As for Old Master Zhang, his heart is truly in pain. He knows what kind of familial warmth his grandson wants, but he feels powerless. He knows that everything could be resolved with the simplest gesture, yet why is it so difficult in his family? Why? Is it just because this is a prestigious family, where all the wealth today was earned through hard work, without any illegal ans? Why is their happiness repeatedly torn apart? It truly leaves him unable to balance his heart. He is not soone who forsakes dignity for appearances. Ti and ti again, he’s set aside personal principles, making exceptions for others. Yet why, why do they eventually co to hurt him again and again? Is it really right to hurt him like this?
Zhang Yichen, too, understands his grandfather’s inner thoughts. He knows well the suffering and conflict his grandfather feels, yet as a grandson, he is helpless. He can only watch as his family is hurt and saddened ti and again by these events, standing silently aside, unable to help. This is such a severe sense of failure. For soone successful, this kind of setback is a crushing blow. Having lived a smooth life all along, why must he suddenly suffer so many blows? Is he truly so undeserving of happiness?
Though they both have their thoughts, when standing together, they choose to remain silent. They know better than anyone that so things are best left unsaid. Speaking them might an they can never return to how things were. No one wants to see such an outco for themselves. They’re not saints, they all need the warm harbor of family happiness. But why is heaven so unfair to them, repeatedly hurting their family and destroying the happiness they deserve? For anyone, this would be an unacceptable blow.
At the sa ti, they both choose to leave these words unspoken. Because once said, things change, making everyone feel awkward and heartsick. Even though they are the closest people, ti and again, they refuse to return to his side, ti and again causing hurt. This is a fact that no one can accept. They don’t want this kind of hurt, but it remains buried in their hearts, indelible.
"Grandpa, why do my parents never want to co back to and care for their own son? In their hearts, is their own son really so unworthy of being cared for, even once? Even if just for , couldn’t there be one exception? But why are they always so cold and unfeeling?
I really can’t understand why, where am I failing to win my parents’ love? Being abandoned once or twice should be enough, but why am I abandoned repeatedly throughout my life? Am I truly so undeserving of their love?
All these years, I’ve never received the love and care from my parents that I longed for. I’ve grown used to it, but how can my heart find balance? Watching others’ parents love their children so dearly, while mine avoid , how can this junior ever be happy? I keep questioning myself, if my parents really don’t love , then why did they bring into this world? Was it rely to continue the family line, just fulfilling an obligation?
Grandpa, the pain in my heart is sothing no one can understand. It’s a tornt from deep within the soul, the imnse hurt caused by my own parents abandoning . This is sothing about my soul that can never be changed in this lifeti. I know that what’s past is past, and no matter how hard you hold on, it has no aning. But I can’t let go; it’s always been a nightmare deep in my soul. How can I just let go?
Sotis I wish ti could flow backwards. If ti could rush back to the very beginning, how happy I would be. If my parents had shown a little more love, how grateful I would be for my whole life. But they never gave what I wanted, always forcing upon what I didn’t. Ever since I was little, I understood the principle of not doing to others what you don’t want yourself. But why don’t my parents understand this? Why do they continually do things that hurt ? I really don’t understand. Am I still their own son?"
Old Master Zhang heard his grandson say these words, and his heart felt bad. He understood that this was the demon within his grandson’s heart. If he can’t walk out from this shadow, no matter how much he does, no matter how hard he tries, it would ultimately be to no avail. Everything depends on him experiencing and figuring it out himself to truly grow.
"Child, never dwell on these things that make you unhappy. No matter how your parents treat you, they are still your parents. No matter how much they hurt you, you still have to be grateful to them. If not for them, how could you have today? Whether it ans anything to them or not, your life peak now, maybe for many is a height unattainable in a lifeti. Many would fight tooth and nail to reach this level, but never find a way into the upper echelons. You were born into wealth, your family background has far surpassed many. So never think about these things. Just rember to keep a grateful heart, no matter how your parents push you away. There will be a day of reunion in your life. Grandpa knows that those harms can’t be forgotten, but there’s nothing that can be done..."
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