"Believe? Of course, I believe." Qin Xue does believe, although saying that there’s not a single day she feels happy is impossible. It’s just that she often feels unhappy. She doesn’t see the need to argue with Qin Ying about this topic.
"Don’t you find it strange at all?" Qin Ying turned her head to look at Qin Xue. Doesn’t it strike her as odd? How can soone never feel happy for a day? If that were true, would she still be human?
"Because I choose to believe you." Qin Xue just gave her a faint glance without saying more.
"Haha, what a delightful answer." Qin Ying laughed. The fact that she’d say she believes her—isn’t that quite amusing?
"Does that make you happy already? It’s just a common answer. Everyone’s mood is affected by all sorts of things. Feeling unhappy is normal, but nowadays people are supposed to look on the bright side. Not everyone is willing to live in unhappiness." Qin Xue herself doesn’t wish to live that way.
Just like in her previous life, she was the good girl in front of teachers and her grandparents, but with Yingying and Chenchen, she turned into that kind of rebellious teenage girl. When confronting those little delinquents, she seed even more delinquent—they’d fight, and she’d do it too.
She rely used this way to release her inner pressure, yet she never did anything illegal. This was her personal restraint.
She could allow herself to fight, allow herself to be disobedient, but she wouldn’t let herself do things beyond her limits, and crossing the law or becoming a mistress was her limit—she would never do those things.
So, despite feeling repressed and unhappy, she would find ways to make herself cheerful.
And this situation was beneficial for her because a person needs to know how to regulate their emotions in order not to get sick.
When Qin Xue grew up, she beca a doctor. She was even more aware of how important this was, so underneath her quiet exterior were actually quite violent actions. Yet, being a doctor requires imnse care, balancing out her behavior.
This is the reason why she could live so well—because she has two good sisters. They’re always together, and after everyone does their own thing, they would vent out their frustration collectively.
Now hearing Qin Ying say this, Qin Xue felt that the work she was engaged in certainly wouldn’t be ordinary because she saw a different kind of brilliance in her eyes. It proved that she, too, was soone whose exterior didn’t match her actions.
And people like her often catch others off guard, for no one knows when she might jump up and punch you.
"What do you an?" Qin Ying looked at Qin Xue. Could she have discovered sothing? Impossible, even her mom doesn’t know what she’s been doing for years; Qin Xue couldn’t possibly know. Yes, she must be bluffing her, trying to make her feel guilty and reveal vulnerabilities.
"Nothing, just wanted to say that so things can be done, and so things shouldn’t be done. Don’t regret it in the end." Qin Xue gave her a faint glance.
She didn’t say much, as their relationship hadn’t reached the point of confiding in one another, and Qin Ying wouldn’t want to listen to her advice either—it’d be better not to embarrass herself.
People like them wouldn’t think of doing anything because they’re too tired—emotionally tired.
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