Shi Miaomiao walked into the dark room alone, turned on the light, and couldn’t help feeling sad. She hadn’t expected the path she’d chosen to be like this. It was fine at work, but this sense of loneliness that ca every ti she returned ho was sothing she couldn’t easily shake off. It felt like a black hole tightly gripping her, dragging her into the Abyss.
In this city, her true friends were only Xiao Yifei and Tang Rong, but now that the two were together, she felt it was inappropriate to bother them every ti. She understood such situations were normal, but every ti she was alone, she couldn’t help feeling a sense of lancholy. She had the thought of going ho more than once, questioning the purpose of her persistence in this city.
After all, apart from honing an increasingly resilient heart, she might gain nothing else. Besides, her parents only had her as a child, and they were already getting old. It had been a month since she’d last visited them, so she called her parents. There’s a saying: you think of ho when you’re tired, and you think of soone when you’re lonely. The only ones Shi Miaomiao missed now were her parents.
Her last relationship ended two years ago; they say graduation season is breakup season, and she couldn’t escape this saying. They had been together for three years, and from the beginning, she had prepared for the breakup. But when that day finally ca, the heartache kept her from sleeping every night. For the first ti, she realized how sweet it was to be together, and how painful it was after breaking up.
So, she didn’t dare to start another relationship lightly now. If there was another breakup, that feeling would be too unbearable.
"Mom, how are you guys doing lately? Have you eaten?" Shi Miaomiao asked after dialing the number.
"We’ve eaten. Your dad and I are doing especially well. When are you coming back? Cough, cough..." her mother replied, coughing a few tis.
"Mom, why are you catching a cold again? Have you taken dicine? Go to bed early tonight and cover yourself with a thick quilt," Shi Miaomiao instructed, wishing she could return ho right then upon hearing her mother’s cough.
"It’s nothing, just a slight cold. You don’t need to worry about ," her mother said.
After hanging up, Shi Miaomiao lay on the bed and cried. How useless she was; her mother was sick and she wasn’t by her side. Once again, she pondered the thought of working back ho, feeling helpless each ti she couldn’t be with her parents.
She suddenly rembered her childhood dream of finding a job that would take her around the world, hoping for a different kind of life. But now, only a few hundred kiloters from ho, she couldn’t bear the loneliness. Maybe she was just too idle; with nothing to do but work, her free ti beca dull.
Shi Miaomiao started watching Arican dramas; recently, "Vampire Diaries" had new episodes. What she envied most about the show was their Undying Body. In that way, ti seed to stand still for them, a few hundred years passing as a day, a thousand years as re monts. They didn’t need to worry about making a living and could do what they liked.
If only I were a vampire, Shi Miaomiao thought naively, then I could always be with my parents and not worry about having money.
But returning to reality, reality always hit her with a cold blow. She understood that brooding over the past wouldn’t help. However, sotis such lancholy, once it started, couldn’t be stopped. She wanted to always be happy, to be the joyful figure everyone saw.
She rembered watching the movie "Léon," when the little girl asked Leon, "Is life always this hard, or just when you’re a kid?" Leon replied, "Always this hard." Perhaps everyone had their low monts; everyone longed for ho. Thinking of this, she felt less miserable.
So she ran to the kitchen, made a bowl of fried rice with the leftover rice, and ate while watching a show. Since she couldn’t change her situation, she decided to enjoy it happily instead. After eating, Shi Miaomiao didn’t feel as bad.
They say the stomach and heart are close; when the stomach is full, the heart is less lonely and cold. So, when sad, it’s good to have sothing delicious.
After ten at night, Tang Rong and Xiao Yifei returned. As soon as they were back, the ho beca much warr, and Shi Miaomiao was no longer sad.
"Miaomiao, do you have any plans for tomorrow? If not, let’s go out and play, just the two of us," Tang Rong asked as soon as she entered.
"It’s not often that Sister Rong has ti, so of course I’ll go," Shi Miaomiao said happily, as she had planned to spend the day watching shows at ho.
Tang Rong thought that being alone in the city must be lonely for Shi Miaomiao, with no friends or family around. Ever since she and Xiao Yifei were together, she hadn’t spent much ti with Shi Miaomiao.
Even with a boyfriend, one mustn’t forget their good sisters.
At this mont, Shi Miaomiao felt that living in this city didn’t seem so unbearable. All the unhappy days were only because she was alone. She rembered Xiao Yifei had studied abroad, and his loneliness might have been even greater.
"Sister Rong, may I chat with Brother Xiao for a while? It won’t take long," Shi Miaomiao asked.
"Go ahead, why are you asking my permission for such a thing? From now on, Xiao Yifei is yours!" Tang Rong said cheerfully.
Tang Rong knowingly returned to her bedroom.
"Brother Xiao, did you feel lonely when you were abroad?" Shi Miaomiao asked.
"Of course, and it was the kind of loneliness that couldn’t be dispelled. There weren’t any familiar Chinese people there, so I often attended classes, als, and entertainnt alone. Why ask suddenly? Do you want to study abroad?" Xiao Yifei asked.
"No, I just wanted to understand a bit," Shi Miaomiao didn’t ntion how boring it was being alone here; she felt it would be embarrassing to admit.
"Actually, when lonely, just find sothing to do. Once you’re occupied, you won’t overthink. That’s what I did back then because I was alone when I returned to the dormitory, so I spent my days in the laboratory. At least there was soone to talk to in the lab. Back in the dorm, I’d read books or sothing, and the day would pass this way," Xiao Yifei said, reminiscing about the past with a strange sense of nostalgia.
The old days were monotonous yet so innocent. The primary task back then was to learn and do experints. Unlike now, once stepping into society, everything was no longer simple. Besides a busy work schedule, making ti for social formalities and guarding against troublemakers was necessary.
A new week began, and Xiao Yifei drove to work full of hope. Although nothing particularly joyful happened, maintaining a positive attitude was still important. Yet, he couldn’t shake an uneasy feeling, as if sothing was wrong.
He recalled a dream he’d had, where Sun Xingyao warned him to behave, or else face consequences. It must have been due to the recent commotion over the Zheng Peng incident. Xiao Yifei cald himself, telling himself that dreams are often the opposite of reality. So today must be a lucky day, Lin Mu reassured himself, although he still felt sothing was off.
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