During this period, Zhang Yichen felt quite at ease, his parents didn’t interfere with him, at least they were no longer constantly arguing like before, and his wife’s condition had relatively stabilized, with no bad incidents or accidents occurring. For him, this was a blessing amid misfortune. He hadn’t lived such a peaceful life for a long ti. He realized that it hadn’t been easy for him up to now, yet he never gave up.
If sothing bad were to happen because of family conflicts, he truly wouldn’t know what kind of ending he’d have to face. He no longer had the energy or inclination to handle these endless grudges and decisions. He just felt that each day was both fulfilling and exhausting.
Throughout these years, step by step, reaching today was truly difficult for him. Reflecting on everything he had gone through, every decision he made, was it really sothing he could be at peace with? He never considered how he got to this point; he lived step by step just hoping his family would remain safe. Now that his family had reached the outco he desired most, even though his wife hadn’t awakened yet, he still felt quite happy...
"Dad, to be honest, I’m filled with despair about this current family. I can no longer feel the warmth I once longed for from everyone here. Do you understand? When I was tornted repeatedly, when I was hopeless and needed the love and care from those dear to , all I got in return were wounds. I’ve longed to live a happy and joyful life my entire life, but what did I get? I got nothing in return; instead, I lost so much.
Over the years, regardless of how you all viewed , I’ve truly been happy. Even though I’ve endlessly been hurt, crying alone in the dark, deep inside, those were still the happiest monts of my life. I have reached today through my own efforts, without depending on anyone else. I was raised by my grandfather, and at that mont, deep inside, I felt sorrow. I never received your love, nor did I get your companionship. Inside, my parents were like invisible people, never showing up by my side.
The ti when I needed you most has long passed, those days are gone forever. There’s no way to return to this present mont. How could you possibly understand the intense pain that the hurt you caused brings? I never spoke about my past pains to anyone because it was futile. But today, I can’t bear it anymore. With all I’ve done, in the end, all I got in return was the hurt from my own family; I got nothing.
When I needed you most, you were wandering the world, you abandoned , leaving to face all the pressure alone. Those monts filled my heart with sorrow. I never imagined my own parents would treat so cruelly. Was it truly wrong for to want what I wanted? Is it my fate to keep getting hurt repeatedly by my own family and endure all the pain in silence? I’m not willing to accept that. I’ve proven through my own efforts that not resigning to such fate was the right decision.
I thought about doing whatever it takes just to live happily, but in the end, what did I get? Even if I could manage to live like this, I got nothing; I lost my loved one, lost myself, and lost what could have been a happy family, losing everything I cared about and cherished. At that ti, what was the aning of everything I did?"
"Child, you should understand, from beginning to end, I never intended to treat you this way. The misunderstanding between us is too deep, far from sothing that can be resolved with a few words. Have you ever thought about it? If, at the beginning, I really hoped you’d leave and not return, truly unwilling to co back to take care of and accompany you, then why would you be standing here now? Have you ever stood in my shoes to think about things? Do you believe everything you’ve done is right, and everything I’ve done is wrong? I live for my freedom and sustenance; is that wrong? I wanted to leave only to make my partner happy, just as you want your wife to be happy, healthy, and with you peacefully for a lifeti. Don’t you think I want the sa?
Many things are common human nature, but in your eyes, they seem so unforgivable. Have you ever considered the internal struggles and pains inside of as a father? Have you ever thought about, when caught in the middle, unable to decide, how difficult the choices were for ? Do you think I did all this just for myself? Have you considered how hard all this was? If you had just tried to understand from my perspective even slightly, it wouldn’t have resulted in this. I hope that no more unexpected events occur between us, and no one continues to hash over this issue. Such an endlessly arguntative life is tireso to ; we all don’t want that kind of life."
"And now you suddenly tell that this isn’t the life you want? Do you think I would believe you? Once, I might have believed every word you said, but now I don’t because believing you only leads to getting hurt again and again. Why would I let myself be hurt when all I get in the end is silently enduring pain, and you’re laughing on the side? Why is it that the only people I owe in my life are my grandfather, my wife, and my child? I don’t owe anything to my parents because they never gave love or companionship. Even though you gave life, you’ve already settled everything by abandoning over these years. We owe nothing to each other, and I won’t reconcile or feel resentnt because of your existence or actions. I’m not the person I was. I will continue to live with dignity on my own rits and won’t let anyone else bring sorrow again..."
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