’Don’t bla for being selfish...’
Jiangg Yao thought to herself, her own heart filled with bitterness.
Ti and again, she had made her firm choices, and Jiangg Yao had never regretted them, because she knew her own heart.
For Chen Yuan, she had put in countless efforts. Now, to have him all to herself, she was willing to be just as unscrupulous.
Love has always been a selfish thing. Those cliché scenes of selfless yielding in movies would never happen to her.
Jiangg Yao wanted all of Chen Yuan; she wouldn’t give up even a single sliver to anyone else.
"Why did you hide this from ... You could have told from the very beginning."
"Tell you? Even after you found out I had a connection with Chen Yuan, didn’t you still accuse of treating love like a ga? In your eyes, only your own love isn’t so childish ga. But if you were really serious about this relationship, would you have insisted on breaking up back then?"
Jiangg Yao left no room for retreat. Her words were like a sharp sword.
They plunged straight into her sister’s heart, causing her to break down completely.
Large teardrops, like pearls from a broken string, stread from Jiangg Ning’s eyes. They uncontrollably spread across her entire face, quickly soaking the collar of her shirt as the corners of her mouth turned down...
Her voice began to choke up.
"So..."
"So, sister, that makes *you* the one who ca later. Understand?" Jiangg Yao added softly, delivering the final blow.
The next second.
BANG—
Jiangg Ning turned and stord out of the room, slamming the study door with a deafening crash. The force of the slam even sent a gust of wind rushing out, blowing against her sister’s face.
An indescribable feeling suddenly welled up in Jiangg Yao’s heart.
She knew all too well that with things having co to this, she had won a complete victory.
Her sister had been utterly routed, stripped of even the most basic ability to fight back. She figured that in a little while, after her sister had vented her emotions and started to think clearly...
...she would... probably give up.
The corners of Jiangg Yao’s mouth curved into a faint smile, and she sighed.
She couldn’t be blad for her cruelty. The only one to bla was her sister for her hesitant, indecisive attitude in love. Soone who wasn’t resolute didn’t deserve true love.
’Crying is useless now. What were you doing before?’
She picked up her phone without a hint of hesitation and called Chen Yuan back. ’Ti to discuss our happy travel plans, right? We still don’t know where we’re going to see the sea!’
Hee hee!
...
「In the study on the other side.」
Jiangg Ning was slumped on the beanbag chair, her hands covering her face. Tears seeped through the gaps between her fingers, sliding down endlessly.
Even the front of her shirt was soaked.
Everything had been too absurd, too sudden. She couldn’t control her emotions at all.
The words she herself had spoken echoed endlessly in her mind.
"There’s a certain order to things, isn’t there? First co, first served. I won’t deny or presu whose feelings are more serious—there’s no point in discussing that. But the decision to get back together was mine. To put it bluntly, what you’re doing is called poaching. Don’t you get it?"
Just a few minutes after she’d said those words, she had been proven devastatingly wrong...
Recalling them now, she felt an imnse sense of sha, her face flushing bright red.
’So, I was the clown all along???’
The more self-righteous she had sounded saying those words, the more mortified Jiangg Ning felt now. Compared to Jiangg Yao, it seed she had been completely and utterly wrong from the very beginning.
What right did she have to lecture her sister!
Was it her hesitation and indecisiveness after the breakup, her pretense of being cool with it only to change her mind?
Or was it her deliberate aloofness, keeping her distance, refusing to admit how desperately she longed for a happy relationship with Chen Yuan?
In terms of courage, she had lost.
In terms of decisiveness, she had also lost.
What she found most suffocating was what Jiangg Yao had said: "Chen Yuan just mistook you for ." The destructive power of that sentence was imnse.
’Is that... really how it is?’
Through her blurry, tear-filled eyes, Jiangg Ning kept pulling tissues to wipe her tears as she recalled the series of events that had happened with Chen Yuan at school.
It all seed to make sense now.
’So after all this ti!’
’I was the one doing the poaching!’
Jiangg Ning couldn’t accept it at all. The proper views on love she had always believed in had crumbled. She had always thought of herself as innocent and pure, soone with ideals and principles.
But it was precisely those principles that now made her feel incredibly guilty.
With a mix of emotions swirling inside her, a visible sadness erged on Jiangg Ning’s delicate face. She cried her heart out, and before long, the trash can was already full of crumpled tissues.
「Outside the study.」
Having finished her call, Jiangg Yao stood at the doorway. She didn’t open the door.
She just listened quietly to the crying from within.
