"I know this is enough." Yun Qian said contentedly, "I only care about this, the rest... I’ll listen to you."
"I must have saved the world in my past life to et a girl like you." Xu Chang’an covered his face.
"Can’t say that’s not true."
"...Tsk."
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At this mont, the small boat drifted to the center of the lake, stopping at a calm water spot, away from others boating on the lake. Xu Chang’an put away the oars and sat down by the steps beside Yun Qian.
"There are so things I can only feel at ease after saying them out loud. I hope you don’t mind ruining the atmosphere tonight." Xu Chang’an apologized.
"Is there? I think the atmosphere is quite nice." Yun Qian leaned against him and asked, "What puts you at ease?"
"If I’m really useless and can’t find a way for you to cultivate... then you wouldn’t be an ordinary, mundane person either." Xu Chang’an said seriously, "Knowing this, I can feel at ease."
He could refrain from probing into Yun Qian’s past, but he did not wish for her life to be ordinary and colorless.
"I don’t understand your thoughts." Yun Qian stretched lazily.
"Let say sothing unambitious." Xu Chang’an brushed his sleeve, looking at the nightscape of Celestial Bright Peak, and said helplessly, "Knowing this, even if in the future I’m useless or not around... never mind, I won’t say it."
Xu Chang’an wanted to say that even if he couldn’t be useful in the future or was not by Yun Qian’s side for various reasons, it wouldn’t matter; she wouldn’t be in danger and would still be protected.
Having this psychological reassurance is like buying insurance, indeed bringing a sense of ease.
"...If you don’t want to say it, I won’t ask." Yun Qian said calmly.
After putting so thoughts out in the open, Xu Chang’an still knew nothing about Miss Yun’s past, but the knot in his heart had loosened considerably.
He looked at the bright moon in the sky, seeing a layer of sothing akin to faint clouds or Spiritual Qi shrouding the moon, mysterious and beautiful.
"Miss, do you know the beauty of haziness?" Xu Chang’an shook his head, "It’s the not seeing clearly that adds an enchanting beauty."
Like mist enveloping the cold water and moonlight casting over the sand, that’s how it is.
"Such a moon is beautiful." Xu Chang’an said.
Upon hearing this, Yun Qian tugged on her own pale yellow wool skirt and said, "I know, which is why you bought those semi-transparent clothes for , but I’ve only worn them a few tis. If you like, I can use them as pajamas."
"..." Xu Chang’an twitched at the corner of his eyes, "I intend to talk about sothing more serious, more solemn."
"Making you like it is also very serious and solemn." Yun Qian said earnestly.
"The clothes were chosen by the girls at Piluo Residence, not by ."
"You like them, so their taste isn’t bad." Seeing Xu Chang’an’s increasingly peculiar expression, Yun Qian quickly said, "So, what serious topic were you going to discuss?"
"I was initially thinking, without knowing Miss’s secrets, this mystery would make speculate about the forces behind you." Xu Chang’an sighed, "But now, it doesn’t feel that way anymore."
Miss Yun’s lack of ambition really made it hard for him to connect her current self with the impression he had at first sight.
The cabin remained empty, yet the young couple sat at the stern of the boat. As the boat swayed, Xu Chang’an looked up at the starry sky.
"No feelings? Are you saying you’ve lost feelings for ?" Yun Qian sat upright.
"Of course not." Xu Chang’an felt helpless at Miss Yun’s thought process. He gazed at the bright moon and scattered stars in the sky and said, "Does Miss know... what my thoughts were when I first t you?"
"I don’t know." Yun Qian thought to herself that when she first t Xu Chang’an, she was so nervous there was no ti to consider his thoughts.
"It was like seeing the moon and stars." Xu Chang’an leaned back, gazing at the starry sky, murmuring, "But not on an ordinary night; it should be more distant, more stunning, like feeling small beneath a vast galaxy."
"So when you were saying the moon was beautiful, you were not really talking about the moon, but about ." Yun Qian realized.
"Sort of." Xu Chang’an looked at the silly girl in front of him, sighing softly.
Miss Yun wasn’t foolish, but wearing that pale yellow little skirt, she couldn’t help but exude a youthful vibe.
"How could I be like the moon and stars? Now you can’t reach the stars, but you can touch ." Yun Qian said curiously.
"When I opened my eyes and saw Miss for the first ti, it was at night." Xu Chang’an closed his eyes, as if hearing the sea breeze across his face and the roar of the tide, recalling the woman in a long black dress standing on the rocks.
She turned back to look at him, with endless nightscape behind her.
Just looking at her was akin to the childhood wonder of gazing at the boundless starry sky, a mixture of amazent and fear of the vast Star Sea.
Scenes like this, he thought, are unforgettable in this lifeti and the next.
Xu Chang’an opened his eyes again, looking at Miss Yun who clung to him now, and said seriously, "I once thought... finding Miss both terrifying and unfamiliar was because I didn’t know you well enough. Now I see the real you."
"And then?" Yun Qian tilted her head.
"Now reconsidering your mystery." Xu Chang’an’s eyes trembled, yet he remained deeply earnest, "Perhaps... the first ti I saw you was your true appearance."
Xu Chang’an had been contemplating this for a long ti.
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