From another perspective, what Xiaofan said does indeed make so sense.
But how can a relationship that has run for so many years be explained so easily with just a few words?
However, Xiaofan's words did bring a bit of comfort to Xiao Lei's heart.
"Where are you planning to take now?"
The car wasn't moving fast. Xiao Lei looked at the familiar yet unfamiliar streets, feeling a faint sense of loss. This city held too much sadness for her.
"I don't know where either. I'll just stay with you until you don't want to die anymore," Xiaofan said slowly.
"Let's go have a couple of drinks."
Drinking? Drowning one's sorrow in alcohol is sowhat of a way to ease the pain in your heart. Xiaofan has been through it. In fact, after getting drunk, you can have an unrestrained sleep, but once you wake up, the painful lancholy doubles back into your heart.
Even though he knew drinking to drown sorrow wasn't a wise decision, at the mont, without a few drinks, it was impossible to hold out. Xiaofan understood that kind of pain deeply.
When Zuimo left, wasn't Xiaofan also doing the sa at the Star Moon Bar? Every day he would get drunk, be taken to a hotel by Fei and others, sleep until the afternoon, grab sothing to eat on the street, and then head back to the bar to continue drinking. Eventually, even Fei didn't dare to challenge him hard, it felt as if he couldn't get drunk no matter how much he drank, his mind remained clear, but as long as he was sober, he would think of Zuimo, which forced him to drink until he was drunk.
That's exactly how Xiao Lei feels now. She doesn't want to think, she chooses to escape, to let go of everything and empty herself.
The two of them stopped their car in front of a nearby pub.
Beer doesn't harm the body as easily, so Xiaofan ordered a dozen beers.
Xiao Lei doesn't really like drinking, but because she's worked many different jobs, she can hold her liquor pretty well.
After finishing one dozen, neither of them felt anything. Consequently, Xiao Lei directly asked the waiter to bring over two more dozens.
"Cheers..."
Xiao Lei drank quickly, aggressively. As if it wasn't alcohol but plain water.
So people have a strong tolerance for alcohol; drinking three dozens and still feeling nothing. Xiaofan has seen many such people among Fei's group of friends.
Although Xiao Lei can hold her liquor well, she isn't the type who doesn't get drunk. Moreover, she drank fiercely, not considering whether Xiaofan was drinking or not, just gulping it down herself.
Finally, she couldn't drink anymore, feeling her stomach churn, she rushed to the restroom and threw up.
Beer tends to cause bloating. Originally, it was thought that after throwing up, Xiao Lei wouldn't drink anymore. But unexpectedly, after emptying her stomach, she started chugging down more beer.
"Enough. That's enough."
Finally, Xiaofan couldn't stand it any longer. Together, they finished the three dozens of beer. When he saw that Xiao Lei still wanted to ask the waiter for more, he quickly stepped in to stop her.
"No, I still want to drink, I still want to drink..." At this mont, Xiao Lei was no longer completely sober, her eyelids nearly shut, the amount consud was already more than enough, it was just her final struggle before consciousness faded away.
"Okay, I understand. The drinks here won't get us drunk, let's go drink sowhere else."
"Hmm? Okay, let's go sowhere else and, and drink so more..."
After settling the bill, Xiaofan helped the now staggering Xiao Lei into the car.
In this world, there are too many n and won bound by emotions. In terms of emotions, those who give too much are often the ones who lose easily.
In this regard, Xiaofan felt he was fortunate. At least, the person he loved also had feelings for him.
"I still want to drink, aren't we there yet?"
In the car, a completely befuddled Xiao Lei kept babbling nonsensically.
"Why, Li Fei, tell why didn't he want anymore? Why? Could it really be that money rules everything in this world? Why? Why don't I have money? If I had money, I could keep him by my side."
If money can retain a relationship, is that even genuine love?
Xiaofan knew Xiao Lei was talking nonsense. This girl loved too bitterly, too strenuously.
At around two in the afternoon, Xiaofan brought Xiao Lei back to her rental apartnt and laid her down steadily on the bed. One sleep was probably all she needed.
Liu Qiong had classes in the afternoon, so Xiaofan decided not to let her work. He would manage the tuition fees and other expenses for the two girls himself.
"When will you be back?"
"How is it? How's Xiao Lei?" Liu Qiong asked worriedly on the phone.
"She's drunk, at ho."
"You keep an eye on her first, I should be back around five thirty."
"Alright then, I'm heading out. She'll probably sleep straight through until midnight or the next morning." Xiaofan had other matters to deal with.
"Oh, can't you stay and watch over her for a bit? I know, I'll co back as soon as possible." Liu Qiong also intended to return quickly, but her afternoon classes were crucial for her credits, making it difficult. Yet, she couldn't trouble Li Fei too much, couldn't take too much of his ti.
Just as Xiaofan ended the call and was about to cover Xiao Lei with a blanket and leave, her small hand suddenly grabbed onto Xiaofan's wrist.
"Don't go, Zhang Yu, don't go, don't leave."
Yes, she subconsciously kept thinking of the other person. How can one truly let go from the heart?
"I'm just going out for a bit..."
"No, you can't go anywhere, stay with , please, stay with ."
Xiao Lei, who kept her eyes closed, seed to sense the person beside her was about to leave, so she desperately pleaded for him to stay.
She was afraid of being alone, afraid of loneliness, afraid of reality, she needed comfort.
At a loss, Xiao Lei took it a step further, wrapping her other hand around Xiaofan's waist, pulling him to sit by the bed. Then, without a care, she laid her little head on Xiaofan's lap.
"Don't go..."
"Alright, I won't go. Rest well. I'll stay with you." Well, might as well do a good deed to the end. After all, it wouldn't take much longer.
As soon as Xiao Lei confird that the person beside her wouldn't leave, she imdiately cald down from her earlier restlessness.
Holding Xiao Lei like this wasn't really a solution, Xiaofan thought. He wanted her to lay down comfortably, but when he tried to push her away, her arms instinctively tightened around his waist again.
With no other choice, Xiaofan straightened up on Xiao Lei's bed, allowing her to rest comfortably in the most relaxing position.
At this mont, the previously distraught Xiao Lei felt enveloped in warmth, clearly sensing the gentleness provided by the person beside her. A quiet and peaceful gentleness.
Her heart gradually cald down, her breathing steadied. This tired girl finally fell into a peaceful sleep.
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