Indeed, everyone views things differently, and therefore, the choices they make are different as well. Every path you choose determines which road you’ll take in the future.
There are tis when Zhang Yichen feels lost, unsure why he chose this path in the first place. Initially, he wanted to prove to his parents how strong he was, to make them regret abandoning him.
But now, he has achieved success that not just anyone can force upon themselves. He has beco lonely and desolate, and concerning his father and mother, due to certain reasons, he doesn’t even drink. He doesn’t know whether he should feel happy or sad inside. In the past, he desperately wished for his parents to be punished.
Even when they could heartlessly abandon a one-month-old child, to him, it was simply unforgivable.
But now his parents have truly been punished. Yet why does his heart only feel pain instead of joy? Is it really because blood is thicker than water? If that’s the case, then why didn’t they feel how painful it was for him to take each step back then?
"Dad, honestly, I can’t understand whether seeing you like this makes happy or sad. Truthfully, as a junior witnessing you like this, I still feel upset inside. But thinking back to when you heartlessly abandoned , leaving to live alone for twenty-odd years, this small bit of punishnt seems light to ."
Sotis you abandon and say repeatedly that it was out of pure necessity, but think about it, what kind of difficulty would lead a mother and father to completely abandon their one-month-old child?
I really don’t understand what benefit you get out of this, letting your child live in misery. Were you truly happy inside?
If you didn’t choose to raise back then, then why give birth to , letting suffer in this world? Every step I took was so arduous, and you never saw how hard I struggled."
Zhang Zhentian knows that certain matters will always leave shadows in his son’s heart, always having reasons. He cannot erase all of it; he chose this path himself, leading him to this point. He knows how much his son suffered because of his actions; he watched as his son endured devil-like training, yet could only stand in the shadows.
"Ah!
Don’t you really know? Seeing your devil-like training, I would feel heartache too. Always thinking that I hadn’t paid attention to you from childhood to adulthood, but do you know? Every move you made left a deep impression on our minds.
We saw with our own eyes which path you chose, saw with our eyes what kind of hellish training you went through, seeing you step by step reach today, creating such brilliance with all your efforts. You really didn’t know at all?
I also know, in everyone’s eyes not only you, neither your mom nor I can be said to be competent parents. Abandoning you so young, leaving you to live in solitude here, had I been grandpa, you would have starved long ago."
"So, I can’t understand, what kind of necessity, what kind of compulsion led you down that path, abandoning and letting live so lonely, making you feel happy because having a na outside is my devil training, enduring such hardship, yet standing behind and not coming forward, making repeatedly hope whether my parents would return to accompany once!"
But I really don’t know whether I should choose to forgive you. Why every ti I stand at the door filled with hope, waiting for the sound of your return, but you? You keep hiding behind, watching train, yet never willing to co forward and look at , was I really so unpleasant in your eyes?
Looks are given by parents; it isn’t sothing I can decide.
I pushed myself to beco the smartest person in the world because I want everyone to know everything I’ve done is worthwhile, making everyone forever beyond my reach, because only by standing at a different height can everyone know how much effort and hardship I’ve put in to achieve this success, sothing they can never experience because they have their parents’ companionship so they don’t have to try so hard to prove themselves!
But I can’t!"
"Child, don’t harbor too much resentnt. Even if you bla us, bla as your father but don’t hate your mom!"
"There are things I don’t want to ntion again. Since my mother doesn’t wish to see you now, just give her so ti. Only by giving her ti can you know how to make her return to your side. I can see she still has feelings for you, but the current situation makes her avoid you, it’s also for a reason; she doesn’t know how to face you, because of grandpa’s intervention, also because everyone in our family is watching her, making her feel awkward."
"Rest assured, I understand, and since I’ve done this, I’ll choose to give her ti, no matter how long this period might be, I’ll always give it to her. I’ll wait for her until the day she decides to co out and see !
Even if this day becos unattainable in this lifeti, I’m still willing to lie down with even a glimr of hope; I can’t give up, grabbing hold of the last glimr of hope might make this lifeti different."
Thank you anyway for today, thank you for expressing your resentnt towards us, thank you for saying what you’ve always wanted to say from the heart.
You’ll always be our good son; what you’ve done indeed has left most people unable to reach, making many rich heirs out of reach.
Because all of this we’ve caused, it was us that exposed you to so much pain leading you step by step to today, we cannot intervene in everything you’ve done, only quietly watch you from behind, only let you walk this life alone, we’re truly sorry!"
Filled with desire, what good ending is there anyway? In the end, it’s just struggling, yet inherent weakness teaches us to repeat mistakes.
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