No one will ever truly know what the other person is thinking. Ti and again, seeing them hide and waver before , I already knew in that mont that I no longer held any place in his heart’s depths, yet I still stubbornly refused to let go.
Perhaps this is indeed a kind of self-destructive love. Loving him, I sacrificed everything for him, only to receive in return his repeated hurt, leaving battered and with wounds that refuse to heal.
Zhang Zhentian wondered what the purpose of his wife’s life truly was. In her eyes, he was never an important partner in her life; to her, he was ultimately rely a passerby.
He is now numb, unsure of how to comfort his deanor or persuade his wife to abandon the man she keeps in her heart. Ultimately, every occurrence only brings him repeated pain, and no one knows what conclusion all of this would bring him.
"Sigh!
Xia Jing, you are my wife. Even if in your heart you aren’t living for yourself, can you live for just once? Can you not be so selfish? You say such hurtful things for a man who’s already gone, to the people around you who accompany you. Do you think that’s fair?
Perhaps I shouldn’t seek fairness in you, but so things I really can’t tolerate. I just want to stay quietly by your side, but you push away. Your heart is always thinking of another man. What do you take for?
You might think I’m being petty as a man, but I ask which man would willingly see his wife’s heart always pining for another man, with no place for her husband. If it were your heart, would you be happy or satisfied? You’ve always cared for your own feelings, forgetting what pain those who love you most endure because of your actions.
Maybe I’ve said too much and ddled too much; I shouldn’t keep nagging you with these matters. But if you truly consider the severity of the issues from others’ perspectives, maybe they wouldn’t tell you such heartfelt words repeatedly.
I’ve given you everything, treated you sincerely over and over, but all I get in return is your heartless treatnt. No matter what I do, I never get the right decision from you. What do you even take for? I’m rely your effort, thinking it’s rightful for to treat you well. But you’ve forgotten, I owe you nothing; I only treat you like this because I want you to live happily. It’s not for any other reason. Why won’t you think of my feelings in everything you do?
We once gave up our child and family for freedom. At that mont, I was happy and joyful, but as ti passed, I realized I’m not truly happy. I believe in enduring pain and tornt, fearing one day the nightmare will co, longing to be with the one I love most.
But for you, I’ve sacrificed so much. Don’t you have any idea? In your eyes, what kind of person am I? Am I soone who would use any ans to achieve a goal?
I really hope you try to understand . Don’t judge another’s life path because of your material concerns. That results in dissatisfaction for everyone. You’ve only known your own joy and pain, forgetting the hardship of my love for you. Step by step to today, do you not rember how hard it was to accompany you through every night?
"Countless nights you’ve been by my side. I’ve never forgotten how you treated , but my heart truly has no way to love you!
If there’s no place for you in my heart, yet I say I like you, wouldn’t that be deceiving your feelings? How can I keep telling you such things? I just want you to know things aren’t like that.
You say the heavens treat you unfairly, but are they fair to ? They test repeatedly, challenge my limits, and in the end, what do they take for? Just a tool to test life, exploited over and over, returning alone and scarred, never considering all the pain I’ve endured. You always only know your own joy. Aren’t you selfish?"
Zhang Zhentian was rendered speechless by Xia Jing’s words. He knew all she ntioned were true facts, things that indeed happened, and he never chose to stop it, allowing the mistake to continue. Perhaps for every family, this unspeakable pain is sothing that cannot be severed. Everyone believes their actions are right, but who ultimately is at fault isn’t for them to decide; it’s judged by others. A person’s lifelong outcos aren’t easily seen, but reflect in the chosen paths, showing the choices they’ll face.
"If you don’t want your life to lose aning, I hope you can live for yourself once. Do you know such chances are rare? Many wish to live for themselves, but are mired in family and sickness, unable to find happiness their whole lives.?
Those displaced people beg repeatedly for kindness. Do you know that pain?
My conditions aren’t the best, but I use what I have to help those in need. To you, this might be trivial, but to , it’s a profound realization from the soul. You all repeatedly think my actions are re performances. Yet who among you knows I’m sincere in everything, only to receive suspicion and doubt, making my heart hard to accept!"
I sacrificed my heart for him, but he, for other reasons, abandoned all his promises to .
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