No one in this world lives easily, we should have our own path to follow, and we should make our lives extraordinary.
"Zhentian, if there is a next life, I would still be willing to live together with you again because you truly are a great man. But now I can’t continue living with you. The paths we’ve chosen have already determined the kind of outco we will face in the future, so I don’t want such an outco to embarrass us even more.
Since today is the last ti we will et, listen to what I have to say from the bottom of my heart. When I first got together with you and looked at you, my heart suddenly skipped a beat. I knew at that mont I had deeply fallen for you, and there was no way to change it for the rest of my life.
But later, I realized that even though I love you so much, I am nothing in your heart. I don’t know why you chose to be with in the first place, but when I was with you, it wasn’t for your money, your family background, or your status. If I cared about those things, I could have found a man a thousand tis better than you, but I didn’t. I only knew I was a common girl and couldn’t compare to those from a Wealthy Family, so I couldn’t have a marriage that matched your status. From the start, your father also opposed us being together. At that ti, I was truly disheartened. I never thought my road to love would be so difficult. But when I saw you stand up against your father for , I realized you truly loved . Whether that love was feigned or had other intentions, it comforted . From then on, I didn’t want much. I only hoped the person I loved could selflessly give to , love , truly consider part of his life plan.
Although the decisions we made then were hard for us to believe, looking back, that youthful recklessness is a precious mory for us. Thinking back to that ti, I was really happy. Thank you for giving so many mories; these mories can never be erased in this lifeti, they will always remain in my heart. Whether you forget them or not is beyond my control. Maybe you’ll turn around and forget, but I won’t. I genuinely loved you from the start, but you chose to use . There’s no need for you to explain now; my intuition was accurate. Even though I knew you were using , I still followed after you despite everything, even though in the end, I knew I would be hurt completely. I still wanted to be with you despite it all. I only hoped to be with you without expecting anything else. But in the end, what kind of reward did you give that resulted in your distrust and doubts? Do you think I need such a marriage anymore? Wouldn’t it be better to end it early, as it wasn’t the happiest marriage for either of us? During those tis, I didn’t know if you were happy, but I was very happy. The happiest ti in my life was in those years, when you could give up everything at ho for and wander the world with , holess. I’m very grateful for that. I can never repay what you gained from in this lifeti. I know you lost a lot, and because you lost those things, I can’t make up for it. But I hope you understand many things. Since you’ve already made a decision, don’t think about reconciling with , as it’s an unrealistic idea...
I’ve said everything I need to say, so think about what you want to say. Since today is the last ti we et, if you don’t say it now, there won’t be another chance."
Zhang Zhentian knew every word Xia Jing said was true. He understood that if this woman chose to hide and not see him again, he wouldn’t be able to find her even if he searched every corner of the world. The power behind her was too strong for him to make it vanish, so he could only comply. Therefore, he needed to seize this mont to speak, or he might not have another chance to speak.
"Maybe you think I had ulterior motives when I first got together with you, and that I didn’t love you. But I have no regrets being with you, and I still love you even without you by my side. It was only after you left that I realized that kind of love can’t simply be forgotten. But I must bear the consequences of my mistakes. I can’t always push all the bla onto you and make you take the fall for . I know that every decision I made back then hurt you, but you never left . You always stayed by my side, and that brings great comfort. Even knowing these matters were unfair to you, I still never stood up to say a word for you or consider your perspective. This was my failure as a husband and my failure as a man. I won’t be like I was before. Maybe you can forget , but I need to figure out what I truly want in my heart and what kind of life I want. I’ve realized I wasn’t truly rcenary. I could give up all benefits for my love. I could do anything for love before, and now I can still give up everything for the one I love. I don’t care about money, status, fa, or power. What I care about is whether I can achieve the life I want, the life I envision, which is missing you, so it’s not perfect. I believe with my efforts, I can still find you and build my perfect life. I hope you will wait for the day when I find you. No matter where you’ve gone, I’ll find you, even if it’s at the ends of the earth. Even if I die in the process, I’ll continue until I find you, without regret or complaint.
I ask for nothing and want nothing, only that on the day I find you, don’t give despair again. I just want you to be with . If you give despair again, I would truly collapse. My life can’t handle such ups and downs. I have already realized my mistakes. The despair you gave made deeply feel the approach of death. I know that kind of despair is terrifying!"
Delete what’s to be deleted, so what if fingers linger? If everything could start anew, it would be better if we never t, never loved!
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