Zhang Yichen always rembered every word Old Master Zhang had said to him, but he never forgot why all this turned out this way.
He still rembered when grandpa once said...
"Child, I know, even though you are comforting grandpa with your words, your heart is still in pain, how could you not be?
That is your biological father, the harm he caused you far exceeds any harm done to grandpa.
Actually, I believe you have the sa questions in your heart as I do: Why did my parents leave ? Why were they so cruel to abandon ti after ti? Am I really so insignificant in their hearts?
Do they really not care about at all?
Your parents are not heartless people; they had no choice but to do this!
All your questions, grandpa once had too. But gradually, those vague doubts disappeared from my heart because I discovered that if those things did not allow the people involved to co back to , I could question myself every day, but no amount of reflection would bring them back, because no one would believe . Since no one would believe, why bother proving yourself unnecessarily?
Everyone’s inner thoughts are different. So people can happily live their own lives, content and carefree throughout their life, but so people live on the edge of pain their whole life, unable to find joy, because they have nothing joyful inside their hearts, their hearts are dark. When you slowly understand many things, you’ll realize that all of it can be irrelevant, no one would really live or die for losing soone—they can still live freely and happily after losing soone, and those who can never let go are people who either abandon others or are abandoned themselves!
The most important thing in one’s lifeti is to learn how to grow. Once you learn to grow, what do you have to be afraid of? Even if in the end, no one wants to co back to your side, you still have everything you worked hard to achieve. Why care for those who don’t care about you?
Not only does it leave you ntally exhausted, but it also makes those who are with you even more exhausted. Don’t hurt those who care about you for the sake of those who are not worth it!"
"Grandpa, you’re right, I’ve had all these thoughts, and I know what to do, but I can never let go of all this stuff—on one side is my biological mother, and the other my biological father. How can I forget the hurt they caused in this lifeti?
I care so much about them, but what about them?
They hurt so deeply, in their eyes, what am I as their son? An object they can casually abandon?
Even if I am an object, after all the effort it took to bring into this world, shouldn’t they have so feelings for ? When they abandoned , they didn’t even blink, how painful my heart was, who could truly understand? Everyone thought I was selfish for rejecting my own biological father and mother, not letting them co ho, but who knew the pain in my heart?
Maybe so people think none of this is that important, but to , all of it is very important. I cannot accept my parents, born to and abandoned for their own freedom, this son they labored so to bring into the world. I don’t know why they had , I don’t know if they had to leave a descendant for the Zhang Family either, and I can’t understand why they did what they did. Is freedom really so important to them?
To even abandon their own flesh and blood—if so, why did they bring into this world? At the sa ti, I am quite grateful to them. If they hadn’t given birth to and then abandoned , how would I have achieved what I have today? Even though every day of my childhood was filled with hardship, I was always in training, but my life was always happy because I possessed the purest feeling in the world—the purest familial love from my grandpa. You gave so much help, grandpa, it was you who enabled my achievents today. None of this is related to my parents, and I will not feel gratitude towards them due to these things, because they’re not worthy. Since they decided to abandon , don’t ever think they’ll return to my side in this lifeti.
I have no such parents. I once gave them a chance to reform, to return ho, happily sharing the joys of life with us, but they themselves gave up that opportunity. Their hearts surprisingly have no place for us, so why should we forcibly keep them by our side, doesn’t it also make them suffer?
They are willing to continue wandering the earth, let them be. They are already accustod to a life of wandering and not suited for staying at ho. Since that is the case, why should I make things difficult for them, robbing everyone of peace? Grandpa, I know there are tis when my decisions are a bit excessive, but I hope you can also understand the feelings in my heart. I can no longer forgive them, they’ve hurt too much this ti, I can’t forget it in this lifeti, but I always endure the hatred in my heart to forgive them, yet they continuously hurt again and again. I’m human too, I have emotions, I can’t bear such heartbreak over and over!
Now, my heart is already a fragnted heart, I can no longer establish any trust with them, nor have any emotions left for them. My heart has been utterly wounded by them, where is there any feeling left in such a broken heart?"
Old Master Zhang knew every word his grandson said was the truth. He knew his grandson’s heart had been thoroughly hurt by his own son, but wasn’t it the sa for himself? His heart had been utterly wounded by his biological son as well, already battered, yet there was nothing he could do but bear all the consequences, because he was still his biological son, how could he so easily give up on him?
In fact, Old Master Zhang also understood, once a heart was shattered beyond repair, it could never be fully healed again in a lifeti—there would be no way to return to the past. They had never thought one day things would beco like this, so why should he worry himself sick for them?
They wanted that kind of life, let them live it!
"Grandpa, even if no one else cares, I care, the pain in my heart is too unbearable, I’ve never so deeply hated anyone with such bitter detestation—they crossed that line!"
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