The boy turned and said earnestly, “In other words, he’d been there since I left the house in the morning. When I returned to this body, it was after school in the evening. The memory of what happened in between was no longer there. My memory was of the morning, then in the blink of an eye, it was evening. I had no idea what had happened in between.”
And then…
“Then I’d feel very tired, pletely exhausted, and I’d want to sleep. Sometimes, when there is a personality swap, my heart would follow the overload. I’d feel awful…”
Little Yichen suddenly shuddered. Just imagining this scene was scary. Forgetting one’s memories was the worst thing.
One of the reasons people are superior to other animals is because of the position of their memories. Whether it’s reading or working, memory is integral.
Like a loyal dog, even if its master had abused it, it will mostly forget this memory.
But people don’t. People will always remember. It’s etched into the depth of their minds. When one’s memory goes missing, one can’t do anything right. Besides, it will be especially painful. When there’s a personality swap, the memories don’t interconnect. Then, life too, bees fragmented and especially painful.
It was no wonder Alice had said that the boy’s body simply couldn’t handle two personalities. Because the constant swapping of two personalities was an extremely painful thing in itself.
Youyou took a deep breath and said faintly, “By the time I discovered that such memory fragments were caused by the swapping of my personalities, I was no longer able to suppress that situation. In fact, if treatment had been available at that time, perhaps it would not have been so serious. Perhaps it was also because I was constantly suppressing him that…”
He felt a headache ing on.
“He seems very rebellious. The more I try to control him, the more rebellious and perverse he is. He wants to take control of me, and even thinks that he is the first personality.”
Little Yichen said, “Actually, I used to think you were scary. Because you were like a little angel in Mommy’s presence, but with me, you were so cold and strange and sharp-tongued. But when I think about it, you weren’t really you back then. It was just the other Youyou manifesting himself. But he didn’t hurt anyone. Where Li Qin or Yun Na are concerned, I’d have dealt with them too, if I were you. Except maybe… his methods were more extreme, but that doesn’t mean he was evil.”
Youyou nodded and replied, “Well, now I’m relieved. And I don’t think ‘he’ is evil.”
Little Yichen suddenly said, “Do you believe in telepathy between twins, Youyou?”
That suggestion surprised the boy. “You seem to have mentioned that to me before.”
“Uh huh. Before I met you, I didn’t know you existed, but I’d often dream of you. In my dreams, I’d put myself in your shoes. I thought it was a little incredible, but the scenes were so real that it was almost unbelievable.”
“There are many things in this world that cannot be explained with the science we know.”
Little Yichen smiled. “Uh huh. I kept dreaming about you, and I mentioned it to Daddy. Only, he didn’t really believe it, because, back then, he didn’t know you were alive.”
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