In this lifeti, aren’t we constantly living through repetitive situations, doing things we least want to do, trying to live differently from others? We always speak our true feelings and do things against our conscience, turning ourselves into ruthless beings, only to look back and realize all those actions never felt like our own — even we are afraid of becoming so terrible one day.
Do you still rember? How crushing it feels when everything weighs down on you repeatedly. And how it feels deep inside when you’re continuously doubted by others.
"Since you already know I’ve said things to this extent, take your ti to think about what you should truly do. Don’t make continue saying unpleasant words; it wouldn’t end well for either of us. Let’s leave so dignity for each other and not speak too harshly, nor make things too awkward.
Mom, deep down, you should know better than anyone how much I long for you to return to this ho. I don’t want you to leave the family over any slight issue. You should understand what your departure ans. Your departure ans abandoning again, taking my father away again, causing everyone at ho to lose two family mbers because of you. Every person at ho has to bear twice the pain because of one person — have you thought about what your actions represent? Stop being wilful, putting all the happiness on yourself and letting others bear all the pain. Such thinking is incorrect.
No matter what happens, I won’t bla you nor scrutinize every decision you’ve made, wondering who caused it all. Because I know deep down, no one is genuinely bad; you are all kind-hearted. The reason you choose to hurt repeatedly is simply that you don’t understand that twinge of pain in your own heart. Cheer up. Rember, whenever and wherever, I’m always your son. Even if in this life, you can only watch from afar without embracing , I’m still your child. Deep in my heart, there will always be a place for you. You are my parents. But I sincerely ask you to stand in my shoes and understand my difficulties, can you? I’m living so difficultly; every day feels like walking on thin ice. Have you ever truly thought about how much I’m suffering?"
Xia Jing was left speechless by what Zhang Yichen said.
This is my own son, speaking such words to for the first ti. Should I really abandon him again? Is everything I’m doing truly right? If what I’m doing is correct, why would there be criticism from others? But if what I’m doing is wrong, then it only proves that nothing I’ve done has t expectations. Everyone has their own path. Is the path I’m on right or wrong? Only at the mont when everyone is hurt by my actions, what have I beco?
"Child, I’m sorry. I’ve been too selfish, and my careless considerations led to the current situation. The scene now is really embarrassing. No matter what, I refuse to let this awkwardness continue. If it does, I wouldn’t have the face to et you. You’re my son, and as a mother, I’ll take every word you say as advice. Your words carry your reasons. I don’t wish for us to quarrel over any matter. Can we each find a bit of happiness and joy?
Quickly go to the hospital to care for your wife. Never let my matters delay her paperwork, or it’ll fill with guilt and a sense of wrongdoing. I won’t ever be pleased with my actions again. From the mont I stepped into this ho, I felt the warmth of family. I’m grateful you gave this chance. Now, I won’t choose to leave. No matter what, I won’t leave this family again in this lifeti.
Even if I endure hardships, mockery, neglect, and cold stares here, I’ll remain steadfast in this family. It’s not for money, not for any other family mber, but for you, my son. To prevent my son from being hurt repeatedly and to keep you from being ridiculed over and over. So you can truly experience having family all together.
That feeling is sothing we’ve both longed for over the years, and I’ve wished for it as well. My anticipation each ti only reinforces the resolve to not admit defeat. Admitting defeat ans I was wrong, forcing to stubbornly hold on to pride. But who knows I never thought that way in my heart. I’m not an emotionless woman. I’m a living human being, and more importantly, your mother, with a mother’s love and the mont where her nurturing shines."
"Whether what you said today is true or not, I feel touched. Thank you so much, my mom. There’s sothing I’ve never told anyone before, but today I want to tell you: I love you, my mom. Through the years, I’ve lived alone and lonely. Even with grandpa’s company, in my inner world, I was isolated. He is my grandpa, but he could never replace my parents in my heart or give the love that my parents couldn’t provide — it’s a different feeling. Now, hearing your words, I feel truly happy and excited inside. You’ve given a new feeling, allowing to find the most important goal in my life again.
On the day my wife gets discharged, I’ll throw a grand banquet and introduce you to all the relatives and friends. I’ll let everyone know that my parents didn’t abandon but went on a journey. After all these years, with one pregnancy, the world finally returned. I’ll let everyone know my parents aren’t heartless; they love . They’ve left with the most beautiful and profound love of this life!"
Zhang Yichen hurried and left afterward. He couldn’t stay at ho for too long, as his wife in the hospital still needed his care. No friend helping could match the care of her husband. He should always be by her side, never stepping away. His family has beco complete now. Even if his career completely declines in the future, so what? At least he’s obtained the family he most wanted in this life.
"I once thought no matter what, I had to get what I wanted most in life, even by any ans necessary. But gradually, I understood that these cannot be achieved through relentless pursuit alone. If it’s ant to be yours, it will be eventually. If not, forcing it to stay will only lead it to leave soday.
Instead of waiting until everything spirals out of control, it’s better to let go early. Why live through a life feared most in the past, repeatedly over and over?
There’s no need to worry about everything. Walking the path directly in front of well is the decision and choice I should make in life!"
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