Hao Ren finished trying to see where this Split Mirror Window would lead him to, and unsure if that place was really the Eternal battlefield ntioned by Zhao Kang, he decided to find the man himself and ask him for clues.
He walked through the palace, and found Ye Si, who looked at his worried face and asked, "What happened, big brother?"
Hao Ren sighed and replied, "What can happen? I have co to a stand still on sothing that I cannot control."
Ye Si sighed as she looked at him, and asked, "Why bother then? If you cannot control it, then move on with yourself."
Hao Ren nodded and then he talked with Ye Si for a few minutes before he decided to take a walk outside in the city. He was strong enough to hide himself and unless he revealed himself, they would not notice him even if he stood beside them.
As he walked through the city, he spotted many people, who were walking hand in hand and displaying their affection with their gazes. Sothing inside him began to palpitate. Hao Ren didn’t know why these thoughts ca to him, but they did, and he was rather restless by these sudden thoughts that popped up on him.
The young man took a deep breath but the palpitation inside his heart didn’t calm down at all. His heartbeat began to rise, and his aura began to fall into chaotic state when the system said, *What is going on in that head of yours? Do you want to destroy the entire continent? Get away from the city first.*
Only now Hao Ren realized that the people in the city were suffering from suffocation. He vanished from his spot and then appeared outside the city. He sat down on a boulder and said, ’You think Lingshi really loves ?"
*What the fuck is wrong with you?*
Hao Ren sighed and replied, "I think it was because of you that she is with now. You drove to do things and she probably fell for that. However, when it started it was driven by the thirst to grow stronger and richer. For her, I was probably just an escape from the family politics.
However, now looking back at it all feels like this was all just a simple ’get used to each other’ phenona. I fear that she never had a choice. Maybe I don’t really love her. We never had what the other people had. I never choose her for ."
*What the fuck are you talking about? You an to say that you regret getting married to Han Lingshi? Fuck you.*
Leo shook his head, the young man took a deep breath and replied, "Do you know who I loved? The girl from my college, her na was Gwen Hind, and I loved her, but I had nothing in my hands that made feel confident enough to chase her. I loved her for three years, before I realized that it would not pan out and I would be the one getting hurt.
I t Lingshi when I had already given up on my desires and wishes. Whom did she love? How could it be that she never loved anyone? I never thought about it, never asked, but even if I did, would I have been able to change things?"
*Listen to what I am about to say and listen carefully. You feel that you never got the chance to choose whom to love and Han Lingshi is the sa. I will not quote that it happened because you were weak and the world is governed by the strong. However, let tell you how this ’Love’ works.
You t her, and you were smitten by her, that is the first stage, called attraction. You made an effort and she reciprocated, that is the second stage, called mutual persuasion. Then you did your best, in the areas where you were weak and you showed her how you wish to go the extra mile for her acknowledgnt, that is stage three, called Improvisation. Then, when the ti ca for you to falter and spiral in emotional turmoil, she stood there beside you, defended you, and that is called Reciprocation, the fourth stage.
You both reached a place in your marriage where you could not live apart from each other, that is the consummation, followed by it, you beca friends, and then soul mates. Do you think Han Lingshi never had any such complaints? She was simply putting things away because she made her peace with it. She understood that even if she could not find the love that she seeks, she would make do with what she has. That is why your relationship is still so strong, even with how far you both stay at tis.
You are not special, but you are not unwanted either. You did what you did for the sake of strength initially, but didn’t you fall for her? Hao Ren, today you doubted yourself because you felt that you didn’t get anything that you wanted and it was all imposed on you, however, fate is just like that. It would not bring you what you want, but what you need.
So, calm down, embrace what you have, don’t think what it would have been like? That is what losers do. Yeah, so what if your desires didn’t co true? Now you ought to pick up what you have and then get going. That is how you beco the winner in life. You cannot even control your own breathing to stop completely if you want to live, how can you control the grand play of life itself? Don’t appear to be ungrateful.*
Hao Ren sighed and looked at the horizon before he said, "I guess, what you said did make so sense. I should not be acting like this. Lingshi is truly the only person I love. I made a commitnt to her, and I ought to keep it like that."
*Good, now please calm down and fuck back to the palace, you need to attend to your kids as well.*
The young man took a deep breath and replied, "Yeah, you do have a point."
Hao Ren took a few seconds to calm down before he sat up and then went back to the palace. He spotted Han Lingshi in the bedroom, and she was adjusting her clothes, seemingly she had just finished feeding the kids, he approached her and gazed at her for a few monts, before he took the children and rocked them so that they could burp.
He was a strong cultivator, but he didn’t use spiritual energy on the children as they were very delicate and one minor mistake could cause the children to suffer. Han Lingshi saw the gaze her husband had earlier and sensed her heart flutter. She raised her brows, it had been a long ti since she had felt like this.
While lost in her thought, she t with Maya Okudera, who was now married to Ye Kang. Ever since they married, the two people had been living happily. Maya saw Han Lingshi appearing to be dazed and asked, "What happened?"
Han Lingshi looked at Maya and said, "I just found that Ren’s gaze has beco more tender when he looked at earlier. Why is that so?"
Maya pondered for a bit and said, "Could be because you have kids now?"
Han Lingshi shook her head and replied, "No, that is not it. Ren has never been the one to have his feelings effected by reasons apart from self realization. What could have he realized to change his gaze like this. It gave a fluttery feeling just now. As if I am so teenage struck by puppy love."
Maya Okudera smiled and replied, "Indeed, it is true. I have never seen you blushing so much."
Han Lingshi shook her head and rolled her eyes as she said, "Shut it, we have a lot of work to do with these people."
...
Hao Ren finished coaxing the two children and then he found Hao i coming over to tease her nephew and niece. However, Yanling acted like an aloof cat and she turned her head away. Hao i sighed and replied, "This little one keeps playing when I am standing afar from her but then as soon as I touch her, she starts crying."
Hao Ren smiled and replied, "She is very sensitive to the cold qi, and thus gets easily irritated. In the future, she would be better."
Hao i nodded as she knew this. Hao Ren thought for a bit and said, "I need to go out for a bit."
Just when he was about to go and find Han Lingshi, Yanling cuddled closer to him, as if she sensed that he was about to leave. Hao Ren chuckled and then said, "Big sis, I want to go out, and handle so chores."
Hao i nodded but then asked, "You are taking Yanling with you?"
Hao Ren nodded and said, "Look at her, I will go and co back in just a bit."
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