Now, everyone is about to unravel the mystery deep in their heart, the mark deeply embedded within themselves. Yet, I still haven’t, and what I’m faced with now is that the person I’ve been waiting for still hasn’t woken up. For everyone present, there’s a sense of loss in their hearts, how I wish that everyone could stand here together, that everyone could return ho and gather as one. That’s what a big family should have, what is this situation now? I clearly know what kind of life I want, but no matter what, I simply can’t keep her by my side. What harm does this do to ?
A week later, after a week of antibiotic treatnt, Zhang Zhentian’s condition had slowly improved. This was a reason for joy and pride for everyone.
Xia Jing has almost completely recovered now, and all he wants is to be clean. To have his husband wake up would be enough for him, he has completely co to terms with his situation, feeling that it’s better to cherish the present than to dwell on the past. He had buried his heart ti and ti again, unwilling to open up to anyone because doing so always resulted in pain.
But this ti, she truly intended to open her heart again.
She owed her husband so much; if she remained as closed off as before, what then would be the point of her existence in this world? What could she offer her husband if not repeated hurt? She couldn’t bear to let her loved ones suffer any harm; she would rather endure all the pain herself, have all sins descend upon her than see the ones she loves in her heart suffer.
In Xia Jing’s heart, what he desires is no longer important, he only wants his family to be safe, his husband to return to his heart. He doesn’t want to keep hurting others over and over because of himself. He doesn’t want those he loves most and those who love him to keep suffering unfair treatnt because of him, nor does he want them to argue fiercely over and over because of himself.
When his husband and father argued, he wasn’t absent. He saw them fight fiercely ti and ti again, and it never made him happy. Yet, he found it difficult to intervene!
He knew everything his husband did was for him. Because of this, he felt remorseful. The life he desired wasn’t like this; he just wanted his husband to be safe and happy. But in the end, he still caused him such harm; it was all his own doing. How great it would be if the person lying there now were himself, so he wouldn’t have to bear the pain of missing soone.
Xia Jing now feels that if ti could truly turn back, he would never choose such an ending, no matter what. He would choose to stay faithfully by his husband’s side, giving him the warst heart. He only wants his husband to be happy every day, not to suffer from the blows dealt by others or bear hurts that he didn’t deserve.
"Did I do wrong? Why does no one ever understand in everything I do? Is my journey to this day really as easy as they all imagine? Has no one ever considered what kind of tornt lies deep within ? I too wish to live happily, not like a hedgehog!"
You are all my family, and in my heart, I hold you all very dear. I hope to always have the companionship of my loved ones, the most blissful feeling in my life. No one wants to end up like this; do you know how much I yearn for you to be by my side forever, never to leave ? But that’s all just my imagination, no one can live in this world forever without disappearing!
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