I was once a woman without any dreams, without any hope for the future.
My na is Shen Zuimo, but ever since I ca to this dark place when I was eight years old, I no longer went by that na. They gave a new code na: nightingale.
I once struggled to survive in this world. From the age of sixteen, after killing my first person, I realized that to survive in this world, relying on others is impossible, and I can only rely on myself, on the knife in my hand.
Others' lives beca capital in my eyes to ensure my survival; only by killing more could I live longer.
Yet, I never thought about why I want to live, for what reason to live?
It was said, just purely to live for the sake of living.
There is a mory that is missing, and that mory seems very precious. Because, in that mory, there is only one person, and that person seems to be called Ye Xiaofan.
His appearance added a trace of warmth to my originally cold world. At first, I was very resistant to this trace of warmth because I did not need it.
As the warmth grew more and more, I felt unease, and my emotions began to change with his warmth, a phenonon that had never happened before.
Until in the end, when I was completely wrapped in warmth, that coziness beca irresistibly difficult to resist; even after leaving for a while, I began to feel nostalgic. It's like the feeling of not wanting to get out of a warm bed on a winter day when the temperature is only a few degrees below zero, always thinking, stay just a little longer, just a little longer.
He was different from those hypocritical people; his warmth was genuine and freely given to . So I selfishly thought he would always use this warmth to embrace , no matter what I did.
But when I was told that I needed to search for this warmth, I started hesitating, even avoiding it. Does that warmth truly belong to ?
Yes, that warmth belonged to . He was always waiting for to go to him. Once again, he wanted to wrap up, making think my life was just beginning.
But right now, despite all kinds of obstacles in front of us, he still refuses to give up on protecting . It was at this mont that I realized I had always been so selfish. Selfishly thinking I could gain more affection from him, selfishly believing he would give a vast sky, yet I never considered his difficulties.
He, too, had a hard ti. How many tis has he died for along the way? If I disappear from this world, perhaps he wouldn't have to struggle as much anymore.
Thank you, Ye Xiaofan. Thank you for letting feel warmth and peace I never experienced before. I'm sorry, Ye Xiaofan. I also want to savor a bit more of your unconditional care, but I should also do sothing for you. And I realize I truly do love you. Shen Zuimo loves you, Ye Xiaofan... Finally, goodbye...
This is all of Shen Zuimo's ntal process when leaping off the helicopter. But unexpectedly, even in the end, I couldn't do anything for him.
"Ye Xiaofan, you go to hell..."
Lingze swung his AK47, ready to pull the trigger on Xiaofan.
Without Inner Strength, he could dodge one or two bullets, but in the face of machine gun fire, without the speed of the Ghost Shadow Step, how could he possibly dodge it?
'Bang.'
At this mont, a sniper gunshot sounded. It accurately hit the AK47 in Lingze's hand.
"Damn it, just watch take you down..."
"Don't shoot, Zuimo is up there." Xiaofan imdiately turned back and shouted loudly.
At this mont, Shaojie, Jie, Long Jie, and Bing had already arrived, helping Lin Hongbin and the others knock down the assassins blocking the road, and everyone joined up with Xiaofan.
However, Zuimo was already on the helicopter, which continued to ascend...
"Go, quickly go."
Uncle Zhong noticed the bleak situation and imdiately ordered the helicopter to leave.
"Damn it, let her go now." Bing imdiately raised his sniper rifle and aid it.
"Ah hahaha... Co on, if you dare, shoot , shoot! Hahaha, Ye Xiaofan, you're lucky this ti. If you want to rescue Shen Zuimo, then co to Japan and see if you have that ability. Rember, I'm not as easy to fool as Zhu Fan. Ah hahaha..."
Lingze's nauseating laughter echoed in the air. Bing's hand tightened, but Li San beside him gently held it down.
Shaking his head, he sighed heavily.
"Ye Xiaofan, don't co looking for , because I never loved you."
"Idiot. You better live well, and if you dare do sothing foolish again, I will never forgive you." Xiaofan lowered his head. Perhaps he didn't want her to see his weak side. He couldn't save her, nor did he have the courage to watch her being taken away.
His body trembled, as Grandpa said, when you need that thing but can't use it, it's the most frustrating.
"People like shouldn't be alive in this world, forget . Many people are waiting for you around..."
"Shut up, you stupid woman. Now, follow and say, say you love , say you want to live. Say you are waiting for to rescue you..."
"..."
Tears silently slipped down; enough, Ye Xiaofan, I'm satisfied. Thank you... truly. Our fate ends here...
"Say it... Shen Zuimo. Tell clearly, say it..."
This shout, heart-wrenching, hysterical... shook the entire mountaintop, and even the birds asleep were awakened by this yell, chirping and flying chaotically.
"Ah... Ah..." Shen Zuimo could no longer speak through her tears. She had never been so profoundly moved.
"Say it, I need you... say it." As the helicopter reached a certain height, it started to slowly move away. Xiaofan stood exhausted and spiritless in place, muttering faintly as if he no longer had the energy to shout out loud.
"Ye Xiaofan, I love you, I want to live, I want to live with you, I need you, I'm waiting for you to rescue ..."
In a daze, Xiaofan suddenly raised his head abruptly, looking at the helicopter that had already flown far with tears all over his face.
Wiping away the tears, Xiaofan broke into a gentle smile: "Thank you for believing in ."
"Wait... I will definitely co..."
As the words fell, Xiaofan's body suddenly fell backward. Li San quickly stepped forward to catch him. But in his hand, he felt a large patch of wetness.
"Xiaofan, Xiaofan..."
"What happened?" Ren Ling hurried over.
"This guy's recently stitched wound has opened again, really, quickly, send him back to the hospital..."
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