Who doesn’t wish for a perfect family? No one wants to live a life so difficult.
"In all these years with you, I’ve never regretted a single thing I’ve done for you. On the contrary, I’m grateful for the opportunity to give so much for you. Even though I know the person in your heart isn’t , my heart still longs to be with you. No matter how badly you’ve treated , my love for you has never disappeared. You might think I’m naive, foolish, and silly, but don’t you know that’s my way of showing love? I love you so much that I can overlook everything. I can’t bother about the past; as long as you stay by my side, as long as we can create a future together, nothing else matters. But now, what I truly want to know is your genuine thoughts. Can you be completely honest with about what you really feel inside?
Don’t try to deceive with lies like you did before; it does you no good. It only hurts repeatedly, doesn’t it? You’ve hurt once, and now you’re hurting a second ti? If I were you, I wouldn’t have the heart to do it. I love you so much—don’t you feel it? I’m willing to pay any price for you. My father labored so hard to raise , hoping I’d have a life without worries, wanting to stay by his side and be filial, but for you and our future, I chose to abandon him. I turned away from the best match he introduced to , a perfect union of well-matched families, because in my eyes, there’s only you. As long as I’m with you, nothing else is important. I could give up everything else for you.
Have you ever considered if you really feel nothing for ? Do you truly not know how much I’ve loved you all these years? No one has a heart of stone, and you are not an ice queen. Surely my actions have stirred sothing within you. Have you seriously never thought about being truly with , never considered staying by my side for the rest of your life? If you say no, I won’t believe it. Every look, every move, and every word you utter reveals the truth, yet I’ve chosen silence because I’ve always left myself an escape route.
Don’t ask whether it’s worth it. I’ve never regretted the years with you or all I’ve sacrificed for you, even turning my back on my family. At least I have you. Though I never gained your heart, I’m content with having you by my side. I’m not greedy; just having you is enough. But greed grows gradually. After having you, I thought I had your heart, but today I realize it never belonged to . Of course, I feel disappointed, wishing I could hold a place in your heart. Yet, I know I can’t compare to her—your love for her is deeply rooted. I’m just a hurdle you can easily clear because you only want to be by her side, no matter how she treats you in the end. Aren’t I right?"
Xia Jing nodded, sighed, and said to her husband, "You’re right. Even when I cried with him, those were tears of happiness. At that mont, I was wrapped in bliss. I never imagined he would leave one day. That kind of pain—I never want to feel it again. All these years, I’ve missed him. No matter where he is, I’ve never forgotten. It isn’t fair to you; you’ve given so much, but I can’t give you the love you want.
So things aren’t under my control. Every choice cos with its price. I’ve paid so much, even risking my life, and you have paid for too. I see all of this.
But now that you know my true feelings, know that I don’t love you, do you still think everything you did was worth it? Am I worth it? Do you have any regrets now? You’ve given up so much for , only for this outco, hurting you repeatedly. Do you really think being with is still worth it? Am I worth you abandoning all your wealth and glory for ?"
"In this world, there’s no real asure of worth or willingness. If everything is evaluated by worth, what’s the point of living? If we asure everything by worth, do you think we would be happy together? Then we’d only act based on our personal interests, without considering whether we should do sothing in the first place.
I’ve already said, I’ve never regretted anything I’ve done for you. I hope you don’t ask again if it’s worth it or if I’m willing. These aren’t things that can be asured. Your place in my heart can’t be asured just like his place in your heart occupies it entirely. You should understand that feeling no matter what decision you make; I’ll never give up on you. Even if you stay by my side as a shell, I’d still willingly pay any price for you!"
"You’re so foolish, giving so much for a woman who’s not worth it. I’ve never t soone as foolish as you. Maybe what you did is right, or perhaps it’s your greatest pain. All I can say is you’re so foolish that I have no words left to describe you!"
A happy life is sothing we create together; it’s not just my efforts that count.
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