"Is it that serious?" He wiped a tear from the corner of Jiangg Yao's eye with his palm.
'Is a woman's competitive streak this strange? It would be one thing if she were comparing herself to other girls, but now she won't even spare herself? By that logic, couldn't she compare her own two legs and get jealous? If he said he liked her left leg, would that an he could never touch her right leg again? Taken to an extre, would she start comparing single strands of hair?'
Chen Yuan couldn't imagine how terrifying that would be.
'They're different personalities, but at the end of the day, they're still one person.'
Chen Yuan just couldn't understand this kind of behavior.
He thought about it carefully. Based on Ningning and Yaoyao's behavior, it was true that they never considered each other to be the sa person. So even though they shared the sa body, they had to be separated from each other in every respect.
This had nothing to do with being jealous or not. Even Ningning, who wasn't the jealous type, was like this.
She hated it when he called her by the wrong na when they were together.
If they had been laughing and talking, the mont he slipped up and called her by the wrong na, her face would instantly darken, and she would ask, "What did you just call ?"
Whenever this happened, Chen Yuan would belatedly realize he'd made a mistake.
Yaoyao and Ningning were identical in their reactions to this.
He'd made similar mistakes many tis, but Chen Yuan felt it wasn't his fault at all. How could he possibly tell them apart so clearly? Sotis he'd wake up from a nap to find that the Ningning and Yaoyao personalities had switched. He would, of course, call out the na of the one who was with him before he fell asleep, and as soon as he did, the person beside him would ask, "What did you just call ?"
His drowsiness would instantly vanish...
Now, Chen Yuan had gotten smarter. He'd first confirm who it was, then call her nickna.
It was easy enough to distinguish them. Their smiles alone were different. Yaoyao would give him a radiant smile, while Ningning would offer a faint one.
But there were tis when they didn't smile, so it wasn't always so easy to tell them apart.
'Maybe I should co up with a way to tell, like a secret code or sothing... Though it would be a bit of a hassle.'
The more Chen Yuan thought about it, the more his head ached!
'I should just focus on getting this illness cured. Then we can be like a normal couple.'
'Otherwise, things will always feel a little strange.'
...
Since Jiangg Yao had brought it up herself, he decided to take the opportunity to ask.
"Have you been taking your dicine regularly? What did the doctor say?" Chen Yuan asked cautiously.
"Of course I have. And I've been feeling much better ntally lately. Maybe in another month or so, I can be fully cured."
"Really???"
"Would I lie to you about this? Why would I do that?" Jiangg Yao cupped her chin, her gaze drifting away.
"That's wonderful! Then I won't have to worry so much... But don't put too much pressure on yourself, Yaoyao. You have to follow the doctor's orders. You didn't want to supervise you taking your dicine before, so you have to be disciplined about following the doctor's advice yourself."
Chen Yuan couldn't hold back his happiness, and his tone beca much more cheerful.
This dissociative identity disorder... to say it was a big problem wasn't entirely true. For now, it didn't affect their lives too much; in fact, it even provided a lot of amusent. But to say it was a small problem was wrong. Any ntal health issue could never be small and had to be taken seriously.
It was a ticking ti bomb. If it wasn't cured, it could drop a devastating bombshell on their peaceful life one day.
Seeing the smile Chen Yuan couldn't suppress, Jiangg Yao couldn't bring herself to smile back. A flicker of well-hidden sorrow passed through her eyes.
She forced a smile, her expression stiff.
'Good news?'
'Maybe it's not that good at all.'
The day her illness was cured would also be the day she and Ningning had to decide who would stay and who would go. In the end, only one of them would remain.
She had already made up her mind. If she wasn't the one to stay, she would travel far away to Neon and never return.
She didn't know what Ningning planned to do, but she guessed it was probably the sa idea—the other one would disappear forever.
Jiangg Yao didn't know if her "older sister" was afraid, but she was terrified that Chen Yuan wouldn't choose her in the end. How could she possibly face that reality? She would probably cry until the world went dark, cry herself to death. Leaving this place to live alone in a strange land sounded liberating in theory, but every step away from Lanjing would be agonizing, wouldn't it?
It's so hard to et a soulmate in life, not to ntion how sweet and happy these past few days have been.
The world is full of such poignant, tragic love stories. At any given mont, countless people are experiencing separation. But when faced with such specific pain, for everyone who is truly in love, the feeling is nothing less than gut-wrenching.
Jiangg Yao would gladly live an utterly ordinary life with Chen Yuan. They could lose everything, as long as Chen Yuan didn't lose her.
For a girl, a love like this was the pursuit of a lifeti.
And she had never given her heart to anyone else.
Jiangg Yao was starting to lose her composure. She desperately wanted to know if she had won against Ningning in the Heartbeat Diary. Or rather, she wanted to ask right now: between Ningning and Yaoyao, who would Chen Yuan choose?
Lately, whenever she closed her eyes, these thoughts would consu her. As the day drew nearer, she felt her nerves stretching taut.
"I will definitely get better. And when that ti cos, even if I'm not the one who stays, you have to be happy, okay... my young master."
Jiangg Yao gave a faint, sorrowful smile.
"What?"
Chen Yuan didn't understand what she ant. Why was she being so sentintal?
"What do you an, 'the one who stays'?" he asked again.
"After the illness is cured, only one of us will be left— or Ningning. No matter who it is, I want you to be happy... Always be happy. It would be best if you forgot ."
Jiangg Yao bit her lip. Unexpectedly, she didn't secretly signal for Chen Yuan to choose her.
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