the people you love beco your pain, the smile of your loved ones beco your strength
Hence, the way of happiness is to love others. Not to seek desires. The ancient sages, the wise teachers of the past all understand this.
Hence, they seek things beyond desires. Desires is fantasies. And most fantasies are unrealistic
The reason why it has to be unrealistic is because the mont that you get what you seek, you don’t, you can’t want it anymore.
Desire , then, must have its object perpetually absent
It’s not the "it" that you want, it’s the fantasy of "it"
Pascal once said, that we are only truly happy when daydreaming about future happiness.
Or why we say, be careful what you wish for
Not because you’ll get it but because the mont you get it, you’re dood not to want it
Living by your wants is not a recipe for happiness.
What it ans to be human is to strive to live by ideas and ideals and not to asure your life by what you’ve attained in terms of your desires but those small monts of integrity, compassion, rationality and even self-sacrifice.
Because the only way that we can asure the significance of our own lives is by valuing the lives of others
Azief saw this in all of those vision.
Great n who transcend simple desire, that could sacrifice all the things that they had to fight for an ideal, to fight even if it’s just to keep the spark of hope alive
Whether people rember them or not, it does not matter.
The heart and mind is free, and when death ca to them, they could just laugh it off
Then their death ans sothing.
And what they leave behind them is immortal.
Even if the world turns to dust soday, even if their songs are no longer heard by the mortal ears, even if the thought that they fought for is swallowed by the darkness of the nothingness of the vast universe, such thought, supported by the soul, it leaves a trace.
A magic that could not be seen, could not be touched, could not be heard but....it could be felt
Earth is full of these people.
Azief saw them as he saw the rises and falls of dynasties and empires.
In the past, he would think the emperors, the kings, the Queens that made it colourful.
But when you see things from a different dinsion, see how the cog turns and grease the wheels, it is the common people, the people that are not recorded, the ones who did not leave their nas in history that made the world spins and thrive
A king, an emperor, a queen, an empress, a prince, all of them are one person.
It is arrogant to attribute the shining achievent of humanity to select few.
However, Azief understood why it beca like that
It is just a pity that the papers in the world would never fit to write all of the nas of all of these people that contributes to the world, seen and unseen, felt and unfelt contribution.
These kind of people, that have light, that dares to fight and dares to retreat, are always hated by the powers that be
Unrestrained freedom without limit and boundaries is as harmful as a prison like live. The other destroy the soul by being possessed by desire, the other destroy people soul by restricting the good it could do
There is people fighting and rising, falling and forgotten.
The people living in those tis could not see the way Azief see history.
They live in a pocket of ti, restricted by their own tis, their own circumstances, their own class, their own greed, and their own vices and virtues
Revolutionaries, whether it be the one who fights, or the one who cautions restrain when desire and want beco the number one pursuit, both of them are wise people
So try to win by peace, so tries to win by force.
So tries to touch the kindness of human hearts; so try to break the evil forces of the world with the forces of good
Whether their thod succeed or not, whether they were laughed at or forgotten, it leaves a trace.
And because Azief sees it from above, he sees how sotis, these old forgotten ideas could always revive back like a fire that could never go out
And these people, these people that always wanted to change the world, mostly are common n, suffering n, people with compassion, people with a heart and soul that are incompatible with the world full of great hatred and oppression
The only beacon of light in a world filled with the darkness of the human heart
In tis of great cruelty and hatred, these people, common people, who have light in their heart could only die to protect their own soul
When all around them are people who uses hatred and force to bring darkness, these people even with their weak bodies, would rather die than betray their own conscience.
And the one infected with hatred laugh at these people.
When the world is full of people with hate, then compassion beco a sore sight
And now, he look at himself in the past. Look at his own desire and how he changes along the years
"And she was there with " he thought to himself.
The years goes by and she was with him. There is a bitter smile that sotis form when he look at himself in the past
It is bitter.
But it is also sweet.
There are joy and sadness, there is ti when all he could see was darkness and there is also ti when there is light that dispel away the darkness
He never notice and stop and appreciate this.
His life was not perfect.
It was not always happy.
And there is so heavy burdens on his shoulders
He knew this very well
But he at least have a bit of both.
The sweet, the sour, the salty, the joy and sadness of life.
He experience love, and he have affections
He changed not because he is convinced by the words of sages in the past, because when you reach his realm, you could see more things and seeing more things made you understand, how connected everyone really is and why life is sacred
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