"Now you want to abandon again, just like before. But I, Hu Chunsheng, won’t let my woman leave for a third ti. Xiao Lin, accept your fate, you’ll never leave in this life. If it cos to that day, I’d rather die and drag you down to hell with ."
Lin Xuelin wasn’t moved at all. She was no longer the little girl from back then, well aware that sweet words can’t hide the truth. If it were true love, he wouldn’t have gotten married and had children.
In the end, they were both selfish, living for themselves. Thinking of this, Lin Xuelin smiled a little.
Hu Chunsheng, stepping forward to hold her, whispered, "Stop thinking about divorce. That path won’t work. If your dad finds out you’re getting divorced, he’ll find you even more disgraceful. He opposed our marriage back then, and now, for you to start anew, it doesn’t fit your character.
Your only option now is to tell him your surroundings were too poor, you had two pregnancies and couldn’t keep them. Now, you just want to live well and have a son. Maybe then he’ll believe you. Don’t ntion wanting to return to Beijing, just say the suburbs are fine, wanting to be closer to family.
Let’s take it step by step, first co back to the suburbs, and then proceed step by step."
Lin Xuelin pushed him away after listening, glancing at him, "Alright, today is the weekend, I’ll go ho to see if my parents are around. You go back first, don’t co here idly, or they’ll just make go back to my in-laws again."
Hu Chunsheng, holding her back, continued to sweet-talk until he saw her smile, finally breathing a sigh of relief as he bid her farewell.
Lin Xuelin, not hesitating any longer, freshened herself up, maintained her appearance, and searched through the living room for a long ti before finally finding a key, summoning the courage to return to her maternal ho.
In the apartnt building, Chen Jingru was taking advantage of the weekend to do housework, planning to wash all the bed sheets and covers. Otherwise, there would be no quilts for her son when he ca ho.
Seeing Lin Xuelin pushing the door open, she quickly put down what she had in her hands, wiped her hands dry with a cloth, looked behind her, and seeing she was alone, pulled her to sit down.
"Why co back alone? Where’s your man? Listen to mom and live well. What did your in-laws say? Didn’t they treat you poorly?"
Lin Xuelin turned her eyes away, not daring to face her mother. She couldn’t tell her that she hadn’t been back to her in-law’s house since that day. If she said that, her mom would probably chase her out again.
"Where’s dad? Where did he go? Why isn’t he ho today?"
Chen Jingru took out a pack of biscuits from the room and handed it to her, "Have a bite first, Mom will finish up her chores and cook noodles for you later. Where else could your dad be, he went to see your grandmother early in the morning. Xiao Lin, don’t bla your dad. Your grandmother’s fall was all your doing. He might not show a good face to you, but he’s been inquiring about you these days."
Lin Xuelin lowered her head guiltily, "I didn’t expect my grandmother to go to the Hu family. I know I was wrong, but she refuses to see , saying she doesn’t have a granddaughter like ."
What could Chen Jingru say? Not acknowledging her daughter, and even herself, received angry glares from the old lady. She didn’t want to ntion Mrs. Lin, as she was just a troubleso person.
"If she doesn’t want to see you, she won’t. In any case, you’ll have to go back in a few days. When she cos around, it’ll be fine..."
Lin Xuelin quickly interrupted, "Mom, didn’t you say dad was already helping ? Why do you say I still have to go back? I don’t want to go. You said I’d have to stay for a year or two, and then when Uncle stopped being angry, I could co back. Now, Uncle hasn’t stopped from coming back, why won’t you let co back?"
Chen Jingru patted her, "Don’t rush. It’s not just your dad trying to figure sothing out, I’ve also asked soone to inquire. You’re not the only one unable to move your household registration back. You know several of your friends have gone to support the frontier these past two years, right?"
Lin Xuelin shook her head sorrowfully. Ever since the incident, no one had contacted her.
Chen Jingru sighed, "Those people now are actively applying to go to the frontier, while you want to co back, this involves many issues. You’re grown up now, you should understand that having you co back now isn’t realistic. Go back and work well, strive to be recomnded to study in Beijing. Once the household registration loosens, I’ll bring you back."
Study, study... all excuses. If she could get a recomndation, would she struggle so hard to return?
As soon as Lin Xuelin heard her say this, she imdiately stood up and shouted, "What kind of mother are you, why don’t you send Xiao Hui to the frontier? You’re so biased."
After shouting, she turned and ran out in a huff.
Chen Jingru clutched her chest, unable to catch her breath from anger. What wrong had she done?
So many people could stay in the Northwest, yet why couldn’t this ancestor stay? Comparing herself to Xiao Hui, what kind of sister does that? Has Xiao Hui had an easy ti relying on herself until now?
Lin Xuelin ran out of the building, looking back to see her mom hadn’t chased her, and suddenly felt sad, tears uncontrollably falling. She truly felt abandoned, unloved by both her father and mother, a pitiful creature.
And her grandmother, truly too excessive, saying she didn’t acknowledge her. She had to ask who made her go to soone else’s door step to curse? And wanting to bla it on herself, wishful thinking!
In a rage, Lin Xuelin didn’t bother to take the bus and sprinted towards the Big Courtyard. This ti she had to clarify what mistake she had made for her grandmother to treat her like this?
A while ago, she was ashad to et acquaintances, but now she didn’t care. Let whoever wanted to laugh at her do so. Anyway, she couldn’t live well, and neither could anyone else.
After running so distance, a sweaty Lin Xuelin stood at the gate of the Big Courtyard, pointing at the gate guard to notify the family that she wanted to go ho.
The gate guard was new, glanced at his comrades, saw them motion him to go, and without thinking much went in for a while, ca out with a peculiar expression.
"Mr. Lin, the chief says it’s not convenient now, you should co back another day to visit."
Lin Xuelin looked forlornly at the gate.
—Even grandpa won’t let her in now, does everyone truly not want her anymore!
After a long ti, Lin Xuelin ignored the pedestrians entering and exiting, determinedly stepping forward to have them report again. Unexpectedly, she caught sight of soone exiting the courtyard out of the corner of her eye.
Seeing that face, she was so terrified she quickly turned and ran.
After so many years, Lin Xuelin couldn’t forget the suffocating despair, nor Zhang Guoqing’s eyes looking at her as if she were dead. That killing god, why was he still in the Big Courtyard?
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