My Alleged Husband Chapter 1720 - 1514: Starting Over

Many things aren’t as simple as you imagine, and even if everything slips away from reach, does it an I can never start over again?

I know you harbor many resentnts against , and I understand. But please, for the sake of all my hard work just to live a life that’s not ordinary, consider my feelings.

I really don’t know how to describe my feelings to you back then, but now I can tell you everything about that day’s emotions."

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"Zhentian, if there is a next life, I would still want to continue living with you because you truly are a great man. But now, I can’t continue living with you. The paths we chose have already determined the kind of ending we’ll face, so I don’t wish for such an ending to make us both more embarrassed.

Anyway, today is the last ti we’re eting, so listen to the thoughts in my heart. When I was with you, just looking at you, my heart suddenly beat wildly at that mont. I knew right then I had deeply fallen into your heart, and there’s no way to change that for the rest of my life.

But later, I realized that even though I loved you so much, I ant nothing in your heart. I didn’t know why you chose to be with back then, but when I was with you, it was truly not because of your money, your family background, or your status. If I cared about those, I could have chosen n with far better conditions than yours. But I didn’t do that. I only know I’m a humble girl, and I can’t compare with the daughters from Wealthy Families, so there’s no way I could match up with you. Initially, your father also opposed us being together. Back then, I was really disheartened. I never thought my path of love would be so rocky. But when I saw you defiantly standing up against your father for , I realized you really loved . Regardless of whether that love was feigned or had ulterior motives, I felt comforted. From that point on, I didn’t hope for much. I just wished that the person I love could love unconditionally, genuinely treat as his own, sincerely include in his life plans.

Though the decisions we made back then were unbelievable to us both, now thinking about those youthful days, that reckless youth, who wouldn’t cherish those precious mories? Looking back, I feel really happy. Thank you for giving so many mories that are forever indelible in my life. These mories will always stay in my heart; I won’t forget them. Whether you rember them or not, I can’t control your thoughts. Perhaps you’ll turn away and forget, but I won’t; from the very beginning, I truly loved you. But you chose to use . There’s no need for you to explain now. My intuition was spot-on. I clearly knew you were using , yet I still followed your lead despite knowing I’d be hurt in the end. Even if I’d end up severely damaged, I still wanted to be with you. I only hoped to be with you without any other expectations. But ultimately, what did you give in return? Your distrust, your doubts? What’s the point of such a marriage? Better to end it early. This marriage wasn’t the happiest for either of us. During those tis, I don’t know if you were happy, but I was very happy and content. The happiest ti inside was those many years when you’d forsaken everything for and wandered with , holess. I am grateful; I’ll never repay all that you’ve given in this lifeti. I know you’ve lost so much, and because of this loss, I can’t make it up to you. But I hope you understand that since you’ve already made your decision, don’t think about reuniting with . It’s an unrealistic thought...

I’ve said all I needed to say. Now think about what you want to say because today is our last eting, and if it’s not said now, there won’t be another chance."

Zhang Zhentian knows that every word Xia Jing says is true. He knows that if this woman hides away and doesn’t want to see him, he could search to the ends of the earth and still not find her. The power behind him is so imnse that he has no ans to make it disappear, so he must comply. If he has anything to say, he should hurry and say it; otherwise, he may not even have the chance to speak.

"Perhaps you think when I was with you, it wasn’t love but had other motives. But I’m clear in my conscience; I loved you with or without you. Only after you left did I realize that this love isn’t sothing that can be forgotten easily. Yet the wrongs I committed must be faced by . I can’t keep pushing all the mistakes onto you, or letting you take the bla for . I know every decision I made hurt you deeply. But you never left; you stayed by my side. That comforted so much. Even knowing these things were unfair to you, I never spoke up for you, never stood in your shoes to consider a single thing. That’s my failure as a husband and as a man. I won’t be like before. Maybe you can forget , but I can’t figure out what I truly want inside, nor what life I wish to live. I’ve co to realize that I’m not a profit-driven person. For my love, I can forsake all benefits. I once pursued love with any ans, and now I can forsake it all for the one I love. I don’t care about money, status, fa, or power. I only care about whether I can achieve the life I desire, the life I want. Now, the life I want is incomplete without you; it won’t be perfect. I believe through my efforts, I can still find you, thus creating my perfect life. I hope you await the day I find you. No matter where you go, I will find you, even to the ends of the earth. I will keep searching for you until I find you. Even if I die trying and never get to see you one last ti, I won’t regret it.

I ask for nothing else, want nothing more; just on the day I find you, don’t give one more despair. I just want to be with you. If you give despair again, I would truly be devastated. My life can’t handle such ups and downs. I realize my mistakes, and the despair you’ve given has deeply let experience the arrival of death. That despair terrified !"

Life is a series of continuous efforts to make one’s life happier. No one owes anything to anyone; no one should do anything for anyone.