Ah Bai has changed.
And the fact that she didn’t change because of reassures Zhu Pingniang, yet there is also an indescribable sense of loss, a feeling as if a treasure belonging solely to her has been quietly taken away by soone else, leaving her heart feeling empty.
Zhu Pingniang sighed softly.
At this mont, she realized the goodness of Xu Chang’an.
Thankfully it was Chang’an, thankfully it was Chang’an.
Thankfully Chang’an already has a wife, thankfully Chang’an and Yun Qian are deeply in love.
Otherwise, if it were any other man who could make Li Zhibai change for him, Zhu Pingniang truly doesn’t know if she could control her jealousy, and what she might do with such jealousy... she doesn’t dare to imagine.
Zhu Pingniang covered her face with one hand.
Assumption.
Assu Chang’an was a single young man, and he really captured Li Zhibai’s heart, or didn’t even need to capture it, just made Li Zhibai care enough to change herself, ignoring the reasons in sothing, simply because "he would be unhappy, he wouldn’t like it," and for the person who moved Li Zhibai’s heart, Zhu Pingniang herself didn’t dislike him, might even occasionally feel moved.
What would happen next?
With the current character of Zhu Tongjun, what could she possibly do?
Thinking of this, Zhu Pingniang’s ears flushed with a tint of red.
No way, the answer she had was just too obvious, so obvious that it didn’t need any thought—being dominated by the most despicable jealousy of a woman, she would snatch Xu Chang’an before Li Zhibai.
This is the answer given by Zhu Pingniang, and it’s the only answer.
After realizing this, Zhu Pingniang was left with nothing but sha and relief.
No way, it really is like that.
If Chang’an really were single, and Li Zhibai really was moved by him, then Zhu Pingniang would definitely take the initiative... since she has already lost, she would use her own experience to find out what makes Chang’an so special that Li Zhibai likes him.
Just like how Zhu Pingniang has many dowries.
She herself was Li Zhibai’s dowry.
Rather, if she could beco sisters with Ah Bai through a man, she would only be happy; as for serving the sa husband... that’s completely fine, although Zhu Tongjun is essentially a crazy woman, as long as the main wife is Li Zhibai, she would obediently listen to her husband, and even... she would support Li Zhibai in managing any concubines that co after.
This is where she, as a woman, is cheap.
Simply put, it’s like buying Li Zhibai and getting Zhu Pingniang for free.
Of course, it’s just said to be cheap, ultimately because capturing Li Zhibai’s heart is too difficult, and she’s confident that if a man could make Li Zhibai like him, she would certainly like him too.
"Thankfully... thankfully he’s a student." Zhu Pingniang blushed.
Thankfully Chang’an is a student, otherwise... the mont she discovered Li Zhibai’s feelings, she would have started planning to ’seduce Xu Chang’an.’
For the pure-hearted Zhu Tongjun, who has no Taoist partner till now, to go and seduce a man would be quite difficult.
But a student, that’s fine.
Even though she would follow Li Zhibai’s lead, if Li Zhibai considered herself as the mother—this has nothing to do with Zhu Tongjun, she would not see herself as Xu Chang’an’s "Second Lady" just like Li Zhibai does.
After all, Zhu Tongjun hasn’t even been married yet, where would such a big son like Chang’an co from?
At most, she would truly see Xu Chang’an as a younger brother.
As for the fact that this would make her rank drop to sothing like Li Zhibai’s daughter... Zhu Pingniang doesn’t mind.
Anyway, family ranks among won are already a ss, what’s said is said, besides, being Ah Bai’s daughter isn’t bad, her daughters have always had a tradition of defying superiors, if she beca Li Zhibai’s daughter, then overthrowing her... would even feel a strange, rightful destiny.
Zhu Pingniang: "..."
Zhu Pingniang sat silently among a group of girls, her face burning hot, covering it with one hand.
The usually talkative Zhu Pingniang suddenly went quiet, so this mont seed strange.
But in reality, Zhu Pingniang was not only silent but also increasingly flushed in the face.
Because people cannot deceive themselves, especially a female cultivator like her who has seen into her own heart... therefore, Zhu Pingniang knew one thing clearly.
Is she really relieved that Xu Chang’an already has a wife?
Is she really relieved... that Li Zhibai considers herself Chang’an’s mother?
Maybe so... but what about that irrepressible sense of regret in her heart?
Even if it’s just a tiny bit of regret, Zhu Pingniang still captured it.
What is she regretting?
What is there to regret?
Could it be, she regrets not being able to marry the sa young man with Ah Bai?
As soon as this thought arose, the guilt and sha in her heart burned like a raging fire, scorching her spirit and conscience as a woman... making her unable to speak for a long ti.
She even said Qingluo was hopeless, but feeling even a shred of regret, does she live up to Ah Bai’s teaching, does she live up to Yun Qian and Chang’an’s trust?
She is simply the world’s most wretched sister... no, being moved by a brother has left her with no qualification to call herself Chang’an’s sister.
It seems she will have to seclude herself for so ti, to thoroughly wash away a heart tainted by the brothel that doesn’t know satisfaction.
Covering her burning face, Zhu Pingniang lowered her head in silence.
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