"Child, no matter how you try to persuade , I never think that any decision I make is wrong. I believe that every decision I make is perfectly correct.
Although I don’t understand the reason why you initially made a wrong judgnt about , do you know that these years after I left you, I have indeed been in great pain deep inside, never truly happy.
In the depths of your heart, the mistakes I’ve made will never have a chance to be corrected because you never believe in . Regardless, the mistakes I made may have caused you imnse harm, casting a great shadow over your heart, making it impossible for you to ever trust as your father. But do you know? Over the years, I’ve genuinely regretted abandoning you. I’m not soone with a heart of stone, indifferent to it all. I have absolutely no way to comprehend the harm my errors brought upon you. I also hope you can forget the past, look towards the future, and live happily. But you know, when I hear every word you say to , I know it’s impossible. You will never let go of the past, and deep in your heart, there will always be sorrow; you will only see the pain."
"You’re right; I do have great resentnt towards you deep inside. But do you know? All of that resentnt is sothing you’ve given with your own hands. Isn’t being abandoned by you ti and ti again enough? How far do you intend to hurt ? You are my father, and that is a fact I can never escape. We share the sa blood, but do you understand that half of the blood in my body is from my mother, not entirely yours?
Do you truly think that every word you say and everything you do can be easily forgotten? You imagine yourself a Saint, but I cannot. I have no way to forget all the pain you caused in the past. You might not care about those things, but I do. Do you understand how suffocating it is when all the pressure is upon you, forcing you to vent your emotions through avoidance while hiding your feelings from your family? You can’t let them worry about you. Do you know that every ti you cause distress, all I want is a secure embrace to comfort , yet you’ve never given that.
Ti and again, when I needed you the most, you chose to abandon and leave . When I no longer needed you, when I had beco the focus of the world, you chose to co back. I don’t know how long this outco can last; I don’t know how long I should maintain this mindset. I’m not a Saint. I can’t forgive myself again and again. I can’t forgive you without reservation for a lifeti. I have my own family; I have my own thoughts and judgnts. I cannot abandon my principles for you repeatedly."
At one point, I thought about abandoning my principles to forgive you and live well together. But what did I gain in return? Deception. During that ti, I nearly collapsed, unable to understand what kind of reason could make you treat so cruelly.
Everyone believed my parents did no wrong and that I should forgive them. But who considered things from my perspective? Who knows just how difficult my life has been? Ti and again, I’ve been living the life I least wanted. All I want is to make my life a bit easier, but what did I get in return? Betrayal by my family, betrayal by my friends, sold out ti and again, the hurt brought to . Even when I traded my sincerity for others’ sincerity, I never received genuine treatnt but only lies ti and again. Is it really my fate?
I don’t believe that all my efforts are just fleeting mories in your eyes. I can’t believe that everything I’ve worked for is so insignificant. I’m not a Saint; I can’t live a life without being hurt by anyone while being endlessly happy. But when I’m hurt, I foolishly smile, thinking everything done by others is right and for my good.
Maybe you think I’m naive and easy to deceive, but after being exposed ti and again, I won’t be foolishly used by everyone anymore. I did all this just to live happier and lighter, not wanting anyone to help or pity , or give sympathy. What I hate most in life is having suffered through soone’s company and then being urged to forgive them when they apologize.
Do you understand how many things you did to when you ca close in Shanghai? I couldn’t believe each decision I made. I can’t believe those decisions were mine. I gave you all my sincerity, yet what did I get in return? Ti and again, harm from you. Even if you gave the best harm, I chose to forgive you because you are my parents. But you continued without remorse, taking another inch and hurting again and again. You treated hurting as a joy. Do you know your harm might be unforgettable for , leaving a deep mark on my life? Sotis I feel my actions are truly excessive; I shouldn’t forgive people as easily as I imagine. Being kind to others might be cruel to myself. But, despite being hurt by you again and again, I still forgave you wholeheartedly. That mont proved I was no longer fit to be the strongest person in the world!"
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