In one’s lifeti, everyone will do things that they regret, and everyone should pay the price for the decisions they’ve made.
"From the very beginning of being with , have you been this unhappy in your heart? If so, why did you go to such lengths to be with ? Don’t you know, to accompany you, I’ve paid the sa price, but you’ve never known what I’ve done for you. I never spoke about all the things I did for you because I chose not to. I believed that one day you’d slowly discover the truth, but now it seems I was too naive, too foolish. If I don’t speak of these things, you will never know what I’ve sacrificed for you?"
"Zhang Zhentian, actually you don’t need to tell any of this, nor do you need to calculate debts with . Whether or not you say it, I will not go back to living with you, because for , now that it’s like this, there’s no point in doing things we’ll regret. For the path we’ve chosen, let’s walk it step by step. Even if it’s wrong, I don’t want to change the path I’m on now! Actually, I am very thankful to you. If it weren’t for you accompanying for over ten years, I wouldn’t have made it through the most painful ti of my life because you gave hope. I never believed in fate, nor did I believe this would have consequences, but gradually I realized that heaven indeed has eyes, and its retribution cos unexpectedly, swiftly onto your head. All those past events, I can’t sweet-talk you about them anymore because this is all I have to say. Let’s not entangle each other anymore. Isn’t life just like a play? Today you perform for , and tomorrow I perform for you. Aren’t we all just actors? Actually, who in life hasn’t deceived another? But I can honestly tell you, I’ve never lied to you, except for the ti I was sick, yet you’re different. You always think every word I say is a lie; you’ve already lost trust in . What’s the aning of a marriage without trust? Isn’t that just increasing each other’s pain? You never ponder the consequences of your decisions, and when they happen, I bear the responsibility because you push it all onto . Yet, I never say a word of objection because I think you’re my husband, and I should pay for your mistakes, but I’m not a saint. I can’t take responsibility for your mistakes ti and again. You have to learn to take responsibility for the consequences of your own actions!"
"I’ve said before, I admit I’ve done many things to let you down, but I’ve faced the repercussions. What more do you want from ? I admit it was wrong of to let you bear the consequences of my actions and make you my scapegoat, but I now know I was wrong. What else do you want to do? Do you really not understand what’s going on in my heart? Do you really need to push away ti and ti again to feel satisfied? Do you think what you’re doing is really okay?"
"I still say, the past is the past, and there’s no redy that can bring you back to how things were. I no longer want to delve into who was right or wrong, as we’ve both done many wrong things, but the consequences I’ve faced are far greater because of the wrongs you’ve done. The one who ended up bearing them was . I now only wish to live out the rest of my life peacefully, a life of happiness I deserve. I don’t want to be with soone who treats love like a play, because it brings profound pain to my heart. I know, though, from the beginning, you were just acting with . You gradually couldn’t tell if you were acting or genuinely investing emotionally, but I always understood! Every day with you, I’ve never been acting, only striving to fulfill my duty as a wife. I only wanted to spend a simple life together with you. Eventually, I realized that this was not the case at all. You didn’t care about your father’s company; I just did it intentionally. Your sches were even deeper than mine, and all of this was to keep from returning ho. But I accepted all this because it was initially my decision to leave our daughter, not watching her grow up was my greatest failure as a mother, my most painful remorse. Now that wrongs have been committed, there’s no saving them. You should have realized when you began an emotional performance with , it ant our relationship was dood. No relationship can survive when mixed with ulterior motives; when they are, they will ultimately crumble. This is the destined outco. You made everything how it is today, so why do you say these things to ? Isn’t saying this only making it awkward for ? You’re still so selfish and self-centered. Let go, I don’t want to continue a life of pretense with you. Don’t you know, every day I exert effort facing your performance, and it exhausts internally? I think about how to please you and how to continue this pretense of marriage. Because I don’t want to lose this marriage, I eventually realized it was all wrong. No matter how hard I try, I can’t win back your genuine heart, for even you can’t distinguish if you genuinely love or not. You can’t discern if what you did was right or wrong, or if it was all just pretense or driven by true harmonic understanding."
Zhang Zhentian heard Xia Jing’s words and didn’t know how to respond. Indeed, even he couldn’t tell if he was just playing a role or had truly fallen in love with her. Perhaps this love he realized too late, and everything was already irretrievable. But was it truly wrong to love soone?
Everyone plays a part; everyone should live happily!
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