Reborn As A Ghost: Time To Build My Undead Army! Chapter 285 Sorting Out Thoughts

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I suppose having done the deed doesn’t an we are instantly… in a relationship, that’s sothing that must be established officially, isn’t it? Huh… How can I make it reasonable, I wonder? Do I just ask her? Ah, what if she says she doesn’t like to get tied? Ah, or maybe I would be abusing it? Or perhaps it is too soon? Yeah, it is way too soon, maybe we should develop our bond together so more…

And what about Lucifer and Eraldine? Ugh, romancing three people at once is very hard, how could these harem protagonist do it so swiftly? I have to think about their feelings, and how each one feels about and the entire relationship, things are not easy at all, if I slip off, I might make soone angry, and if I prioritize giving love to one above the others, I will make the others feel left out, as if I had a “favorite”… Wow, this is so overly complicated. I guess harem relationships are not realistic at all..

But I have to sohow pull through this on my own, I cannot really go back on my words, I just love them all so much… I am glad they accept one another and are friends, but it seems they have not even developed feelings for one another, just friendship and so rivalry, perhaps Partner and Eraldine are good friends, while Lucifer is a more distant friend from the two girls as he’s a male, and very silent at tis, so I suppose he cannot connect well with the girls, but he does connect well with . I guess with him, I have to mostly be alone, while it is easier to be with Eraldine and Partner at the sa ti acting lovingly, Lucifer is way too shy and reserved, so I have to give him his “special ti” where we are the two together alone.

Of course, I do the sa with Partner and Eraldine, I am not making Lucifer my favorite or sothing! H-He’s just my grumpy and shy dragon, so I have to treat him well… Ugh, it is really hard to handle this relationship. Well, they’re not even official yet, but it is sure as hell that they don’t want to be with anybody else than , I would had already seen them ogling other people, but they only got eyes for . Very problematic, perhaps I should had stayed as a formless specter instead of shaping myself as a woman, maybe in that form I wouldn’t be liked? …Hard to tell, all three of them are a bit insane in their own accords.

Ugh, I better never say that in front of anybody, even less these three… I an, they’re not bad, but like , they got so… insanity. Lucifer died horribly, betrayed, and has been sealed for an eternity, knowing his family got killed by the humans, Eraldine went through utter suffering when she was enslaved, constantly used as a sexual slave, she was absolutely broken when I et her, and she had barely managed to regain her self-confidence all because of , and then there is Partner… She’s… well, she was a skeleton and then a vampire? I guess she’s the “sanest” but because of her monster-like instincts, for anybody that is “normal” she’s an insane person because she lacks common sense.

And then there’s ! I died horribly in my first life, and then in my second life, and turned into a ghost, and I am secretly filled with hatred and resentnt, enough that I could even disregard everything I’ve done and just slaughter all the people I saw just to satisfy this lingering desire of “revenge”. Phew, thankfully I still got my mind from my first life, which stops my insanity from getting out… most of the ti. Who would had known that being a shy girl without any self-confidence that always bottled up her emotions would help at bottling up this resentnt and hatred as a ghost? I guess you could call it a natural talent, alongside being overly quick at adapting to situations…

I am pretty good at that, yeah, but that’s not the whole point of it! I was talking about relationships, not , I don’t matter on this- Wait, I kind of do… I… I guess I am the one connecting all three of these people together into a family, I am the core of their lives in a way too… I-I an, all three of them had called their “world” and Lucifer always calls “my most precious treasure”, s-so it is a bit important for to recognize my value, I guess.

And… It is hard, it is quite hard to handle the relationship, I don’t know I can even add another person. Thankfully, I’ve been rejecting anyone that might had tried to, I still rember all those goblins that tried, and sotis forr slaves’ citizens brought flowers, or food, and asked out in a date out of nowhere… I had to reject them all, sadly. I always feel terrible when I do this, especially because in my first life I was always being rejected.

ɴ[0)ᴠᴇʟ I suppose popular girls back then lacked empathy so they didn’t felt so bad, but man, it hurts to see them sad, so I try to cheer them up by petting their heads, or gifting them sothing so they don’t go away all saddened, so a lot of people in my town already got so sort of little gift from which they treasure… I hope they can find love in each other instead of trying to romance their queen, it is not realistic, you guys…

Anyways, after having sorted out my thoughts and having relaxed my mind, I finally looked into the window, the sun was high atop the skies, it was a beautiful day, although we were in quite the poor street so there were very shady people walking around, but its not like we were staying all day in here, in so hours, we’ll try to stay in the Duchess manor.

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