At a certain mont, Xianchan looked up towards the horizon, a hint of "Xianchan style" contemplation appeared in his pupils, and then he turned and left.
Xue Ya stepped onto the Dao Platform, landing beside Fan Wubing without disturbing the tranquility of the night.
Looking at the man curled up on the ground, a trace of heartache flashed through her eyes. She bent down and took the man away.
...
When Fan Wubing opened his eyes, he saw a pair of plump, rounded Beauty Peaks. He realized he was lying in a woman’s embrace. The scent on the woman was pleasant, making him feel secure and relaxed.
He sat up, looked around, and saw it was all ocean. The Immortal Fishing Boat in view was only as small as a peanut.
This was Xue Ya’s Dao Platform.
Xue Ya said, "I saw you seed to have fainted in the corridor of that boat. Are you in a lot of pain?"
Fan Wubing looked at Xue Ya. Her appearance had changed; not like before in her Daoist Nun guise, so free and unrestrained; she now exuded maturity and intellect, elegance and gentleness, releasing the charm of femininity to the fullest. Especially those bare feet in the moonlight, reflecting a silvery glow, with slightly taut arches and ankles highlighting veins and tendons, the vermillion nail covers made the instep white yet not greasy, having the finishing touch of beauty.
Fan Wubing averted his eyes and softly said, "Sorry for making a fool of myself."
Xue Ya chuckled lightly, "Didn’t we say earlier, that when we et again, we’d say everything we wanted to say together."
"But I don’t know what to say anymore." Fan Wubing was sowhat bewildered. Having nothing to do for the mont, he found he couldn’t even calm his mind.
Xue Ya’s voice beca gentle and slow, "Just speak out the troubles that leave you at a loss."
Fan Wubing shook his head, "It’s all bitterness. How can I pour out my woes to the Celestial Venerable Youxuan?"
"You carry burdens you cannot unload. This likely beca unbearably heavy when you lost your mother," Xue Ya touched a soft spot in Fan Wubing’s heart, "You must have many things you’d like to say to her, right?"
Fan Wubing lowered his gaze, "No matter how much I have to say, there’s no chance to say them."
"Have you noticed when you started falling into this distress?" Xue Ya asked.
Her eyes were like a tranquil moonlit lake.
Fan Wubing had turned into a wild rabbit that only dared to co out at night to drink water.
"Distress..." He recalled the past.
Xue Ya continued, "You ca to the Changsheng Continent, to this ocean, to find your senior sister. But why did she leave you? Sothing is hidden in your heart, drawing ever closer. And when you realize it, the distress cos."
Fan Wubing’s heart trembled.
He realized that he was too doctrinal, too compliant, stuck in a dead-end. Always believing that the Ying Huo devouring was a five-year affair, a negative effect brought by the Heavenly Deficient Constitution. Yet, when he beca aware that he must face the Ying Huo devouring, it was already "gnawing" on him.
How could Ying Huo devouring possibly be rely physical harm?
The will was being devastated,
emotions were being tornted.
Thus, even when facing the brink of life and death before, he had never feared facing anxiety lost self, just seeing the fiery anomaly in the sky began to make him highly anxious.
It was terrifying!
Anxiety and fear can kill,
possibly even before the true Ying Huo devouring arrives, kill oneself.
Not to ntion that in past lives many found the pressure unbearable and chose to end it, even in this Cultivation Realm where anything is possible, there is constantly soone doubting themselves, going awry, self-immolating, and ending themselves.
Blades of light swept past Fan Wubing’s back.
So, the Ying Huo devouring had long begun! It invisibly applied psychological pressure on him, just waiting for that day to arrive and instantly collapse him!
Realizing this, he slightly relaxed his brows, looking at Xue Ya with a gentle gaze, "Thank you Celestial Venerable Youxuan for your guidance."
Xue Ya smiled warmly, "You’re truly quick to understand."
She was always exuding a mature charm, like a ripe fruit, waiting to be picked.
"It’s the Celestial Venerable Youxuan who spoke what’s on my mind," Fan Wubing’s eyes held a trace of affection. He rarely, sowhat blushingly asked, "Can I... can I lie beside you?"
