Since my feelings can’t compare, maybe I really have to give up.
Giving up is the most useless expression, but I have no other choice.
"Do you think I don’t want to? All these years, I’ve been trying to make myself give up on you, forget you, not keep you in my heart anymore. But I’ve never been able to forget you. Do you know how desperate that feels? I want to start a new life, but your shadow and your smile haunt my mind every day. I can’t make it go away.
I’ve waited for you for so many years for your sake, but what about you? You married early and had children, but I don’t mind. I just want to have you!"
"You really don’t need to try so hard to find . No matter how good you say things are, no matter how much sweet talk, I won’t believe it. Now, I just want to live a peaceful life. I don’t want the etings between the two of us to destroy the marriage with my husband. All I want is for us to live happily. For , there’s nothing more important than these. If there’s even a little bit of love in your heart for , if you haven’t completely forgotten , then please show rcy and let walk my own path in life. Don’t disturb my once-quiet life, okay?"
"Since you really won’t give a chance to try being with you, then accompany for a good drink tonight, okay? Let’s not leave until we’re drunk. After tonight, I promise I won’t bother you again. You take your own path, and I’ll take mine. We won’t interfere with each other’s lives. How do you feel about that?"
Ran Zhihan hesitated for a while, but in the end, decided to stay and drink with his classmate. However, he didn’t realize that tonight’s drinking would lead to suspicion of divorce.
"Rember what you just said. If you can do it, then I’ll drink with you properly, not leave until we’re drunk!" From Ran Zhihan’s perspective, his husband doesn’t know. But little did he know, every move was in his husband’s eyes, yet he was left in the dark alone. He thought everything would be fine as long as he could destroy all the evidence, but he didn’t know his husband had been watching him all along, never truly trusting him completely.
"Don’t worry, as long as you accompany for a good drink and don’t go back tonight, stay here with , I’ll certainly fulfill what I’ve promised you!"
Chen Gang watched the woman in front of him begin drinking, and his heart lifted. She only wanted to be with the woman he loved, but after waiting for so many years, he got no result, not even an explanation. After returning from studying abroad, he found the woman he loved had already married and had children. How could he accept this?
Ran Zhihan was poured drink after drink by Chen Gang. He knew he couldn’t handle alcohol well, but seeing his classmate, he reluctantly continued. Who would’ve known that after he got completely drunk, Chen Gang took him ho.
"Zhihan, do you know how hard I’ve been living all these years? Every ti I think about being with you, I feel completely relaxed. I want my beloved you to be with , but you married early and had a child. I know you’re not a complete woman anymore, but I still want to be with you. I want to have marital relations with you!
I hope you don’t bla for deceiving you tonight. Maybe it’ll be hard to accept when you wake up, but I’ve truly reached my limit. I really want to be with you. After waiting for ten years, I got such a result in the end; how could my heart be calm? I had already investigated your marriage and found that it had lots of ups and downs, not as happy as imagined. Since that’s the case, why wouldn’t I take this chance to bring you back to , have you in my arms for a lifeti, never to fall into soone else’s hands? All I want is your company, your gentle treatnt!"
Chen Gang voiced his inner thoughts to the drunken Ran Zhihan.
......
The sky slowly brightened, and upon seeing the person in his arms, he felt like the happiest person in the world. He finally got the love he’d longed for. Despite improper ans, he fulfilled a long-held wish.
Zhang Yichen watched his wife being taken ho by Chen Gang and stayed out all night, choosing to say nothing. He returned ho quietly, waiting for his wife’s explanation. He didn’t know what excuse or lie she would use to deceive him.
Ran Zhihan opened his eyes in a daze, initially thinking the man beside him was his husband. But when he opened his eyes fully, he realized he made a huge mistake.
"Chen Gang, why is it you? What did you do to ? Why was I here all night? Didn’t you say you wouldn’t disturb my life after drinking with you last night? You lied to ? How could you treat like this? What did I do to deserve this? All I want is my own life, is that so hard? Do you have to co into my life and turn it upside down to feel satisfied? I told you I can’t be with you. Now how do I face my husband when I go back? He’ll see what happened at a glance. Why did you treat like this?"
"I must do this. I want you to divorce your husband. Only then will I have a chance to bring you back to . I want you to stay by my side. You may not care, but for , it’s my vital cure. I only want the woman I love most. I’ve endured years of longing for you, studying hard, just to achieve sothing one day, to bring you back to , to give you the most happiness. But when I returned ho, I found you were already married. I don’t care if you had a child or married soone else; what matters is whether you can be with !"
Caring doesn’t necessarily an possessing. What you cherish is not always what you want. Maybe life can really only leave you in unbearable pain.
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