"Dad and Mom, I don’t know if you rember the words my son once said to you. Maybe you do rember, or maybe you’ve already forgotten them in the blink of an eye. Deep down, you’ve never really seen us as family. How could you possibly rember the words spoken by soone at ho?
That day was my most touching mont. I never imagined my son would suddenly stand up and speak up for . In that instant, I felt he had grown a lot and realized he was different from before."
Xia Jing didn’t understand what his son ant by suddenly saying these words, so he had to pretend to understand.
That day...
"Grandma and Grandpa, maybe you never knew how deeply your son was hurt by your actions. Everything you did was so selfish. Have you ever considered whether others would be hurt by what you did?
Perhaps when you were together, you never thought my father would be hurt like this or that he would one day beco who he is now. Back then, you only imagined him as soone who would keep giving his all for himself because you never thought about how your actions would hurt your family. Your hearts were originally selfish and self-centered, gradually becoming enlightened. Maybe in the past, you were truly selfish but after going through all these, you let it go. Everyone has a path they need to walk. After soone walks the path they most wanted to, they slowly get used to everything.
I used to be afraid of anyone in the family saying anything bad to , but gradually I got used to it. I no longer care about anything they say to .
Looking back now at everything I used to long for, is it really what I wanted the most?
I watched as everything I cared about slowly grew and triumphed, and I watched as everything I cherished and was unwilling to let go of hurt everything else, gradually becoming more and more distant, and I was powerless.
No matter how many mistakes I’ve made, no matter how tired I am, when I calm down and look back at each mistake I made, what have I turned into?
I don’t wish for my future life to always be spent in pain and suffering. I don’t want my family to always be the ones getting hurt. I just wish for my family to live happily, to live joyful lives. Perhaps such a saying is too simplistic to you, but I too once hoped to have a heart that cared for the world, and I once hoped my family could achieve the happiest and most joyful happiness. Yet in the end, I gained nothing. I’ve watched my family be hurt by you, and I’ve been powerless. Do you know what that feeling of failure is like? I’ve never felt like such a failure. What I wanted most was gained only through striving and effort, just like how my parents gave everything, yet no one ever considered things from their perspective. Isn’t life difficult enough already? They always wanted to leave the best for us, but what did we give them in return? Hurt after hurt, in the end, they were still forced to accept it.
Grandma and Grandpa, I’m not afraid of you hurting over and over, but I really beg you, I beg you to let my parents be happier, even just a little happier. I would be eternally grateful to you. Over the years, none of you have considered the so-called pain and pressure my parents endured from their perspective. I’m a child; I can’t possibly bear all the hurt for my parents while just standing by watching. I can’t sit idly by. I want to step up and give them a hug, give them comfort, yet I can’t. I can never take that step. I’m afraid that the mont I stand in front of my mother to comfort her, she’ll burst into tears. I fear everything she says will leave without words to comfort her. My mom has always given all her best to , always thinking that the most perfect thing in this world is for her child to be happy and joyful. But every ti I’m bullied, there she is, unwaveringly standing by my side, supporting , and who has ever considered how hard my heart is at this very mont?"
"I know you said this today, you ant it cleanly, and I know that I hurt your parents. If it weren’t for our existence, your parents wouldn’t be living such hard lives. Seeing them like this now, it’s actually hard for us as elders. But what can we do? When we chose this path, the outco was already destined, wasn’t it? We just want them to live in peace, even if that peace is not long-lasting, and even if only for a mont, for , it’s a happiness.
How much do I wish to see my children living so happily? How much do I yearn to see my child’s smiling face every day, and to know all their joy and happiness is given by ? I hope that in front of my child, I am not seen as a coward, but rather, as soone willing to sacrifice everything for family, fearless of any harm.
I used to make every decision naively, thinking that as long as I could live happily, I wouldn’t care even if my family got hurt. But then I gradually discovered every mistake I had made was unforgivable. I allowed those who love most to be hurt ti and again. I don’t understand why I made those choices or decisions. I hurt everyone who genuinely loved . I repeatedly took their love as a tool to use them. I don’t know what to do to bring everything back to its original state. I’m scared now. There’s not a day I’m not afraid of such things happening again. I am constantly living in fear. I’ve truly had enough of this life. I don’t want to be tornted ntally anymore.
Child, I know you’re telling us these words for your parents’ sake, and you also know your parents’ current life might not be what we imagined. Everyone envisions a life of happiness and no regrets. But is this life we have now truly what we want? Look at your mom now in the hospital, and your dad in his frantic state. But all we can do is repeatedly hurt you. Isn’t our leaving this ho the best result and solution for you?
Or do you really wish for us to stay and turn the house into chaos, unable to live peacefully anymore?"
"Do you know? That mont might have been the happiest of my life. He stood up and spoke for . I never thought that mont would be so blissful. You never cared about like that, never helped , never spoke a fair word for . But he is different. Whether as a child or whatever, at least he was willing to consider things from my perspective and think about how hard it is for to endure the suffering and agony!"
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