"Xue Yang, I don’t like you. Can you stop bothering !
"I told you that I’d say yes to you once you got into the sa university as . That was a lie. Couldn’t you tell? You didn’t actually think I said that to encourage you, did you? You never stopped to think about how terrible your grades were back then. I only said that to make you give up. Who knew you’d actually get into Yanbei University!
"Please, just leave alone. Do you have any idea how much trouble your public confession caused today? Because of what you did, I don’t even know how I’m supposed to face everyone at the university anymore. I’m about to start my internship. Just leave so dignity!
"Xue Yang, get lost! Get out of my sight. I don’t want to see you ever again."
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Six years!
For six whole years, he had worked hard to chase after her. In the year before the college entrance exam, he studied so hard that he fainted several tis. Each ti, before he had even fully recovered, he would rush back to school to continue his classes. In his senior year of high school alone, he lost twenty-two pounds.
At six-foot-one and weighing only 121 pounds, he was painfully thin. His parents worried that sothing was wrong with his health.
But after he had finally caught up to her, she said, "Leave alone. Do you know how much trouble you’ve caused ?"
I don’t like you! I just wanted you to give up! Xue Yang, get lost! Get out of my sight. I don’t want to see you anymore.
The past was vivid in his mind. As the cold rain lashed his face, Xue Yang felt nothing. He let it fall, no longer able to distinguish rain from tears.
They say a man doesn’t shed tears easily, only when he is truly heartbroken.
He was eighteen, having just started his freshman year of college this September. He had been in love with a senior for six years.
When Xue Yang had just started junior high, she was already in her third year. It was his first ti leaving ho to board at school. The mont she took his luggage, he had fallen hopelessly for her.
Whether in junior high, high school, or college, she had always been the belle of the school.
She had countless admirers, and Xue Yang was just one of them—not the best, but not the worst either.
There were many boys at school who, like him, had liked her for years. But not one of them dared to declare their love as loudly as Xue Yang, letting everyone know that he was pursuing her.
His love was passionate and protracted. He wrote her a love letter every so often, and she accepted every single one. He also gave her other things, like roses, stuffed toys, milk tea, and designer bags... she accepted them all.
Xue Yang had always thought he had a chance. And he did—a chance to be a player in her ga.
After six years, even a block of iron should have ward up. Yet, she was like a popsicle frozen for ten thousand years, impossible to thaw. Utterly impossible.
She had never liked him from the very beginning. To her, his fervent affection was nothing but a huge nuisance.
A nuisance. What a fitting word.
She knew perfectly well that he had been desperately pursuing her for six years, yet when he finally caught up and confessed his feelings, the word she used was "nuisance."
From start to finish, the person he loved had only seen him as a joke. A massive joke.
It was over. Six years of playing the clown—over.
The greatest sorrow in the world is to be so moved by your own devotion in a relationship, only to have the other person not give a damn.
At that mont, Xue Yang finally understood. For six years, he had been nothing more than a buffoon.
She never explicitly rejected you because she wanted you to give up on your own. It was never because she was interested or was testing you in so way. She was never, ever going to like you for your persistence. Who said that accepting your gifts ans she has to accept you? Dislike is dislike. It won’t change with the passage of ti, nor will she be moved no matter how many gifts she receives from you. Love is not sothing that can withstand being tested.
Chen Ying, from this day forward, I’m done loving you.
Xue Yang looked up at the sky, letting the drizzling rain wash over his face and cleanse away the humiliating past.
Don’t assu the whole world has abandoned you; the world simply doesn’t have ti to bother with you.
After wiping the rain from his face, Xue Yang realized he was the only person on the entire road, apart from his own shadow, elongated by the streetlight.
No, that’s not quite right. There’s soone else.
Under a large tree nearby, illuminated by the streetlight, a small, helpless figure was huddled up, taking shelter from the rain. Her hair was done up in two cute pigtails that fell on either side of her face. She had straight-cut bangs and wore a pink, cat-eared hat.
She wore a mask, revealing a pair of large, limpid eyes. She was dressed in a pink, heart-patterned Lolita outfit. Beneath the pleated skirt was a pair of straight, pale legs in white, knee-high stockings, and on her feet were small, black leather shoes. On closer inspection, it sowhat resembled a maid’s uniform. Her clothes were damp, and she looked as pitiful as a kitten abandoned by its owner.
It was hard not to notice a girl like that standing on the side of the road.
Xue Yang glanced over as if by accident, and his eyes t the Lolita girl’s. He quickly looked away. Both of them were drenched, both alone on the roadside so late at night. There was a sense of kinship between them, like two fellow sufferers in a vast world.
But no, they didn’t know each other at all.
Xue Yang nonchalantly walked past the girl, though a part of him was still concerned.
It’s already past midnight, and a girl is standing all alone by the road. Is she waiting for soone? If she is, why not wait in a convenience store or sowhere similar? Besides, it’s so late. If she’s a student from the university, she should be back in her dorm asleep by now. The dorm matron locks the doors after midnight, and no amount of pleading will get you in. And from the look of her, she seems to have run into so trouble, which is why she’s out here. It’s still raining, and she’s just hiding under a big tree. What if there’s lightning? Wouldn’t that be incredibly dangerous? And what if she runs into soone with bad intentions? Wouldn’t that be even more dangerous?
He was definitely concerned.
Xue Yang stopped and turned back.
"Miss," Xue Yang called out to the girl.
The girl flinched and didn’t reply imdiately. Instead, she gave him a wary look. She looked even more like a kitten now. A Xiao Naimao, to be precise—fierce in a cute way.
"I just wanted to warn you," he said. "It’s best not to stand under a large tree when it’s raining. It’s dangerous."
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"Don’t get wrong," he added quickly. "I’m a student at the university nearby. Just a friendly warning."
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Although his status as a university student made him seem less dangerous, the girl remained extrely wary. Her large eyes stared at him without blinking, as if she might lash out with her claws at any second.
Forget it. My own life is a complete ss. How can I find the energy to ddle in soone else’s affairs? What if she’s the dangerous one, and I’m just the fish she’s baiting?
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