As twin sisters, they could, under special circumstances, actually feel each other’s emotions.
Jiangg Yao pressed her lips together tightly. There was a trace of pity, but in the end, she still didn’t open the door to comfort her. ’Right now, what my sister needs most is probably to be alone.’
...
...
It was already late at night.
It was just past midnight. Jiangg Yao had finished her shower and skincare routine, feeling exceptionally refreshed. She was just short of humming a tune to celebrate her victory.
In the study, Jiangg Ning’s sobbing had subsided, and she had cald down a little.
Her eyes were red and swollen, and they’d lost their light. She stared blankly into space for a long ti, lost in a daze.
Suddenly, she snapped out of it and noticed how late it was.
Jiangg Ning silently picked up the crumpled tissues scattered all over the floor, throwing them into the trash can one by one. After cleaning up, she tucked the hair at her temples.
No matter how sad she was, she eventually had to face this reality.
Rationality returned to her mind. Although Jiangg Ning desperately wanted to run away from it all, she knew that avoidance would lead to nothing.
Just as she had said, there is an order to things.
She knew she liked Chen Yuan very much, but her sister also liked him very much. From the very beginning, the whole situation had been fundantally wrong.
Even if it was just an online relationship, it shouldn’t have been treated like a ga with two people playing the sa role. After eting in person, the decision to break up had also been a mistake. She had mistakenly believed she had thought it through clearly.
In reality, she hadn’t.
Her sister had made a braver choice, getting together with Chen Yuan. It was obvious they liked each other.
’If I hadn’t chosen to break up back then, at least I would have the right to compete fairly now...’
But there were no ’if’s. She had made the wrong choice and lost her chance.
Outside, the night grew deeper.
Jiangg Ning thought for a long ti, then finally opened the study door. She walked into the bathroom and splashed cool, clear water on her face... She took off her clothes and wrapped herself in a bath towel.
She let the hot, steamy water cascade down from her head, sliding over her pale skin to her feet.
「A few minutes later.」
Jiangg Yao, sleeping drowsily in her bedroom, suddenly felt a weight on the bed beside her. She opened her bleary eyes and saw the silhouette of her sister in the dim darkness.
Before she had a chance to speak.
"I’m sorry..."
The low apology reached her ears.
Then, Jiangg Ning hugged her tightly. She could feel the force of the embrace... She didn’t know how long it had been since her sister had held her like this.
"Sis?" Jiangg Yao murmured, still half-asleep.
"I’ve thought it through. You two should be together. I’ll go back to Mingzhu City after a while..." Jiangg Ning’s voice seed to have a light quality of relief and was exceptionally gentle. "Chen Yuan is a great guy. You two will be very happy, won’t you..."
"We will be."
"I wish you the best, Yaoyao..."
She gently ruffled Jiangg Yao’s hair, tucked in the blanket out of habit, and lay down on the soft bed. Both sisters felt a sense of warmth.
"Enjoy this love to the fullest."
Jiangg Yao listened in silence, burying her head in her sister’s chest. She snuggled in a little, and the corners of her mouth curved into a smile.
...
「The next day.」
In the morning, in the Vice Principal’s office, Jiangg Ning sat upright in a chair. Her face was lightly powdered, hiding any trace of the previous night’s tears.
"Resign?"
Vice Principal Zhang adjusted his glasses, a hint of confusion on his face. "Why the sudden resignation?"
"Yes... Principal, I’ve been very happy teaching here, but so things have co up at ho, and I need to return to Mingzhu City to continue my career. I’ve grown a lot in these past two years, and Landa University has taught a great deal. I feel it’s ti for to go back."
"This is a very sudden decision, isn’t it?"
"Not at all. I’ve actually been planning this for so ti. I wrote this letter of resignation a while ago."
"Well, all right then. It’s truly a loss for Landa University to no longer have a teacher as outstanding as you, Jiangg. However, I respect your personal decision."
"Thank you for your understanding, Principal."
"Finish up your work for this period, complete the handover, and I’ll submit the report for approval."
"Okay."
Jiangg Ning nodded, stood up, and gave a slight bow.
Only then did she walk out of the Vice Principal’s office.
She didn’t stay at the school. After arranging the specific matters, she drove away from the Landa University campus.
She needed to rest properly.
Jiangg Ning might have looked relaxed on the surface, but only she knew how long it would take for this wound to truly heal...
She could only hope that after finishing her work and returning to Mingzhu City, leaving Lanjing behind, she might be able to quickly forget Chen Yuan.
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