In the past, you always thought that I was with you because of wealth and prosperity, but you never knew that I never thought that way.
"You always believed I was with you for money; you don’t understand at all. What I really want is not that. I just want to live with the man I love the most. When I achieve my ideal goal and marry the man I love the most, I realize my life is already fulfilled!
But in your eyes, you may think this is nothing, but for , it’s a big deal. I can endure you constantly disregarding , and I can endure you doubting again and again. I can tolerate almost never finding you by my side when I seek you out, but I cannot endure you wronging ti and ti again, not even willing to give the basic trust.
Over these years, in the eyes of outsiders, others think we’re a loving couple. But the truth? How do you really treat ? Are you even aware in your heart? No matter how I try to please you and cater to you, you always brush off with a smile, do you know that? Sotis I genuinely feel heartbroken and feel like a failure. Why is it that after treating the person I love with such sincerity, this is the result I get? Why is the person I love most unwilling to say he loves ?
I can’t distinguish which sentences are true and which are false anymore. But I’m not asking for much; just please, I’m pleading with you, don’t repeatedly deprive of the right to happiness. I just want to be with you. For you, I’ve changed so much, yet ultimately, I find no matter how much I change, I’ll never be good enough for you. You’re always a notch above —because your education is different, your background is different, everything about you is different. Our views of life, values, and ideals are all different. But do you know sothing? It’s precisely because of these differences that I follow your lead. I follow you and slowly shift my own perspectives on life based on yours. Your values differ from mine, and I adjust myself to match your values.
Do you really see these things as insignificant? Do you think I was born to be lowly, destined to treat you this way? Are you inherently supposed to be elevated high on others’ praise, so I, as your wife, must be stamped underfoot, forever unable to rise?
Yichen, I can’t find a way to understand how you see us now. Your coldness towards is driving to the brink at tis. I don’t know what to do or what attitude to adopt towards you. Clearly, many things aren’t my fault, but for your so-called dignity and to make you happy, I lower my head and admit fault repeatedly. Yet in the end, no matter my weakness, you never care about how I feel. Why is what I want so hard to achieve?
When I ask you questions, you always think of avoiding them. When trouble arises between us, and I want to clarify things thoroughly, you choose to wrong indiscriminately. Do you really trust ? Do you truly see as family inside? On the day you confessed to and during the years you genuinely treated well, I considered you family, but you saw as a tool to use instead."
"I’ve never seen you as a tool for my use. I just wanted you to stay safely at ho, not wandering aimlessly. It’s not that I don’t trust you; rather, the mistakes you’ve made make it hard for to trust you. I’m afraid; I’m afraid that past events might repeat themselves, and I can’t endure such pain again. Why is it, after hurting so many tis, you now understand what it feels like not to be trusted?"
"When I was with you, I shared my whole heart and every truth with you. My trust in you has always been wholehearted. I’ve never doubted you, but you never believed in . Perhaps you think I’m cheap, right? Should everything conform to your wishes? Clearly, many things aren’t my fault. Why do I still bear all the bla for your happiness?"
I’ve pondered over and over without finding a suitable conclusion. When I finally co to terms, I realize everything I’ve done is just because I love you. But ultimately, this is the result. Do you really know ? You always think I’m with you for Xiao Jing, wealth, and prosperity. In a world with so many people, so many wealthy individuals, others could offer complete trust. Why do I choose you then? Because I believe soday I can warm your heart, which has grown cold because of , through my efforts to change."
"You once said your heart was dead, never to love again. Yet you ended up with . I don’t know if you’re with to tornt or use .
Why treat this way? Why won’t you give a peaceful life? Why distrusting repeatedly affects you little, but it delivers fatal pain to ..."
"Zihan, so things have passed; let’s not revisit them. Isn’t living a stable life now good enough? Why stir up those past people you know had ill intentions? Why do you act this way? Are you deliberately testing my patience?
My patience has limits; I can’t forever accommodate and love you unconditionally. I just want you to cherish and genuinely be with , with no one else dwelling in your heart. Can you truly do it? If you can, I can forfeit everything for it!"
"It’s too late for you to say these things now. Since you’ve wronged without distinction, without even an apology, how do you expect to forgive you?
I truly want to ask you this: On what basis did you wrong indiscriminately in your heart, and how do you regard ? Why, having done wrong yourself, can you wrong others uncaringly, yet unleash no apology? Do you truly have the right to be this arrogant? Just because you’re wealthy?"
I understand better than anyone what kind of person you are; how could you choose solely for wealth and prosperity, given your arrogance...
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