"No matter what you say to , and regardless of the words you use, I will never let go of your hand in this lifeti. You can’t hope to fully escape from either. Isn’t what you want just to live a happy and joyful life? It’s simple, stay with , and I can give you the life you want, provide you with everything you desire. Why do you treat this way, cruelly abandoning ? Do you truly find joy in this? When you see in such agony, does your heart not ache?" Zhang Zhentian once again revealed his persistently entangling behavior.
Xia Jing was at a loss for words with Zhang Zhentian. How could soone be like this? After all, she had made her standpoint clear, leaving no room for anything else, but why did he still choose to do so? Does he really think he is that important in her eyes? What kind of person is she, if even she can’t figure herself out, let alone expect others to do so? Maybe her standards were too high, which is why everyone who loved her left. Where, then, did she go wrong?
"Sigh, why can’t you listen to a word I’m saying? You should know that I don’t truly want to abandon you. Abandoning you hurts too, but do you understand? Every ti I decide to leave you, it pains my heart. However, I understand even more clearly that if I don’t resolve to leave you, we will only end up hurting each other even more deeply. Because you’ve already expelled from your heart. Everything you do is aid at , without considering how I feel. This ti is no different; I must face your accusations for no reason. What have I done to deserve this? Why do you repeatedly assu that I’m the cause of all bad things? In your eyes, am I soone who loves to do bad things?" Xia Jing said to Zhang Zhentian, "Sotis I don’t even know what kind of person I am. Even if I did many wrong things in the past, I still hope to be a good person now. I want to live a life true to myself, not hiding and covering up my past mistakes every day. Those things I did are what I regret most; I have never regretted an action so much. But now I truly understand, nothing is more important than family, but it’s all too late now, there is no way out. Let us both leave a way out for each other, not forcing ourselves into a corner, okay?"
"You ask not to corner you, but do you realise that everything you said to today, everything you’ve done, is cornering ? I’m terrified of you leaving ; don’t you know how intense this fear is? I never dare to ask for anything else because every ti you leave, it hurts so much. Yet so much ti has passed, and just when ti was slowly healing my wounds, why did you co back to tear them open again? Why must you keep reopening my wounds, and then ruthlessly pour salt on them, causing unbearable pain until you’re happy? Everyone must bear the responsibility for their actions. Since I chose this path, I shouldn’t regret it, because once it’s chosen, there’s no room for regret. That’s life. No matter what qualifications you have, you can only follow this path for your whole life, even if you initially chose the wrong path, even if it’s agonising and joyless. But what can you do? You have no choice but to keep going. It was you who dragged into the civil affairs bureau that day, forcing to sign the divorce papers. It was you who resolutely didn’t want , you who rcilessly abandoned your wife. Now, you shouldn’t co back saying that I’m abandoning you; doesn’t that an you’re confusing right and wrong?"
"So what’s been bothering you all along is that I pulled you into the civil affairs bureau to sign the divorce papers. I know the incident struck you hard, but didn’t you blow your top too? I cared about you so much that I couldn’t tolerate any lies from you. Even if I could accept your lies, I couldn’t accept that my own wife would gamble with her health. It was because I cared about you that I did what I did. I wished you would earnestly plead with at that ti and promise never to lie again. But you said what you said then. You surely haven’t forgotten every word you said to . Sotis the heart is stubborn, yearning not to be abandoned by loved ones. I desired so much for you to stay with . Don’t you see how much I’ve given up to be with you, to think that ans nothing to you? The ti I spent with you is the happiest ti of my life. I know I shouldn’t place all the bla on you. It was my fault. Why didn’t I have the courage to stand up and take responsibility for my own mistakes? I’m afraid, too. I fear that my own family will kick out again. That’s why I was so selfish. Your leaving for good would be the greatest punishnt to , isn’t it? After so many years, we should be reconciling by now!"
"You’re afraid your family will kick you out, but have you ever thought about how your actions could get kicked out by your family? You admit that you’re selfish in your actions. So why should I reconcile with you, only to let you hurt again? Don’t you understand that will only cause imnse pain? How much I cared about continuing to live with you. But have you ever treated like family with your decisions? I’ve shown you forgiveness and tolerance ti and ti again for all your faults, but what about you? This is how you treat , pushing the bla for your own mistakes onto to make your family think it’s my fault they should kick out. Now you’re satisfied. We can never go back. You can peacefully return ho! Why bother coming to ti and ti again, only causing pain?"
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