Hearing the music I love, I think of you, so familiar, hearing a familiar voice, I also rember everything I used to do.
Zhang Zhentian heard Zhang Ni asking him a question, and he didn’t know how to answer.
Over the years, I have indeed wronged my grandson. If I hadn’t stubbornly chosen to leave this family back then, how could everyone in this family end up like this?
This all turned out this way in the end, and I cannot bla anyone. It’s all consequences of my own doing, who hasn’t walked the wrong path?
But the mistakes I’ve made are already too deep, with no way to make up for them. I once really wanted to stay in this family, but now I don’t know why, in the end, I still made the decision to leave the family. I was really immature back then, abandoning everyone at ho, letting my relatives who loved so much get hurt again and again.
"Child, I’m sorry, grandpa didn’t know back then, grandpa made that decision that hurt you, and I hope you can forgive grandpa, okay? You also really didn’t an it. If ti could really turn back, grandpa would definitely choose to stay, to properly co back to your side, to take care of you, letting you receive the care from grandpa and grandma the mont you were born. But in the end, we didn’t give you any care. Maybe you feel deep down that we don’t love you.
But do you know, grandpa and grandma really like you, grandpa and grandma always silently pay attention to your every move because we like you. We all know how hard you train and why you do it, we just never say it aloud. But your every move, grandpa and grandma have been watching closely, seeing you get hurt ti and again from training, do you know how much it pains us? Yet because of our relationship with your mom and dad, we really couldn’t co to see you, and we hope you can forgive us..."
Zhang Ni never expected his grandpa would lower himself to speak to him like this. He felt very conflicted inside. Although he didn’t like his grandpa and grandma because they hadn’t been by his side when he needed them, when he saw other kids with their grandparents, he felt so lonely.
Gradually he beca numb and didn’t know what kind of life he wanted. Watching other kids with their grandpas and having so much fun, it was true joy, yet they hadn’t matured as much as he did. He already understood so many things at such a young age that other children didn’t. Sotis he felt proud of this, but recalling those things he said that hurt, what did it all count for in the end? It was just so small things and setbacks.
"I really want to ask, why didn’t my grandparents want to stay by my side? It’s not sothing I can forgive just because I want to. Maybe you don’t know, every ti I went out to play, when I saw other kids holding hands with their grandparents, how envious I was. I hoped my grandparents would treat the way they were treated, but every ti I got ho, there was only my mom and dad, and a great-grandfather who treated the best. I always wondered, where in the world were my grandparents, enjoying their life. Again and again, I prayed, hoping my grandparents would co back to , even if it was just to take a glance at .
But every ti I went ho, I was only t with disappointnt. I never saw my grandparents at ho waiting to find . I didn’t even know what my grandparents looked like, so seeing the two of you standing here today, I feel very estranged yet sowhat familiar at the sa ti. I don’t understand what this feeling is. I know, maybe you had no choice but to leave this ho, you must have had your reasons. But did you ever think about coming back to be with us? Whether it was mom and dad or great-grandpa, or even , we all wanted your company. So why did you never take our feelings into account, always thinking about enjoying yourselves outside?
Even if you didn’t say it, I know these years outside haven’t been happy or satisfactory because the only thing that brings the greatest joy in this world is having family by your side, having family around makes life perfect. I may still be too young to fully understand everything, but I do know so things, I understand that so actions are right, so are wrong, and that once certain things are done, there’s no going back. You once chose to abandon our whole family, the entire family, and the responsibilities that should be borne by the heir of this family. Did you ever think about how desperate he felt at that mont, how much he wished you could live happily in this family, using all his authority just to create a happy place for you, a family life where you had no worries about food and clothing? But your decisions were so heartbreaking to him. He is now elderly, with white hair. When I look at his face, his hair, I feel pain and sadness for him.
Your own son isn’t by your side, but he waited again and again for them to co ho and see him, ultimately only being left in despair again and again. How could his heart be at peace with these feelings? None of you ever thought about what his internal feelings were. You always selfishly did what you wanted to do. Did you never truly treat him as family in your heart? That’s not how you treat family. Treating family like this only leaves them wounded and scarred, in the end, you’ll lose these family mbers!"
"Child, we’re sorry, it’s grandpa and grandma’s fault, why can you understand these things but grandpa and grandma can’t? Maybe it’s because we were too stubbornly biased that everything ended up like this. Sorry, really so sorry, you’ve suffered grievances all these years. Can you forgive grandpa and grandma? If you can forgive us, we’re willing to stay here for the rest of our lives, to take good care of you and make up for all these years to allow you to live happily, okay..."
I hope you can really give a chance, and not let go to bed for life with regret, that would be the most painful torture for .
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