"Child, since you chose to take this path initially, why bother saying these words now? Don’t you think it’s aningless and useless? When you decided to take that step, you should have foreseen today’s endings. I will never easily forgive anyone who betrays . When you chose to leave , it was already destined that you would endure all the pain you face now. Have you ever thought about the pain I used to endure? I never imagined that my son would betray . What do you take your father for? Since you never truly treated as a father, why would I sacrifice everything for you as a son? Even if you’re my own flesh and blood, so what? I owe you nothing. Everything you were owed was already settled the day you left ho and abandoned .
Maybe in your eyes, you think all of this is natural, that you can easily abandon everyone at ho. But have you thought about it? I am your father, not your debtor, and certainly not your enemy. You chose to hurt in this way, to abandon that day—did you not consider you would face this outco? Perhaps you never thought about it, did you? How could you possibly consider so much? In your eyes, you act on impulse; whatever cos to your mind, you act upon it. You never stood in my shoes to consider the pain I once endured. You don’t see how distressed I was, do you?
I truly hope you, as a child, could consider things from your parents’ perspective more often. Why do your parents choose to treat you in this way? Is it because you did sothing wrong, or because your parents are too heartless? In the end, all of this is simply because you’ve made too many mistakes yourself. These mistakes are not worth anyone’s forgiveness. You think, with every error you’ve made, what reason do we have to forgive you?
All that we sacrificed, to you, is nothing but a mirage. You simply don’t care!"
Zhang Zhentian never thought about all the sacrifices his father made. He could act indifferent. The life he wanted was simple, just plain and ordinary. Even if the final result was not what he most wanted to see, he hoped that his father would never misunderstand him because of anything. Now, his father’s misunderstanding of him was so grave. What should he do to eliminate all his father’s misunderstandings and let everything return to its original, rightful state? Perhaps he no longer had that ability.
"Dad, actually I never intended to treat you like this. Could you not stand in my place and consider things for ? Did you really think when I left, I was that happy? I’m really not a heartless person. At the mont of leaving you, my heart was devastated. Who can understand the feeling of leaving my ho? How afraid I was of dying in a foreign land, never to return. Finally, I managed to co back alive, but upon my return, everything had changed beyond what I imagined.
Like you said, I am your son, and you are my father. No matter when or where, regardless of the severe mistakes I’ve made as a son, shouldn’t you, as my father, consider things for more? But it seems you never did consider things for from my perspective. You always thought of being abandoned by . But have you considered how I’ve lived these past years? Alone, with no one to accompany , who could fill the void of loneliness in my heart all these years? I might compensate for your pain in the days to co, but what about ? Who will fill the void in my heart from all these years? Who will soothe the pain of losing loved ones? At the mont I saw my beloved leave , who will soothe my pain? You never cared about my feelings. My pain isn’t any less than yours, yet I’ve never complained, because I know complaining isn’t the way out. Even if I complain, can all this beco any different from before? It’s really impossible, isn’t it?
Oh, how I wish ti could turn back, like you said, if ti could rewind, perhaps you wouldn’t have let leave this ho? And if ti rewound, I certainly wouldn’t have chosen to leave this ho because of a montary tiff with you. I’ve regretted it so much over the years. I’ve made countless excuses to convince myself. I watched my most beloved ones leave , one by one. Do you think my heart feels good? I only know I’ve been living more and more like a failure. I don’t know why I’ve beco like this now. How scared I am, afraid that everything has completely changed. How lonely I am, and who can understand the pain within my heart? But every ti I walk down this painful path, who has ever thought about what path my life should take? Did you ever consider? Actually, you didn’t, did you?"
Xia Jing knew that her husband had been feeling wronged deep down over the years, but she hadn’t expected him to feel so wronged at heart. He endured for so long, yet if he could not ultimately gain what he wanted, then all his grievances over the years would go to waste. She didn’t want her husband to beco so pitiful as he did now. She wanted to see him smiling happily every day, no matter whether that smile was from the heart or a facade. In her eyes, as long as he smiled, it at least proved he had so happiness. But now, even that slight happiness was gone. She didn’t know how to comfort him. She only knew that perhaps she had gone too far, and as a wife, she never stood in her husband’s shoes to consider anything for him. She always demanded everything that originally didn’t belong to her, yet she forgot that everyone has their ti to hurt. She was afraid, afraid that such a life would remain in this world. She wanted him to live happily, even if they could never return to this ho, at least his heart would be happy, peaceful.
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