Xue Ya was suddenly stunned... this isn’t right. Sothing isn’t right.
"Sure."
Fan Wubing lay beside Xue Ya, inhaling the relaxing scent from her body.
He closed his eyes and softly said, "Does the Celestial Venerable Youxuan always do this?"
"Do what?"
"Being so gentle to people."
"Only to you." Xue Ya said, and seeing Fan Wubing’s expression, she repeated in her heart, this isn’t right, this isn’t right...
Fan Wubing smiled slightly with his eyes closed, "Why? We’ve just known each other for a short while."
"Ti cannot asure everything. There is sothing that transcends ti and space."
Fan Wubing opened his eyes and curiously asked, "What is it?"
The word "love" reached Xue Ya’s lips but she couldn’t say it. Seeing Fan Wubing, she saw a kind of innocence on his face, a simplicity, a most pure yearning for beauty.
"It’s... compassion." Xue Ya suddenly felt a bit dejected, "Like seeing a flower not blooming in its most beautiful form, compassion."
Fan Wubing laughed, "I feel like the Celestial Venerable Youxuan is a bit like my senior sister. Although she’s very gentle, she’s a bit naïve, unable to say such interesting things."
"Do you like your senior sister?"
"I do," Fan Wubing replied, "She treats well. I like her very much."
Such unadorned words as if really expressing Fan Wubing’s feelings for his senior sister.
Xue Ya slightly inhaled. Suddenly she realized she was mistaken... she was playing the role of a "mother plus senior sister," receiving from Fan Wubing not desire, but pure love.
This was wrong.
This wasn’t what she wanted.
Xue Ya realized she should leave him imdiately because she never intended to touch true love.
Since she entered the cultivation path, free and uninhibited, whenever she took a fancy to soone, she never held back.
If she liked, she pursued. It fitted her uninhibited, free spirit.
She never loved anyone and never let anyone love her. Because love represents bondage, it should never appear on soone cultivating the philosophy of "uninhibited spirit". She just fancied Fan Wubing, wanting to extract a respite from desire from this man.
She prepared ticulously, dressing according to his preferences.
She confidently believed she could perfectly tread on his soft spot.
She expected it to be a joyful night.
She was sure that after this night, she would still be the uninhibited Xue Youxuan, and this man would continue on his path. Then when another need arose, they would et again, finding a uniquely flavored pleasure.
But, she realized, she was wrong.
This man had no desire for her
at all!
His love was so purely terrifying, it was a projection of lost maternal love, and the sunk "senior sister-brother love"!
Xue Ya found it hard to catch her breath.
Fan Wubing asked, "What’s wrong with the Celestial Venerable Youxuan?"
Xue Ya forced a smile and asked, "What kind of woman was your mother?"
Fan Wubing said, "Very gentle, she would smile whenever she saw , always holding in her arms, just like the Celestial Venerable Youxuan does."
Xue Ya’s face suddenly paled. She wanted to escape, but seeing the lightness and beauty in Fan Wubing’s eyes... she realized that if she left, she would only add to his distress.
She had never been "loved" like this.
Fan Wubing suddenly smiled and asked, "Can I call you Sister Youxuan? It sounds so cool!"
Xue Ya wanted to refuse, but looking into Fan Wubing’s eyes, she trembled and said:
"Alright."
In a daze, she realized her Dao heart was breaking.
Her entire uninhibited spirit had vanished without a trace.
She abruptly realized,
Fan Wubing’s love for his senior sister wasn’t love; she had been fooled by him!
The terrifying part was that Fan Wubing might not even know he had fooled her.
The next day, Xue Ya returned to Wangxian Pavilion in disarray.
She ran into He Youyi, who had co to Wangxian Pavilion to find Primordial Transformation Celestial Venerable.
He Youyi looked at her with surprise, "What happened with the Celestial Venerable Youxuan?"
Xue Ya gave a wry smile, "It’s nothing."
"Did you go to find Fan Wubing?"
She remained silent.
He Youyi sighed, "You all really underestimated that child."
Xue Ya wanted to say it’s not what you think, but she couldn’t get the words out, only managing a bitter smile.
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